#drowining

You can’t fix me!

Bottomless

Ocean, lake, pond, all of it a body of water in my eyes. None of it matters. 

The water is calming. Yet, I feel a desire to dive in, uncaring of what happens.  

Uncaring of the arctic temperatures. 

I jump in. Falling, surrounded by nothing and a pressure that pushes. 

Further and further, falling as the body stiffens. Darkness closing in. 

Is it too late to turn back? 

It is said that to find happiness, one must follow their heart. But what is the heart? Will I find it further down or was it something lost along the way down? 

One wishes to go back, the other wishes to sink. Opposing sides, like Gemini, I am unable to see. 

Descending further and further, what was it that I lost along the way? 

Unable to think or feel, my eyes close. 

Is this what it means to live? Can the heart be found at the bottom? 

VOYAGERS NP 😭😭😭😭

So my fam just watched this movie w/ me ofc and

Everyone agrees w the main chara n I agree w the antagonist, 

i hate last year of uni

you have to do 84901224892 assignments as well as figuring out your future while also looking for a part time job while as trying to keep up a social life and exercise?! 

Inktober day 4: Underwater

I think i’m finally clean

Rhododendron: What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?

I have had a lot of nightmares before. I don’t tend to remember them, I used to when I would write them down but I do remember having a dream where my youngest brother was small child and was drowned by bad people in front of me… :/

floral asks

Mick Jenkins - Drowning ft. BADBADNOTGOOD

Every Time You Jump Into The Deep End To Save My Drowning Daughter You’re Actively Criticizing My Parenting

As a mother, there’s nothing that bothers me more than when others judge me for how I choose to raise my own child. Each parent has their own methods, so I’m right to get angry when people tell me how they think I can do a better job. Let me be clear: Every time you jump into the deep end to save my drowning daughter you’re actively criticizing my parenting, and you have no right to do that.

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i was in the bath and was like washin m legs and then i kept gettinbad thoughts abt how i should die and some voices were back and so im not gonna take a bath for a while bc i dont wanna give in and drown myself

It became hard to breathe as time went by

The water was rising up to my knees.

I was drowning farther and farther down

Lungs filled with water that replaced the air.

Perhaps it was an anchor that sunk me

Or maybe I was drowning on my own

Whatever it was it sure did scare me

While it pulled me down, down to the bottom.

The water was now wrapped around my neck

All struggle was futile, this is the end.

Covered in the blanket of the ocean

I should have known better than to tempt it.

I took it too far and now I’m engulfed.

The deep, dark ocean such a calming blue

It seems ironic that I am drowning.

I… I was taking a nap, and I dreamed that I was drowning, and I woke up from that and that my father had come into my room to say hi to me, he hugged me, but I felt like I didn’t have enough air, and again I couldn’t breath, and that happened to be a nightmare too… I woke up super shaken and without any air…

I pray the love I hold for you

is something that will never be due

I long for your touch

To ask for, is that too much?

A day without you by my side

Is an eternal drowning tide

Yet, you always have a special place inside.

You had brought me back when I died.

How I’ve come to deserve you I’ll never know.

Let us just leave it so.

Before you, my life was full of woe.

When we met I put on an anxious show

You just giggled and blushed.

My heart against my chest was smushed.

A bright red face was in my sight

Behind you an angelic light.

I knew I had to talk to you that night

When we spoke you had the most adorable laugh

In that moment I knew you were my other half

Without you I am just empty and hollow

Your heart and love I will forever follow

The only word I know to describe my life is miserable.