Olivia. I know what went wrong. It was me, not you. I couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that you cared about me. Which meant I had a job to do and that job was to not fuck this up. And that’s just what I did.
Not because I didn’t care, but those feelings needed to be tested for authenticity. Because the last three women that claimed to be important to me, made me feel like I was being conned. I wasn’t being conned. But it felt that way when you were the most genuine person I had met in too long. Which means there’s no way you couldn’t be pulling me into another suspect situation. That whole view was wrong and I have a need to be right and that came at the cost of losing you.
Now I have to live without you and pretend like it wasn’t the biggest L I’ve taken in 7 years. You blocked me, and I respect you too much to not listen this time. It’s the only play I have left and it is the last move I have. I missed you everyday since. And it wasn’t your fault at all.
Please reconsider. Please come with me and you will see that making things right is how you get left. I hate it when that happens… Night baby. One day is just around the corner.
DW







