#just thinking

A childhood friend came into the restaurant I work at. We went to each other’s ninth birthday parties. We braided each other’s hair. We played dolls on the playground and had a secret language. I was the only one who could tell her and her twin sister apart. I loved her and we gave each other candy on our birthdays. Now I don’t remember how I told the twins apart. I don’t even remember who she is. I haven’t talked to her since I was thirteen. I think I’m a better person now.

I don’t know it just kinda hit me that I can no longer tell the twins apart.

all this discourse about how the leafs don’t know how to stick up for each other but has anyone considered that the guy who got hurt wasn’t worth sticking up for….?

yall ever like think abt what its like to be someone else :0 like going home each day to a different room and situations that make stupid sense .,. js like a lil thought post but sometimes ik im being a pain and its like “what does that really do” what changes wuts going on now that theres a new situation .,. or even when im js being silly ill sometimes think like man what would it be to be someone else entirely.,. (an oddly not horny post on my freaky puppy acc :3)

How crazy am I for wanting to draw TTAF (I’ve been doing nothing but binge watch the show)

I’m Honestly So jellous of people that their date of birth is something like “20 of June of 2006” cuse Thats like 20/06 of 2006 AND if u born for example at 20:06 Thats like

I have a fun question to pose. What are the four most distinct colors? (Can expand to any positive *n* integer). Three is easy. RGB. They make up the entire color spectrum.*. Same with CMYK but black and white is cheating. So if I were to draw a square inset on a color wheel, I would get 4 distinct colors (as well as vectors or coordinates on a unit circle) but are these 4 the most distinct? From each other, mathematically, sure, but the eye doesn’t see all colors equally.

White light, the visible spectrum, stretches from approximately 380nm to 760nm but this means pretty much jack squat because neither is daylight perfectly white in the spectrum with a plurality of wavelengths of light blue (which is why we perceive the sky that way) nor does the human eye see all colors equally with our photoreceptors which is a different factoid as to why night vision is green because we perceive the most differences in that color nor am I accounting for differences in color emulation on screen vs print.

*not a bio student, just a very high technically inclined rose with one question that spiraled.

**SPOILERS FOR BERSERK**

Minor spoilers, but I warned you.

It’s hard to put into words but one of my favorite things about Berserk (specifically the early stuff) was that Guts of course was the one we’re meant to identify most with, but I found Griffith to be eerily relatable. One was brutal, jaded, driven by hatred and rage. The other was calm, intelligent, and many times, characterized by his kindness or care for others (the boy on the battlefield, the one who carried a knight toy) which is what made it so haunting, to know that he was not all bad before he would become irredeemable… and suddenly the exploration of their characters became about Guts learning to tame himself. To become gentler, more stable. Griffith delves further into his own darkness, using his charm and subliminal coercion through the visions of the Hawk. The reason why he wasn’t willing to kill Rickert at first was that he didn’t know whether he could be persuaded or not, and after realizing Griffith could no longer control one of his victims, could no longer subjugate him, he sent Rakshas to silence him. It challenges you emotionally just as the characters are evidently challenging themselves.

This isn’t a “Griffith did nothing wrong” post, but I really do think that the lens of pure good and righteous versus pure evil and malice flattens not only BOTH of their characters, but the story as a whole. I do hope to see more inside the psyche of Griffith, especially in regard to Casca. I’m still very curious about Griffith’s daydream, right before the Eclipse. How will he rationalize it? How will he attempt to convince her? When I say that Berserk is peak I really do mean it.

Finished Severance

Did anyone else start regressing when they were a child? Cuz I thought that was the most common but I see a lot of ppl say they didn’t start til they were a teen/adult, which makes sense but idk I guess I didn’t think about it rlly

being called young lady does somethingggg to me omg

Title for video essay will never invest any time to create by myself

Dirge of Cerberus: Final Fantasy - The Sonic Unleashed of Final Fantasy Games??? With red circles + arrows around Werehog and Chaos form and all

As one of the 12 people who actually played it: I still love you, Dirge of Cerberus

Got stuck waiting for a bus yesterday I did not expect it but two people were going to get some coffee while we all were waiting for next bus which was at twenty to four.

These people who do not know me, offered me to come with them and I sat down with them and had a coffee (cappuccino) and a muffin.

I did not expect it but one of them paid for all of us and it’s interesting this all happened on Friday the 13th.

Got stuck waiting for a bus yesterday I did not expect it but two people were going to get some coffee while we all were waiting for next bus which was at twenty to four.

These people who do not know me, offered me to come with them and I sat down with them and had a coffee (cappuccino) and a muffin.

I did not expect it but one of them paid for all of us and it’s interesting this all happened on Friday the 13th.

I hope in the future I’m a very independent person. I don’t have to rely on others and only myself. I can live life without needing another. Just me. I’ll be enough alone to make my life enjoyable.

But some part of me hopes someone stops me before I go too far. Before I give up on relying on others. But I’m still young, so there is time! Time will only tell.

I think about my future self too much.. I hope she’s doing good.

atp I don’t know if I’m seeing a serial liker or a bot

I would be the happiest little elf in the world if he was cuddling with me right now

I have the goal of learning to sew

I think I’m finally making peace with the idea that I might just be single forever.

Not in a bad way. Just…accepting it and learning how to build a life that still feels full.

What is it about the way of things. How I got from so apathetic to depressed and anxious today to suddenly the horniest I’ve ever felt. Damn do the highs skyrocket after those lows ahah

Someone please just do something to me

me just chilling:

: “mom…”

me: