I never got to have a teen romance
And I feel like I am running out of time to have a relationship on my twenties
I am so scared that I am going to be thirty and never had a relationship, that no one is going to want to be with me.
Can someone who met the love of their life in their thirties please tell me that I’m being stupid?
Anyone else ever think they’re over someone then get hit with the “But i was genuinely in love with them” thoughts? Like doesnt matter how abusive they were i did really love em
”I’m too weird, no one will ever love me”
Hey, the right person is going to match your weirdness and -as a matter of fact- double it. Any and all people who’ve ever been interested in me romantically have always loved the photos where I look ugly and am doing odd shit far more than the ones where I’m posed and pretty.
Is it still possible to have a gen Z bestie?
Well, I don’t think so. I have a miserable experience with them and when I’m saying “experience”, it’s definitely subjective (not 100% accurate). I’m also gen Z myself which means I criticise myself and them.
Okay, I was in the same year with them in the university life and mostly, they treated their peers like, “I’ll simply be present when you serve my purposes.” Well, unless you’re their circle, but it doesn’t always guarantee their genuineness. This is why I ditched them. Too parasitic.
BUT
Not all of them behave that way. There’s one gen Z junior who treated me better because I did the same say, but…. she’s just confusing to me. Okay. I can’t go further with this. I just don’t want to speak ill of her especially behind her back.
I also once had a gen Z bestie who’s like an angel. She’s very kind and warm. She never judged my appearance and she’s a good listener either. One thing I recalled about her was she genuinely welcomed me when I paid her a visit at her house. Well, she’s simply a good person to be around. However, something happened to us and we decided to sever our bond.
Have I ever done the same to them?
Yes, without my awareness. Nevertheless, I’m a fair person, mates. If they do me a favour, I’ll return the merits. I’m not a parasitic git that has a penchant for sucking others’ resources without ever knowing to be even.
In the end, the chance of you being able to develop a meaningful bond with one of them is depending on these factors: their personality and your treatment towards them. Not all gen Z are the snakes in the grass in friendship.
So, my best friend is best friends with my boyfriend. (if you can understand that, great. If not, sorry, but I don’t think you will) In other words, my boyfriend and my best friend are best friends. I don’t have a problem with this, just to clarify. In fact, I love it. Because whenever they hang out, she tries to take sneaky pictures and videos of him and send them to me. XD I love it!
I have memorized all of the audio to one of the videos she sent me ten minutes ago. (Please tell me if that’s normal or not. I NEED to know if I’m just being normal or if I’m being a creep. I feel like this is something that most people do, just don’t talk about) It’s not even him talking. He’s looking away, oblivious to the video, then he looks at it, smiles, waves, and the video ends. The person talking is my best friend’s mom. She’s talking about something completely different.
I think I’m in love.
I’m also gonna rant about him for a while, because I don’t like ranting about him to my friends, because I don’t want be the girl that’s nonstop talking about her boyfriend.
[[MORE]]So… I’m just gonna dive into our whole little story. You guys are getting every last detail! (Nothing inappropriate, I promise. We’ve literally only held hands. DON’T COME AT ME FOR THAT, WE’RE JUST A BIT SLOW)
Anyway, in sixth grade (I’m in eighth grade now), I had a “crush” on him. We’ll call him… Leo, just for funsies. So, I had a “crush” on Leo and I told my best friend this. She said she could definitely get him and me dating. That’s exactly like how it was presented too. I was too dumb to realize she meant he had a “crush” on me too.
So, I thought it over and decided, yes, I would love for my best friend to set me up with Leo. So, the next day at recess, she told him she had found him a new girlfriend. I don’t know what she actually said, because I was hiding. Yes, hiding. I hid and came out when she said it was me that had a “crush” on him. It was INCREDIBLY awkward. We stood there and looked at each other. Then I said hi. And he said hi. OH MY GOD!!! WE HAVE THE SAME BEGINNING AS NICK AND CHARLIE!!!! I THINK I’M GONNA FREAKING EXPLODE!!!! AAAAHHHH!
Anyway… it was really awkward that whole first year. I completely avoided him for weeks. But now, we’re amazing. And I love it. I love him. Although, there was a huge thing that happened to our relationship this year that is just as pivotal as when we started dating. Sometime earlier this year, I started questioning EVERYTHING about myself. haha, yay. And I did do a biiittt of self harm. And I did have a feeeewww suicidal thoughts. But the only two people that got me through that were my best friend and him. In other words, he basically saved my life.
There was a while where I thought I got through it, but then it all came back about ten times worse, and I thought I didn’t love him anymore and that scared me more than anything. And after about two months of pent up emotions and stress and anxiety, I told one of my other friends that I thought I didn’t love him anymore and I was thinking of breaking up with him. She reminded me that my happiness and well being comes before anyone else’s. (btw, none of my friends, family, or my boyfriend know about the self harm) After a few more weeks, I broke up with Leo and I could barely even say it. Seeing the heartbreak in his eyes hurt everything inside me and it took everything in me not too offer him a hug. I cried for ten minutes straight afterwards.
We stayed broken up for exactly nine days. I realized I was just in a really bad spot and couldn’t handle any type of relationships with people at the moment. I had felt a little trapped. So, when I realized that, I worked on helping myself get better. Then I realized that I would need relationships in my life to help me get through the hard parts. The relationship I had had with him was very much one of the more important ones. So, we got back together after I explained to him that I was handling a bit of a mental breakdown in a bad way.
We’re doing amazing now, and if anything, I think that little bit made our relationship even stronger. I’ve had my days, but I’m also doing good.
Here are my top three favorite moments of him:
One time, my friend was teasing me on writing in a little journal and not showing people. I was writing a rant about my parents and I didn’t want to seem too teenager-ey. I had said I was writing about my family and she said “Isn’t [Leo]your family?” He was right there, btw. And he said, “not yet.” Those exact words!
Every year, my school has a Saint Lucia ceremony-thing. It’s actually a lot of fun. There’s a part where everyone gathers into a few circles and we hold hands and do a dance. Last year, he made sure that he was right next to me for it. Isn’t that cute?
This year, on Valentine’s Day, he was adorable! In class, we had to make a card for someone we care about. Our teacher would not be grading or reading them, thank god. Leo wrote his to me and it was adorable. He said he never wanted our relationship to end and he wrote me a cheesy poem. (I also made mine for him)
I love him.
Sometimes it’s not about men. I want to find a good woman and celebrate her. I can’t pick the gender of my partner yet.
I know this is t what I normally post…. But relationship advice please…😂😭 like we’ve been talking for MONTHS and we dated…. Guys😭😭
a girl i know just broke up w her bf because he hit his mom so hard he got into police custody??? she had been all “my man my man my man” for almost two years now… damn.
I don’t believe in love. It has no permanence, and has shown no authenticity, in my life. And yet I find myself looking at you
and I wonder.
my life isn’t complete until someone confesses their love for me through a drunk text.
You ever just open up your old phone because you thought you needed to transfer info from it, and the lock screen is a photo of your ex? And you get caught so off guard because you completely forgot about it and get hit with a bunch of feelings at once even though you thought you completely moved on? And you realize that even though it couldn’t have worked out, you still miss them? That ever happen to you?
New face, new energy.
Looking for friends, laughs, late night chat and maybe something meaningful.
If this vedio caught your attention, don’t be shy, say hi 🗨️
sometimes I forget that people really do want to put their mouths to someone else’s and it’s not a plot device but an actual human concept
i should be sleeping, but you’re tangled in my mind… wish you’d just fuck me to sleep
