#audhd problems

¿Alguien tiene tips de estudio para una persona autista con tdah?

me when i’ve spent the last 5 days stressing so hard about an assignment due tomorrow that i’ve run out of stress juice, giving me the perfect internal state to woman up and actually work on the damn thing

ADHD be like: wondering how dumb neurotypicals think you are to keep struggling while taking meds, when “you really should try setting up a bunch of alarms to timely switch attention and get things done”.

Having AUDHD makes me feel like one of those “neurospicy” tiktokers cause I genuinely mix up my hyperfixations with my special interests all the time because they feel the same to me since I have both.

the problem with auDHD is that, for all my executive dysfunction, it really does feel like there is a switch in the back of my head that reads “LOCK IN” and I know that at some point, at the last second in my hour of need, I will be able to reach that switch and I will be able to pull off the impossible.

it’s just that like. It doesn’t NEED to be impossible. these stress ulcers were entirely avoidable.

but ~nOo~ we had to wait until the Last Fucking Minute to access the Hyperfixation Dopamine Productivity Superpower instead of just fucking Pushing Through the discomfort!! God!! I’m gonna die young!

Honestly the worst part about having ADHD and queing posts is that you inevitably try to reblog your own posts 🤦‍♂️

For the third time in 4 months, and forth time in 2 years, the therapist I was seeing dropped me with little notice. I was just starting to get comfortable and I felt seen with this therapist too. Ugh…

Having Autism + ADHD is:

Having a high need for routine and order while also being impulsive and needing change.

Wanting to do 5 tasks, starting 3 and finishing 1.

Overcommitting to more than you (end up realizing) can handle. The intention/heart is there, so you end up biting off more than you can chew.

Not knowing how to behave in social situations. Social cues can go right over your head which leads to awkward or one-time interactions. So then there are misunderstandings, which leads to misjudgments by others which leads to not fitting in.

Having AuDHD is being an exposed nerve.

Noise or unwanted sensations can be very distracting when you are trying to focus on one thing. Being touched when not anticipating it can feel like being attacked by a swarm of bees. The sound of people chewing kills your appetite and you would wear earplugs at a dinner table if it was socially acceptable to do so.

You feel everything at 3x intensity– whether pleasant or unpleasant.

Had a good first date? Yep now you’re in love with them.

Got rejected by someone/something ? Yeah you felt that. And you vow to never try that again (until you do)

And, at least for me, it is being perpetually aware of how you are perceived and what you say (and how you say it) because experience has taught you that if you just let yourself be you will probably become the class clown and also scare people away with how passionate you are about the things that fascinate you (but not typical people).

So then people think you are egocentric and not interested in them because you have now talked for 30 minutes (at least) about why when resistance training for hypertrophy it doesn’t matter what repetition range you train at because hypertrophy can be achieved as long as the loading range is > 30% of individual 1RM for a given movement (Schoenfeld et al, 2021).

Knowing how to lock the fuck in… But doing at the wrong time

//tbh, I have plenty of time to catch the bus but like I was having a hard time switching to getting ready from drawing.

It isn’t even that I think my art ‘sucks’ it’s the lines…. I go “damn how many times must I redraw this ONE SECTION” *spent the entire hour doing it*

….D-do you see WHY I don’t art as often anymore? Agghh

Chloe is still coming along, I have long since decided to discard Alastor ;-;

I just gotta get these done before I end my period because (comes in four days yippie)

Impulsiveness and distractions happen at a 110% increase and it really annoys me

I get all this energy for what? FUCK ALL? I DON’T EVEN USE IT DO WHAT I NEED

what makes me think I’ll do it for what I WANT?!

adhd meds here I come FINALLY

Or

I hope ugh 😩

When you wish to be creative and have multiple ideas that you wish to execute but executive dysfunction wants you to suffer in the deepest pits of agony :(

Me, being disabled with AuDHD and struggling with executive function and resorting to same foods rather than cook because all my dishes are dirty and the sink is full and the dishwasher is full: this sucks

The siren call of my local grocery store: you can buy our sushi rolls and seaweed salads with SNAP and get 2-3 servings of veggies in one sitting

Me: oh shit, for real?

Anyways are you depressed or are you just chronically malnourished or maybe both? Find a solution for getting your fruits and veggies even if it’s a same food and don’t get scurvy, ya’ll!

Going to the same fucking school in the same itchy overstimulating uniform with the same fluorescent lights burning my fucking eyes and the same basic ass people and the same rules and the same anxiety and the same split-inducing bullshit they carry on with and the fuckass teachers who think overloading kids with homework is normal and the same masking of whatever split I’m going through right now.

Just love the extreme stress my brain gives me because I have to move soon. I’m trying to hide it cause I really don’t want to be negative. But I’m just going crazy. I can’t just relax and feel on edge all the time.

please don’t ask for my help with something if you’re not going to let me finish it before you decide you need to help me helping you thank you

I have a 6 page paper due Sunday so obviously I’m on tumblr instead

commissioning and autism

Being called out on my YouTube shorts feed.

I’ll be okay, just kinda slumped/stressed right now.

I’ll respond to RPs and messages when things aren’t so heavy. Love all of you.

My teeth feel like the silt covered rocks at the bottom of a fish pond… my sensory issues make me want dentures sometimes but I don’t wanna lose my teeth. I just don’t like the way the feel in my mouth right now

i have a truly one of a kind problem.

so, you know how most people know their autistic and struggle to get a doctor to diagnose them? well, while i do think im autistic, my doctor diagnosed me without assessing me😭 so i haven’t taken a psych evaluation but i have been diagnosed by a doctor. does this count as being officially diagnosed or am i just being headcanoned by my doctor????

i rehearsed over and over again and still lost it