i feel so weak today 😑

The apostle Paul struggled with his thoughts and self-control. He wrote in Romans 7:22-23, “I love to do God’s will so far as my new nature is concerned; but there is something else deep within me, in my lower nature, that is at war with my mind and wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. In my mind, I want to be God’s willing servant, but instead I find myself still enslaved to sin” (TLB).

the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. —Matthew 26:41 KJV

i hope

weakness is not definitional.
weakness is defined.
week to week
weak and weak.
day to day.
unrefined.
too conditional?
silver lining?
i get to try again.
i hope.

Check out this post… “Salvation Through Weakness ”.

Salvation Through Weakness

the buttplug distracted me from my video game, so I had to turn that off, I just couldn’t focus

If my friends read this, I apologize to you in advance, I’m not the best example.

I joined what I had to fight. I’m very tired, pills muffle tears, but not feelings and emotions. I was stupid to start doing this on my arm, considering that I wear a T-shirt at home and everyone can notice it. Now I’ve corrected my mistake and I’m doing it on my feet, in the area that the clothes hide. I don’t want to tell this to a psychologist, you shouldn’t strain her and make her worry, plus I don’t think this is something that needs to be fixed. The reasons cannot be removed and it is simply impractical to try to figure it out.

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Password Managers Share a Hidden Weakness

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Password Managers Share a Hidden Weakness

When she comes over wearing sweatpants and lace ….

Great music is all about weakness, uncertainty, mortality—what does Heaven know of these things?

Ryka Aoki, Light from Uncommon Stars

The Sacred Scar: Why God Builds His Greatest Work in the Places You Tried to Hide

There is a quiet place inside every human being that does not feel ready for daylight. It is the memory you avoid revisiting, the insecurity you compensate for, the weakness you have learned to manage but never fully embraced. It is the part of your story that feels unfinished, unimpressive, or unworthy of attention. You may have built an entire life around protecting that place. You may have constructed competence, confidence, humor, discipline, productivity, or even spirituality as a shield so no one looks too closely at what feels fragile within you. And yet, if the patterns of Scripture and the movement of grace teach us anything, they teach us this: the place you most want to hide may be the very place God intends to make holy.

We live in a culture that rewards polish. We celebrate strength, charisma, clarity, and certainty. We admire those who appear unshaken and self-contained. Even in faith communities, there can be an unspoken pressure to appear spiritually stable at all times. We quote verses about victory while quietly fighting battles we dare not name. We speak of joy while wrestling with heaviness. We testify about breakthroughs while ignoring the thorns that remain. Somewhere along the way, many of us absorbed the belief that usefulness requires flawlessness, that calling requires confidence, and that being chosen requires being impressive.

But the Kingdom of God has never operated on that system.

If you trace the thread of Scripture carefully, you will find a consistent and almost uncomfortable truth: God repeatedly chooses the unlikely, the insecure, the overlooked, the wounded, and the weak. He does not simply tolerate their weakness; He weaves it into the story. He does not wait for them to outgrow it before using them; He meets them in it. He does not demand that they erase their scars; He turns those scars into signs of grace.

Consider the apostle Paul’s words in 2 Corinthians. He speaks of a thorn in the flesh, something persistent, something humbling, something that refused to disappear. He pleaded for its removal. He asked for relief. He did what most of us have done at some point: he prayed for subtraction. But the answer he received was not removal; it was revelation. My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness. That statement is not poetic decoration. It is a theological revolution. It dismantles the assumption that power comes after weakness is conquered. It declares that divine strength is most visible precisely where human strength runs out.

The thorn was not a detour in Paul’s calling. It was part of the architecture of it.

This truth challenges something deep in us. We often believe that if we could just fix that one area, eliminate that one struggle, overcome that one insecurity, then we would finally be ready. We imagine a future version of ourselves who is braver, calmer, stronger, more disciplined, more healed, and we tell ourselves that when we become that version, then we will step forward fully. Until then, we remain slightly withdrawn, slightly cautious, slightly self-protective.

But what if readiness is not the absence of weakness, but the surrender of it?

Think about how many people postpone obedience because they feel inadequate. They sense a nudge to lead, to speak, to serve, to create, to mentor, to step out, but the internal dialogue begins immediately. I am not articulate enough. I am not confident enough. I do not have the right background. My past disqualifies me. My personality is wrong. My struggle is too visible. And so they wait. They wait to feel strong. They wait to feel certain. They wait to feel polished.

And sometimes they wait forever.

Yet Scripture offers a different rhythm. Moses stood before a burning bush and listed his limitations. He did not volunteer eagerly. He argued. He highlighted his insecurity. He emphasized his lack of eloquence. He tried to redirect the calling. But God did not respond by saying, “You are right, let me find someone more capable.” Instead, God responded with presence. I will be with you. The calling was never anchored in Moses’ skill set. It was anchored in divine companionship.

Gideon hid in fear, threshing wheat in secret. He did not see himself as courageous. He saw himself as small. And yet he was addressed as a mighty warrior before he felt like one. His weakness did not confuse God. It did not surprise heaven. It did not cancel the plan. In fact, the reduction of his army ensured that the victory could not be attributed to human superiority. The weakness became the canvas upon which divine strength was painted.

