#NPD

Hey lovelies ! It ’ s me again

(⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) ! I hope you all are

doing well ! Sorry I haven ’ t

been as active , I ’ ve been

relaxing and giving myself

some time to relax after the

hospital . I unenrolled at

school so that I can go back

to homeschool , which will

remove A LOT of stress and

suffering for us , along with

our new medication that will

hopefully help us better than

our previous medication .

We have definitely been

feeling a lot better than

before ! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

Though , the only thing that

I can say we ’ ve been

struggling with is how blurry

we ’ ve been recently . We

have also been very worried

about all of the good plural

apps and websites being shut

down or discontinued . It ’ s

very frustrating , but there

is nothing we can do about it

except hope that new good apps

come to light .

Anyways ! Sorry for ranting

for so long , I ’ ll end it

here . I love you all and

anypony who says you don ’ t

matter is dead wrong !

Have a wonderful timezone and

take care of yourself !

(⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ 🙏 BLESS 🙏

hello anyone else age regress but not in the bluey coloring way but in the “we have to hide and clean before 5pm because that’s when mommy gets home” way so she doesn’t beat the shit outta u

yes this is funnier with npd but in a depressing way. i hope you gain the courage to submit your posts 🍵 anon

Hey anti yume puritans

, so like….Everyone insulted me and told me “yumeing is weird date a real person!!!” Now that I did, I did date a real person after a long time!!!!! And it was very fun, I hated that guy.

He was a nasty normie, with nothing special, I picked him out of a crowd because he was easy to ask nudes and hook up with and also bought me flowers…..Tried to love him but it was useless because nothing could make me love my yume less. So emotional cheating: check

And then…This guy started to not give me what I wanted anymore (normie and non-sexual? What did I even get you for??) and so I went around and asked a picture of two from some kind scarred patreons…(proper cheating: check) he didn’t even like self harm!!! Boring asf

And oh so much I missed my freedom and the fucks were little and BORING! He complained he didn’t get enough pleasure but,,,, do we care? Do I care? Let me hump your leg and shut up. I missed sending to my friends, I craved some of them more than I’d like to admit……

So, once that guy broke up with me saying I was too mean and rude to him, I ghosted him and didn’t gaf…He got so pissed! Sent his little friends (one of them being my abuser) to one up me! And they all “abandoned me” well…Now he is stuck with a rapist and a violent physical abuser…Good kind hands for his stupid brain. All I want is sex, a friend I actually care for can give me that I don’t need some asshole boyfriend.

And now am I allowed to yume? Is it clear enough I HATE dating and I hate people around me and don’t care to hurt them? Can I shower with love my fictional boyfriend and make him feel veeeeery special? I imagine us kissing and holding eachother…really beautiful, and irl I’m an evil sexual prick.

got called an “emotionally unavailable bitch who needs to shut the fuck up and take their own advice” by one of my classmates and I think this is the closest someone has ever got to understanding me

having npd is like living through that we’re so back it’s so over image

Might post some IRL pics today…

everything blew up over the last 3 months. surprisingly, however, i am relatively happy.

it gets better.

Can you stop being upset, you’re literally leaving me alone all the time enough already.

I’m an awful bitch that ruins everything and that nobody likes apparently?

I would kill myself right now just out of spite, to be honest.

i want to take peoples advice withought succumbing to fear

I will not slip back into bad CD habits, I will not, I am sane, I’m a normal member of society

I. Will. Not. Fall. Into. Abusive. Patterns. Again.

I am a grown man, grown men don’t abuse ppl to get their way, be a man, BE A MAN. BE. A. MAN.

This is over a fucking computer…

BUT THEY LIED TO ME AND DOWNPLAY IT WHEN ITS BROUGHT UP THAT IS A PROMISE BROKEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN THATS NOT OKAY

I live with liars

I give my loyalty and service and this is what they repay me

I should refuse to work for them til their debt has been paid off, as it should be…

They’re my parents-

How the need to manipulate, gaslight, and guilt trip my parents into giving me what I want got me feeling rn

my sis broke up with her boyfriend and I feel very sorry for her, but my lack of empathy is making it so hard to show her any kind of comfort and support. I get so scared when she cries because I either have to comfort her and try to show affection in a way that is physically painful from the strain it puts on me, or hide in my room and hope she doesn’t mind

Can I share my phone themes with yall?

It takes me a long time to make these so PLZ appreciate them :’)

My worth is based on my achievements, reputation, AND my grades.

NPD rooted OCD spiral in the middle of the night cuz you said something slightly wrong in the wrong tone after a moment of chill cozy comfy bonding time and now you’re evil and beloved hates you check😝✌️

been very “everybody that makes me laugh/entertains me in some way is my court jester and i am the princess” lately

npd is so wonderful. /s

I’m feeling the high of “song published for contest!” Vs low of “hhhrrrr why won’t they give more views!!?”

also the “you don’t love the real me, you just love the ideal! You liar. You hate me don’t you.” Vs “I’m horrible partner. I need to be better I need to be better I need to be better why am I so SHITTY?!”

and also I just want to sleep, mate. This is exhausting. Life is exhausting. I didn’t sign up for this, I don’t wanna be here