Peter’s story carries even more emotional weight. He loved deeply, spoke boldly, and yet failed publicly. The denial in the courtyard was not subtle. It was humiliating. It was loud enough to echo in his memory long after the rooster crowed. Many people would have retreated permanently after such a moment. Shame has a way of convincing us that our worst hour defines our entire identity. But resurrection morning did not bypass Peter. Restoration did not exclude him. The very disciple who trembled in fear later preached with clarity and courage. His earlier weakness did not disqualify him from future strength. It deepened his dependence and shaped his compassion.

We must confront a difficult question. Why are we so determined to erase what God may intend to use?

Part of the answer lies in pride. Pride does not always look arrogant. Sometimes it looks like self-reliance. It looks like the refusal to admit need. It looks like the determination to appear composed at all times. But pride resists weakness because weakness exposes dependence. And dependence is humbling.

Another part of the answer lies in fear. We fear rejection. We fear being seen as inadequate. We fear losing influence or credibility. We fear that if people see the cracks, they will withdraw their trust. So we manage perceptions carefully. We curate our stories. We share the victories and edit the valleys.

Yet something powerful happens when weakness is brought into the light. It loses its power to isolate. It becomes a bridge instead of a barrier.

When someone speaks honestly about anxiety, others feel less alone in theirs. When someone shares a story of failure and redemption, others dare to believe in restoration. When someone admits ongoing struggle while clinging to faith, it dismantles the illusion that maturity means perfection. The scar becomes sacred not because it is glamorous, but because it testifies to survival and grace.

There are weaknesses that shape temperament. There are weaknesses that stem from wounds. There are weaknesses that arise from biology. There are weaknesses that come from past choices. Each category carries its own complexity. Yet none of them surprise God. None of them fall outside the reach of grace.

Some of you have wrestled with anxiety for years. You have learned to function with it, but it still visits unexpectedly. You have prayed for calm. You have sought wisdom. You have taken steps. And yet it lingers. What if that very sensitivity has made you more aware of others’ pain? What if it has cultivated empathy in ways that effortless confidence never could? What if your dependence on prayer during anxious moments has deepened your intimacy with God beyond what comfort would have produced?

Some of you carry a history of failure that you believe shadows every opportunity. Perhaps it was a broken marriage, a financial collapse, a public mistake, or a private sin. You replay it internally. You imagine that others see it when they look at you. You assume it limits what God can do through you. But what if that chapter becomes the very reason someone else listens when you speak of grace? What if credibility in the Kingdom is not built on perfection, but on transformation?

Some of you feel overlooked. You are not the loudest voice in the room. You are not the most charismatic personality. You do not dominate conversations or command attention. You assume leadership belongs to someone more dynamic. Yet Scripture repeatedly shows that God often chooses those who do not choose themselves. The overlooked shepherd becomes king. The quiet servant becomes a cornerstone. The small offering feeds thousands. The Kingdom measures differently.

We often underestimate the spiritual significance of weakness because we equate it with failure. But weakness is not synonymous with sin. It is not automatically rebellion. It is often simply the human condition. It is the reminder that we are finite, fragile, and in need of grace. And grace does not attach itself to self-sufficiency. Grace rushes toward need.

There is a subtle but profound difference between celebrating brokenness and surrendering it. The gospel does not romanticize dysfunction. It does not glorify destructive patterns. Growth matters. Healing matters. Repentance matters. But surrender means acknowledging that transformation is not powered solely by willpower. It is fueled by grace. It means recognizing that even in the process of growth, weakness remains a teacher.

Weakness teaches patience. It teaches humility. It teaches reliance. It teaches compassion. It teaches perseverance. It dismantles arrogance. It softens judgment. It deepens prayer.

The cross itself stands as the ultimate paradox of power through weakness. To the watching world, crucifixion looked like defeat. It looked like vulnerability exposed. It looked like the end of hope. Yet through what appeared weak, redemption entered history. Through what appeared humiliating, salvation unfolded. God has never been intimidated by what looks fragile.

When you begin to see weakness not as an obstacle to purpose but as an instrument within it, something shifts internally. You stop waiting to feel flawless before you act. You stop postponing obedience until insecurity disappears. You begin to understand that courage is not the absence of fear, but movement in spite of it. You realize that faith is not the absence of doubt, but trust in the midst of unanswered questions.

You also become gentler with yourself. Instead of condemning every limitation, you begin to ask what it might be teaching you. Instead of resenting every struggle, you begin to look for grace within it. Instead of hiding your scars, you begin to see them as evidence of survival and redemption.

The sacred scar is not about glorifying pain. It is about recognizing that God wastes nothing. Not the tear you cried in private. Not the failure you regret. Not the insecurity you battle. Not the season of obscurity you endured. Not the thorn that remains. All of it can be woven into a story that magnifies grace.

And yet this truth requires courage to embrace, because it dismantles the illusion of control. It invites you to live without the armor of pretense. It calls you to bring your whole self before God, not just the curated version.

It asks you to trust that His power truly is made perfect in weakness.

When that truth moves from theory to conviction, it changes how you view your life. It changes how you pray. It changes how you lead. It changes how you love. It changes how you endure.

It changes how you see the very place you once tried to hide.

And when you begin to live from that place of surrendered weakness rather than concealed insecurity, you start to notice that what once felt like a liability becomes the very doorway through which grace enters not only your life, but the lives of those watching you.

Because someone is always watching. Someone is always wondering whether faith can survive failure, whether hope can outlast humiliation, whether calling can coexist with insecurity. And when they see strength rising from surrendered weakness, they do not just admire the person. They glimpse the presence of God.

There is a reason the apostle Paul eventually said he would boast in his weaknesses. That statement is not bravado. It is revelation. He understood that the less he relied on himself, the more clearly Christ’s power rested upon him. The thorn did not disappear, but it lost its authority to define him. It became a reminder of grace.

Perhaps the most beautiful transformation happens not when weakness vanishes, but when shame does. When you no longer see your limitations as evidence of disqualification, but as invitations to dependence, you are freed from exhausting performance. You are free to serve without pretending. You are free to lead without posturing. You are free to speak without exaggerating your strength.

You are free to be human before God.

And in that humanity, something sacred unfolds, something that cannot be manufactured through image or effort alone. It unfolds slowly, quietly, deeply, in the place where you once felt most unworthy, and as you continue to walk forward in obedience rather than waiting for perfection, you begin to see that the very weakness you once despised has become the foundation of a deeper faith, a steadier hope, and a more compassionate love, and it is here, in this surrendered space, that the true legacy of your life begins to take shape, not built on the illusion of strength, but anchored in the undeniable reality of grace, and this realization opens the door to an entirely new way of understanding calling, identity, and the sacred design of God, which invites us to look even closer at how weakness, when surrendered rather than concealed, becomes the birthplace of spiritual authority and enduring impact, and that is where we must go next.

When weakness is surrendered instead of concealed, it does more than shape your private faith. It reshapes your public influence. It transforms the way you carry responsibility, the way you handle success, and the way you endure pressure. It produces a depth that cannot be manufactured through charisma or talent alone. And if you allow it, it becomes the foundation of a legacy that points unmistakably beyond you.

There is a kind of authority that comes from expertise, education, and experience. That authority has value. But there is another kind of authority that comes from surviving what should have broken you. It comes from standing after you have fallen. It comes from continuing to trust after you have doubted. It comes from loving after you have been wounded. That authority does not shout. It does not demand attention. It carries a quiet weight that others can feel even if they cannot fully articulate why.

This is the authority born in weakness.

When you have wrestled with fear and still stepped forward, you speak differently to those who are afraid. When you have walked through depression and still held onto hope, your encouragement carries substance. When you have faced temptation and chosen surrender, your counsel carries credibility. When you have endured loss and still believed in God’s goodness, your faith feels anchored rather than theoretical.

People are not transformed by perfection. They are transformed by honesty infused with hope.

There is something profoundly disarming about a person who no longer pretends. When you encounter someone who acknowledges their limitations yet walks confidently in their calling, it disrupts the narrative that only the flawless are worthy. It invites others to bring their own hidden places into the light. It creates space for authenticity in a world addicted to appearance.

But this freedom does not happen automatically. It requires a decision. It requires you to stop negotiating with shame.

Shame whispers that your weakness defines you. It tells you that you are your worst moment. It convinces you that if others saw the whole story, they would withdraw. It narrows your identity to your limitation. And if you listen long enough, shame will shrink your calling until it feels safer to remain small.

Grace speaks differently.

Grace does not deny your weakness. It redefines its meaning. It says your weakness is real, but it is not your master. It says your failure happened, but it is not your future. It says your insecurity exists, but it does not control your destiny. Grace does not excuse sin, but it also does not chain you to it. It offers restoration. It offers growth. It offers transformation that is deeper than behavior modification.

When you begin to internalize that grace, weakness loses its power to paralyze you.

Think about how many people are stuck not because they lack ability, but because they believe their weakness disqualifies them. They feel called to serve, to write, to lead, to build, to create, to mentor, to speak, but they remain on the sidelines. They assume that calling belongs to someone more confident, more stable, more impressive. They imagine that if God truly wanted to use them, He would have removed their struggle by now.

But what if the struggle is not proof of disqualification? What if it is the very context in which calling matures?

A muscle does not grow without resistance. A testimony does not form without a story. Character does not deepen without tension. Weakness exposes the areas where we are tempted to rely on ourselves, and in that exposure, we are invited into dependence.

Dependence is not weakness in the Kingdom. It is strength properly aligned.

There is a subtle shift that happens when you stop asking, “How do I get rid of this weakness?” and begin asking, “How is God shaping me through this weakness?” The first question focuses on elimination. The second focuses on formation. Elimination may or may not come. Formation always does.

Formation shapes how you respond under pressure. It shapes how you treat people who disappoint you. It shapes how you handle success. It shapes how you endure obscurity. Weakness, when surrendered, refines motives. It reveals pride. It dismantles self-reliance. It teaches you to seek God not as a last resort, but as a daily necessity.

And over time, you begin to notice something remarkable. The very area that once caused embarrassment becomes the place where you experience God most intimately. The place where you felt most fragile becomes the place where grace feels most tangible. The place you once wished away becomes the place that anchored your faith.

There are scars in your life that no one else fully understands. They may not be visible, but they are real. They mark seasons of confusion, regret, pain, or limitation. For a long time, you may have viewed those scars as evidence of brokenness. But scars are not open wounds. They are healed places. They are reminders that something once hurt deeply, but did not have the final word.

When a scar becomes sacred, it shifts from being a reminder of shame to being a symbol of survival. It becomes proof that God sustained you when you thought you might collapse. It becomes evidence that grace carried you when your own strength was insufficient.

There is a reason the resurrected Christ still bore scars. They were not erased. They were transformed. They no longer represented defeat. They testified to victory.

In your own life, the sacred scar may not look impressive to the world. It may be a quiet endurance through chronic struggle. It may be the discipline of daily faithfulness despite ongoing insecurity. It may be the humility of admitting you need help. It may be the courage of continuing after public failure. Whatever it is, it carries weight.

When you embrace the sacred scar, you also become safer for others. You stop expecting perfection from them because you know your own story. You stop judging harshly because you remember your own need for grace. You listen more carefully. You respond more gently. You extend hope more freely.

Weakness surrendered produces compassion. Compassion produces connection. Connection creates impact.

Impact in the Kingdom is not measured by applause. It is measured by transformation. It is measured by lives touched, burdens lifted, hope restored. And often, the most transformative voices are those who speak from lived vulnerability rather than polished distance.

This does not mean you broadcast every struggle indiscriminately. Wisdom matters. Boundaries matter. Discernment matters. But authenticity does not require oversharing. It requires honesty. It requires that your public strength is not built on private denial.

As you continue forward, you may still pray for growth. You may still pursue healing. You may still seek wisdom and discipline. There is nothing passive about surrendering weakness. It is an active trust that God can use you in process, not only in perfection.

You may still feel nervous before stepping into new territory. You may still wrestle with doubt. You may still have moments when insecurity whispers loudly. But instead of interpreting those feelings as signs to retreat, you can see them as reminders to lean. You can allow them to draw you back into prayer. You can allow them to anchor you in grace.

Over time, a pattern emerges. Every time you thought your weakness would disqualify you, God met you in it. Every time you assumed you were too fragile, grace proved sufficient. Every time you believed you had reached the end of your capacity, divine strength carried you further.

And one day, you look back and realize that the thread connecting your most meaningful moments was not your talent alone. It was not your charisma. It was not your flawless record. It was your dependence. It was the steady, sometimes trembling, but persistent trust that God could work through someone still in process.

That realization changes how you see your future.

You stop fearing weakness as if it were an enemy. You begin to recognize it as a reminder that you are not the source of your own power. You begin to see that your calling does not rest on your perfection, but on your willingness. You begin to understand that the sacred scar is not a mark of disqualification, but a badge of grace.

And as you live from that understanding, something beautiful happens. You become a living testimony that strength is not the absence of struggle, but the presence of God within it. You become evidence that calling and vulnerability can coexist. You become proof that weakness surrendered does not shrink a life. It deepens it.

The world will continue to celebrate polished images. It will continue to reward performance and appearance. But the Kingdom quietly advances through surrendered hearts. It moves through those who have stopped hiding and started trusting. It grows through those who bring their whole story before God and say, “Use even this.”

The sacred scar is not about drawing attention to yourself. It is about directing attention to grace. It is about allowing the place you once tried to conceal to become a doorway through which others glimpse hope.

If you have been waiting to feel flawless before stepping fully into your calling, consider this your invitation to stop waiting. If you have been hiding a part of your story out of fear, consider bringing it before God again, not as a liability, but as an offering. If you have believed that your weakness limits what heaven can do through you, let that belief be replaced with truth.

Power is made perfect in weakness.

Grace is sufficient.

And the place you once thought would disqualify you may become the very place where your legacy begins.

Your friend,
Douglas Vandergraph

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A SWOT (Strengths, Weaknesses, Opportunities, Threats) is basically a self-check tool. It helps you see what you’re good at, where you need growth, what opportunities are out there, and what challenges you might face. The goal isn’t to judge yourself, it’s to get clear and move smarter.

This is the analysis I created while I search for internships and prepare for my post-college career!

Feel free to use this as an example!

Have you ever taken a few minutes to really consider where your strengths and weaknesses lie?

A strength exploited by others is a weakness.

i fucking hate myself bc of how weak i am.

Chapter 59 - Queen Guards

“Agh!” Princess Natlia stumbled sideways from Sasha’s desperate push, her feet sliding across the smooth floor as she barely managed to maintain her balance. Then she saw another dark figure rushing toward her diagonally from the right above, descending fast like a predator diving for prey. Aggh! What’s with this jumping from above? Natlia thought with growing irritation as she gracefully spun toward the right side. She moved like she was floating above the ground without making any sound, her body flowing with practiced elegance that came from years of training. Her short, tight white royal attire floated in the air slightly with the spinning movement, revealing her black tights sticking close to her smooth upper thighs.

BOOMMBB!

The assassin landed hard—this time a woman—as she immediately tried to stab Princess Natlia with her long dagger, the blade gleaming wickedly in the dim light.

SWWIISSHH! SWWIISSHH! SWWISSHHH!

She stabbed multiple times toward Princess Natlia with brutal speed and precision, but kept missing as the princess kept dancing around gracefully, her movements fluid and beautiful. Moving in a circular arc, using her feet with perfect precision, she dodged each strike while circling around the assassin like water flowing around a rock. Princess Natlia kept circling smoothly as she made a complete 360-degree turn from her right, going back to her initial position without breaking her rhythm.

THUMPP!

A soft sound landed on her shoulder as she glanced down and saw Tyra perched there.

“TYYRR!! TYYRRR!!” Tyra roared loudly, announcing his appearance with pride.

Natlia happily stopped dancing, her arms now sticking close to her body as she stood straight and regal. She kept her hands in front of her, holding them together at her middle in a proper, dignified pose. She stood like a true Princess—confident, elegant, and completely in control—and ordered calmly with authority in her voice, “Tyra, why not let our guest have some rest?”

“TYRR! TYRRRRRRRRR!!”

Tyra pounced down from her shoulder and slowly gathered energy in his mouth, the blue light building and intensifying. Then TTTYYYRRRRRRR!!! A massive blue flame shot out directly and hit the woman assassin hard, engulfing her in scorching fire.

“Agghhh!! HOT!! AAAA!!! I AM—AAAHHH!!!”

The woman assassin cried out in agony as she now danced frantically in the blue flames, her body twisting and jerking as the fire consumed her clothing and seared her skin.

Hmmm, what is… shit!

The woman with the tight bodysuit with her sword had been running in Princess Natlia’s direction—she’d seen the princess before the smoke filled the shop. But as she was running, hoping to meet the princess and finish her quickly, she suddenly saw the blue flame blazing ahead and dodged hard to the side to avoid it.

“Aghh!! Where did this come from?!” she grunted angrily, her voice tight with frustration as she ran forward while dodging the spreading flames. She saw a burning woman dancing in agony, her screams filling the air, then focused ahead. There she saw Princess Natlia standing tall and firm with a small animal on her shoulder, glaring fiercely with eyes that promised death. The area in front of the princess had cleared a little due to Tyra’s powerful flame, creating an opening. The attacker didn’t hesitate—she directly brought her sword up high to slash at the princess’s exposed neck with a killing blow.

“DIIEEE YYOOUUUU PRINNCEESSS!!”

The woman roared furiously while coming closer to the princess, her sword cutting through the air. But from her right side, she heard something sharp and dangerous…

SSSIIWWNNNGGG!!

A sharp metal sound rang out clearly as she snapped her head to the side and saw Little Princess running fast, her small body moving with deadly intent. Little Princess was stabbing forward with her long, flexible, pointy sword, the blade aimed directly at the woman’s neck.

Aghh!!

The woman with the sword realized instantly that if she kept moving forward, her neck would be pierced with extreme precision—there’d be no surviving that strike.

Aghh, shit!

She barely stopped her forward momentum and backed up quickly, her boots scraping against the floor.

SWWISSNNGG! STAABB!

Little Princess stabbed into empty air where the woman had just been, her leg stretched out far with perfect body posture, completely balanced despite the aggressive lunge. She had saved her big sister, who smiled sweetly seeing this brave protection.

“Hmm, good dance, Nat,” a familiar voice said warmly.

TAPP!

A soft hug wrapped around Natlia’s waist from behind as a gentle hand touched her. Zack came up silently and hugged her from behind, his arms secure around her.

“Uwwahh, Zacck, what…” Natlia started to say, surprised by his sudden appearance.

TK!

A soft nudge at her back knee made her stumble backward as Zack also let his body fall backward deliberately. He grabbed Nat firmly and let her fall with him, controlling their descent.

“Kyyaaa! Zackk!” she shouted but smiled warmly as she let herself fall into his strong embrace, trusting him completely.

“TYYRRR!”

Tyra, seeing what was happening, happily didn’t try to float and instead landed safely on the ground with a soft thump.

THUMMPP!!

Both Zack and Natlia fell down together as Zack grabbed her waist tight protectively. He looked toward his right urgently, shouting at the top of his lungs, “BIGG GUUYY!!!!”

Seeing this signal, Little Princess also reacted instantly. She did a full split in her already stretched stabbing position, going completely flat, and tucked her head down to her knees. Her sword lay flat on the ground beside her.

“Huh? What?” The backing-away sword woman enemy saw all this happening, completely confused by their strange movements and positions…

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Agh, this smoke!

The armored mercenary-style man enemy also ran toward the smoke after he fell down from the table, his heavy armor slowing him down. He was slower than the sword woman enemy, so he was just about to enter the smoke region when suddenly VVVOOSSHHH!!! He saw a red flower shoe coming at him so fast he couldn’t do anything to defend himself. It emerged from the smoke like a rocket, and BBOOMMMMM!!! It hit his chest so hard with explosive force that he flew backward through the air, his body lifted completely off the ground.

“Agghhh!” the man grunted in pain.

Through his blurry vision, the man saw a cute girl in mid-kick, her face twisted with pure rage. Her eyes were full of anger, glaring at him intensely with hatred burning in them.

“Grrrr!!” Her teeth were clenching hard together, her jaw tight with fury.

The flying man smiled wickedly despite the pain as he instinctively licked his fingers in that disgusting way but couldn’t lick his fingers due to his mask and said loudly, “HEEYY THHERRREE LILTTEE HEELPPEEER! BBOOMMM!! AGGHH!!”

The man hit the table he’d fallen from earlier with brutal force. He was hurt—pain shooting through his back and ribs—but he still shouted enthusiastically with manic energy, “I SEE YOU CAME TO MEET ME AND EVEN RECOGNIZED ME IN THIS SHABBY OUTFIT! EHEHE, NICE! WE MEET IN WEIRD TIMES, LITTLE HELPER! LET’S HAVE ANOTHER ROUND OF FUN, SHALL WE? KEKEKEK!”

The armored man laughed maniacally as he stood up, brushing off the impact like it was nothing.

“Grrr! I COULD NEVER FORGET YOUR FILTHY EYES! YOUR WHOLE BODY REEKS OF FILTHINESS! GRR, I WILL KILL YOU TODAY!!” Sio roared furiously, her small body shaking with rage. Then she heard a familiar shout behind her… BIIGGG GGUYYY!!!

WHHOOSSSHHHHH!! WHHOOOSSHHHHH! WHHHOOSSHHHHH!!

Multiple large scarf cloths came whipping through the smoke like massive serpents. They turned with Big Guy’s body in a powerful 180-degree spin, the momentum building. The cloths swept through, clearing the thick fog in one fell swoop as the wind flowing inside from the broken windows helped push it away. Slowly, the room got cleared, visibility returning.

THHUMPPP!! RUMBLE! RUMBLE!!

Big Guy’s huge scarf cloths hit the sword woman with devastating force and sent her flying away again, her body crashing through the air. Along with her went the surrounding shelves and compartments, everything getting swept up in the attack. Wooden shelves now lay broken and scattered on the floor, debris everywhere, completely clearing the room but making a huge mess.

As Big Guy stopped his spin and retracted his scarfs and cloths back to his waist, wrapping them around himself again, he looked at the destruction he’d created with just a single move. He scratched his chin in embarrassment, feeling a bit guilty. He looked behind him and took in the scene: Zack and Nat lying on top of each other on the ground, happy Tyra sitting peacefully nearby, Little Princess doing a full split on the floor, the sword woman grunting in pain a little distance away from the princess, Sasha giving an enthusiastic thumbs up while still laying casually on the ground wearing Zack’s shirt, two dead bodies sprawled out, Sio and the armored man facing each other in a tense standoff, and Alfie and the raven-winged enemy standing in a careful stalemate with Lurvi floating protectively above Alfie.

Do I have to pay for this? he thought worriedly while fixing his clothes and adjusting his scarfs.

Big Guy finally looked over and saw Tool Guy, who peeked out from behind his table with his eyes tearing up, looking absolutely devastated.

“Ugh! This all happened because I couldn’t keep my mouth shut! Aahh! My shop!” Tool Guy cried out miserably.

He quickly hid himself in a small hole under his table and waited desperately for everything to end, hoping his precious shop would survive.

Zack gently placed Nat to the side and stood up smoothly, bringing his hand forward to help Nat get up. She looked at his strong, naked arm with sweat glistening on the muscles, making them shine in the light. She felt a little shy seeing him like this—so close, so exposed—as she grabbed his hand and let him pull her up with ease. She immediately hugged Zack’s body, pressing against him and letting herself get covered in his sweat, not caring about getting messy.

“Zack, why are you like… ughh…” Nat started to complain softly.

Then Nat saw a smiling Sasha as she came walking casually toward them, sniffing Zack’s shirt that she was wearing and smiling teasingly. She walked past them from behind Zack, her eyes sparkling with mischief.

Grr, this witch! Nat thought irritably, jealousy flaring in her chest. But she didn’t say anything out loud. She just touched Zack’s bare muscles with her one hand, and another on his chest feeling his heartbeat, as he grabbed her by the waist firmly and said seriously, looking into her eyes, “You have to go, Nat. Can you do it?” Zack asked, not with worry but with complete confidence in her abilities.

Nat looked up at him, then turned her head and heard intense fighting going on outside the shop—the sounds of clashing weapons, shouts, and screams. She saw through the broken windows that her Queen Guards were getting overwhelmed by a large bunch of attackers. She sighed deeply, knowing what she had to do. She nodded decisively as she left his warm embrace and walked gracefully toward the entrance, saying without looking behind, her voice calm and certain, “Please Take care of these big ones. Tyra, help them. I can take care of them myself, don’t worry.”

She went past Big Guy, nodding at him respectfully. He nodded back with understanding. CLAAPP! Both clapped each other’s hands firmly in passing, smiling at each other with mutual respect. Then they went their separate ways—Nat walking confidently toward the entrance while Big Guy turned and gathered with Zack and the others.

SHAATEERR! SHATTERRR! SHAATTERR! SHATTEERRR!

Glass shattering sounds echoed loudly through the shop as many more people with weapons came crashing in violently through the remaining windows. Some fell toward Princess Natlia’s path while others dropped toward Zack’s group, spreading out to attack.

“Sigh! Big Guy, go help Sio. Little Princess, keep that sword woman busy. Zack and Tyra, help me with this group of people as I support you guys,” Sasha said in a relaxed, commanding manner as she stretched her arms above her head. The movement made her round breasts press against and stick to Zack’s shirt, giving it a nice, curved shape since she didn’t wear a bra underneath. The outline was clearly visible.

Everyone nodded in agreement and went their separate ways to handle their assigned enemies.

Hmm…

Seeing a lot of people pouncing at her and coming close from all directions, Princess Natlia kept her composure. She slowly walked forward in a straight, perfect posture while bringing her clenched hands together. Between her fingers was a locket with a globe attached to it. Slowly, deliberately, she started putting it around her neck, lifting it up and over her head. Then she shouted while wearing it, her voice rising with royal authority and fury, “QUEEN GUARDS!!! LISTEN TO MEEEEEEEE!!!!! IF YOU CAN’T PROTECT THIS PRINCESS AS I WALK THROUGH THAT DOOR, THEN FORGET EVER PROTECTING ANYONE!!!!!! DON’T BRING SHAME TO THE NAME OF QUEEN GUARDS!!!!!!! YOU ARE THE BEST WARRIORS IN THIS CITY!!!! SO STOOPPPPPP PLAAAYIINNNGGG ARRROUUNNNDDDD ANNNDDD GGETTTTT FUCCKKIINNGG SEEERRRIOOUSSSSS!!!!! IF NOT, THEN THEERRREEE WIILL BEEE NNNOOO QUEEN GUARDS IN THE FUTURE!!! I, FUTURE QUEEN OF THE CITY OF EIRS, DON’T WANT SOME PATHETIC WORMS AS MY GUARDS!!!!!”

Natlia finished wearing the necklace and touched the globe gently, bringing it up to her lips and kissing it with reverence. Then she touched it to her chest, right over her heart.

SWWOOSSHHHHH! STAB! STAB! STAB! STAB! STAB! STAB! STAB!

Her half-white royal jacket suddenly transformed, the fabric rippling and shifting. It turned into tight, flexible strong spikes that shot out in all directions and created a spiked shield around her body. The spikes stabbed multiple people at the same time with brutal efficiency, piercing through flesh and bone. They were left dead before they even reached the ground, their bodies going limp instantly. They fell down all around her like fallen leaves drifting to earth.

Her tight, full-sleeve white-golden outfit now remained underneath, the fabric reaching her upper thighs and hugging her body perfectly. She walked gracefully forward, her movement fluid and confident, showing off her perfect “S” figure as bodies fell around her in a circle of death. She kept smiling—a cold, dangerous smile—and said in a low, threatening voice that dripped with power, “I AM THE PRINCESS! DON’T YOU DARE THINK I AM SOME WEAK WOMAN!!”

She called back the spikes with a thought, and they retracted smoothly, turning back into her elegant half-vest tight coat and covering her figure once more. She looked untouchable, like a queen walking through her conquered enemies.

Outside, a few seconds ago…

“Uggh, there are so many!” one Queen Guard shouted, overwhelmed.

“What should we do? The princess is inside! We have to somehow defend!” another called out desperately.

“Tsk, can we kill them? They look unorganized,” a third said, trying to assess the situation.

“What should we do, Queen Guard Boss?” someone asked urgently.

“Agh, what a pain! They are annoying, jumping around everywhere!” another complained, frustrated.

“QUEENNNN QUUUARRRDDSS!!!”

Suddenly, every single Queen Guard heard Princess Natlia’s angry shout echoing from inside the shop. As if by pure instinct, their training kicking in, the Queen Guards suddenly formed a tight semi-circle in front of the shop entrance. Their gazes cleared and focused, all hesitation gone.

HHUUPPPPPP! TTNNKKKKK!!

They raised their long spears forward in perfect unison, stabbing multiple attacking people as some other Queen Guards rushed inside the shop to protect the princess directly.

“GOOD! GOOOD! THAT’S HOW OUR QUEEN GUARDS SHOULD WORK!!! NOW COMING BACK TO US, IT SEEMS WE ARE BEING LAUGHED UPON BY MANY!!!! I WANT TO ASK YOU, MY SOLDIERS OF CITY PROTECTION GUARDS UNDER ME, THE 2ND ROCK LEADER MIKAELA LARENTS—DOOOO YYOOUUU LIIKKKE BEING LAAUUGGHHEDD UPPOONNN!!!”

The 2nd Rock Leader roared powerfully as she came flying from above, descending like an avenging angel. She wore her proper black tight military outfit—high-waist black pants that hugged her legs, a black inner shirt, and a black leather full-sleeve jacket. Her large breasts were practically trying to pierce through her tight jacket, straining against the fabric. A white locket rested visibly on her black inner-covered chest. Her signature red glasses sat perfectly on her face beneath her military cap, which was positioned just right. Her slightly long hair strands floated dramatically with the wind, grazing her chest as she descended. Behind her, many similarly outfitted men and women wearing red glasses shouted in perfect echo, their voices unified, “NNOOOO, LLEEADDEERRRR!”

Mikaela nodded firmly with satisfaction and roared toward the enemies below, her voice booming with authority, “YYOOUU LILTTEE BUGGERRSS! YOOUU ARRREE INNN THHHEE CIITTYYY OOFF EIIIRRSSS, AND FOR YOU TO KILL OUR CROWN WILL NEED MORE POWER THAN YOU LITTLE PATHETIC ARMSSS! NOOWWWW, CIITTYYY QUUAARRDDSSS, KILLLL THEEEMM ALLLL! DON’T SPARE ANYONEEEEEEEE!!!”

“YEEESSS, LLEEEADDDERRRRRR!”

City Guards rushed down from above like a dark wave and started brutally killing the attackers. They didn’t shout or boast—just moved in cold, efficient silence. Only the screams of dying enemy people remained, filling the air with terror.

Whooshh! Whooss!

More people kept jumping from above toward Princess Natlia, attacking from the air. But this time she didn’t even care. She kept walking calmly forward, not bothering with anything, her eyes fixed ahead. Swords, spears, daggers, and blades were getting close to her body from all corners, closing in from every direction, when suddenly THUUMMMPPPP! A huge, muscular man jumped high above Princess Natlia and brought a massive shield above his head, holding it horizontally. He deflected half of the attacks with a single block, weapons clanging off the metal.

WHOSSHH! WHHOSOSSE!

Several Queen Guards rushed forward from the sides and completely surrounded Princess Natlia, forming a protective circle. Their long spears pointed outward toward the people rushing forward with killing intent.

SSTAABBBB! ACKKK! STAABB! AAAA! STABBB!

More attackers fell down with spears through their bodies, dying quickly. Not a single one came close to Princess Natlia as she continued walking.

SWWOOSSHSH!

Somebody from a distance threw many daggers toward the princess from all sides at once, trying to get past the guard formation. The Queen Guards with spears couldn’t block or stop the thrown weapons—they were focused on the close-range threats.

TAANKKK! TAANKKK!!

But suddenly, four sharp-looking tall women in proper Queen Guard outfits appeared. They moved with incredible speed and precision, intercepting the daggers in quick succession. Then they threw them back with deadly accuracy, hitting the attackers’ necks and killing them instantly.

These four Expert Queen Guard ladies surrounded Princess Natlia closely and walked at her exact pace, matching her steps perfectly. All four expert Queen Guards had short, practical hair with masks covering most of their faces, leaving only their sharp, deadly eyes visible. They wore long boots that reached high up their thighs, hugging their legs tightly. V-shaped corsets hugged their crotches snugly, the design leaving their toned upper thighs completely naked and exposed. The corsets also left their upper chests bare and exposed, their breast cleavage plunging outward dramatically, their full breasts trying to bounce out of their tight clinches with each movement. Armor plates protected their shoulders and forearms, and their fists were covered in tight leather gloves. They looked like sexy, dangerous warriors—beautiful but absolutely deadly. They stopped every single attack that tried to penetrate the protective circle of regular Queen Guards, their movements fluid and efficient as they slowly moved forward with the princess toward the shop entrance.

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END OF CHAPTER

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Author Blabbering

Queen guards and warriors don’t wait for permission—they prove themselves. And just like them, you and I don’t need to prove anything to the world. The real challenge is proving it to ourselves. Proving that we are capable. Proving that we are not weak. Proving that when we truly set our mind to something, nothing—no fear, no failure, no voice of doubt—can stop us.

But here’s the real question: who will wake us up from our own trance? Queen Guards have Princess but you - who do you have to wake up from the endless self-doubt, the overthinking, the noise screaming in our heads telling us we’re not ready, not good enough, not strong enough? The truth is—no one is coming to wake us up. That responsibility is ours.

One day, you will wake up. One day, you’ll decide you’ve had enough of standing still. So why not make that day today?

Imagine the worst, so fear loses its power. Believe the best, so hope takes control. Then stand up—yes, even if your legs are shaking—and do the thing you’ve been postponing. Take the risk. Chase the dream. Speak up. Start messy. Start scared. Just start.

Because once you wake up, once you truly believe in yourself, the world has no choice but to move out of your way. And when that happens, you’ll realize—you were never weak. You were just asleep.

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This week’s quote

Don’t mistake my kindness for weakness. I am kind to everyone, but when someone is unkind to me, weak is not what you are going to remember about me. -Al Capone