The Collected Schizophrenias, Esmé Weijun Wang

i always get what i want no matter what

ativan and elliot smith ohhhhhhhh yes thanks

this year will be my year yk why? because I’ll be [my favourite number] years old

how life has been going now that i realised doubts are only fripperies

“But it’s impossible!-”

“That doesn’t sound realistic!-”

“You can’t manifest something like that!-”

“You can’t change tha-”

A user reached out to us seeking advice on remaining authentic to themselves as a trans woman while living in a conservative town. They wrote in saying that they are planning on moving to a conservative small city soon to save up money and are unsure of how to remain safely themselves while living there. They asked, “Is there anything I can do that would allow me to be more feminine⁠ while still remaining safe? I’m very much worried about discrimination in many areas, including housing and in the workplace.”

Sassafras Patterdale approached this question with a lot of care and highlighted the commitment this user is showing towards themselves and their goals. Sassafras replied, “I want to start by validating that this is a scary time and can be an especially overwhelming time to be transgender⁠ in this country. It sounds like you are doing a great job of being realistic about your situation and being financially responsible as you make plans for your future, while also making longer-term plans to get to a more supportive place. I’m so glad that you’re focused on your future and getting to a safer and more accepting area in the long-term and are looking for ways to stay safe and be your authentic self in the short-term!

It sounds like this first move to somewhere more conservative is going to be challenging, but is ultimately going to help you fulfill your larger goals of getting to a safer place. Even if you can’t live authentically in all aspects of your life, it’s still possible to prioritize gender-affirming self-care wherever you can.”

This article dives into how to prioritize gender-affirming self-care, from building and nurturing a living space that represents the real you to prioritizing building community irl and in online spaces. Continue reading the rest of to learn more on surviving conservative small-town US without losing parts of yourself.

I need advice on being myself in a conservative area while not being a protected class anymore

I thought of the funniest thing the other day. If I were to walk on campus at my uni shirtless, I would face one of two outcomes:

I would get in trouble for public indecency, affirming me as a woman,

★ I call it Affirming Indecent Exposure

OR

I would be allowed to since I’m amab and their policies are sorta weird with agab.

Either way it’s a lose-lose for them.

Be Yourself

I know, it’s a tough job sometimes–but if you don’t do it, who will?

Be Yourself

recently cut my hair off and i’ve gotten a few “yeah idk why but this really suits you! it feels right!” from friends i don’t know too well and i’m like aw <3 so u knew i was gay all along <3 yay

How to Become a Cheerful and Encouraging Person

“A cheerful look brings joy to the heart; good news makes for good health.” — Proverbs 15:30 (NLT)

There’s something beautiful about being around a genuinely cheerful person. Their presence seems to lift the room. Their words bring light where there’s been heaviness. Their attitude seems to communicate—without words—“It’s going to be okay.”

The Bible tells us that a cheerful look brings joy to…

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I am worthy of love and respect.

My aura screams lightning in a bottle.

I am extremely well liked and charismatic.

Everyone I like is obsessed with me.

My aura is flawless and I always draw people with the best intentions.

My beauty is angelic, practically ethereal.

People, children and animals are captivated by my aura.

My presence is always graceful and warm.

People tend to seek me out as I have a calm and healing presence.

Everything is my life is perfect.

Everything always works out for me.

I am a magnet for luck and compliments.

I glide through life with ease and comfort.

I always know what to do in any situations.

Everyone trusts my judgement and respects me for it.

My reputation is flawless, and my friends are loyal.

My problems melt away before they fully even form.

I am completely safe at all times.

I live a charmed and magical life.

ೃ⁀➷ ⋆·˚ ༘ * ʎǝuıɥs ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ ·˚ ༘

Devastating beauty vaunt

I am so pretty. I am devastatingly attractive. I am absolutely stunning. I am irresistible in every way. I am gorgeous. I am breathtakingly beautiful. I am a masterpiece. I am the very definition of perfection. I am magnificently exquisite. I captivate everyone around me. I am stunningly beautiful. I have an enchanting presence. I am deeply alluring. I am magnificent. I am captivating. I am impossible to ignore. I radiate pure beauty. I radiate unnatural charisma. People find me enchanting. I am intimidatingly attractive. My beauty leaves people speechless. I look like a real-life Final Fantasy character. My skin is so flawless, it looks airbrushed. I look like I am walking around with a beauty filter in real life. I make people flustered and shy without even trying.

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𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛᴏᴛᴀʟ ᴘᴇʀᴍɪꜱꜱɪᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛ.

 𓍯 ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ɪꜱ ᴍᴇ. ɪ ᴀᴍ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴏɴᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇɴᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ.

𓍯 ɪ ᴀʟʟᴏᴡ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴛᴏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛ ᴇᴀꜱɪʟʏ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ꜰᴜʟʟ ᴘᴇʀᴍɪꜱꜱɪᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ.

𓍯 ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴇᴀꜱʏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴍʏ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴇᴀꜱʏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴍʏ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ.

𓍯 ᴛʜᴇ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀꜱᴇ ɪꜱ ʀɪɢɢᴇᴅ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴘᴜʀᴇ ᴇɴᴇʀɢʏ.

𓍯 ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴘᴜʀᴇ ᴄᴏɴꜱᴄɪᴏᴜꜱɴᴇꜱꜱ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴘᴜʀᴇ ᴇɴᴇʀɢʏ ᴄᴏɴɴᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴜɴɪᴠᴇʀꜱᴇ.

𓍯 ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ᴍᴏʟᴅ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ.

𓍯 ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪꜱ ᴘᴏꜱꜱɪʙʟᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ᴍʏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛɪɴɢ ᴇxᴘᴇʀɪᴇɴᴄᴇꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ ᴀꜱ ɪ ꜱᴄʀɪᴘᴛᴇᴅ.

𓍯 ꜱʜɪꜰᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴀɴʏ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ɪꜱ ꜱᴏ ᴇᴀꜱʏ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ɪɴᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴ.

𓍯 ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ ʜᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅɪꜰꜰᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛɪᴇꜱ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛɪɴɢ ᴄᴏᴍᴇꜱ ᴇᴀꜱɪʟʏ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ.

𓍯 ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛʏ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛɪɴɢ ʜᴀꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴇᴀꜱʏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ.

𓄼 ࣪⠀ ִ ۫ ּ ֗ ִ ۪ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ꜱʜɪꜰᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟɪᴛɪᴇꜱ ᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ, ᴇꜰꜰᴏʀᴛʟᴇꜱꜱʟʏ.

ೃ⁀➷ ⋆·˚ ༘ * ʎǝuıɥs ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ ·˚ ༘

Trans guy tmi read at your own risk lol

One of the best parts of T so far besides my voice has been bottom growth. Not even about the size, but the firmness and change in feeling are so affirming. Every time it still catches me off guard in the best way. It does make me dream about bottom surgery one day, but even if that’s not possible, this change alone helps me feel so much more like myself. I love being open about stuff like this. The little things really are everything and no one should feel any shame about their body or talking about it.

This body deserves pleasure.

This body deserves pleasure.

This body,

At any weight, shape, and size

With every curve, scar, and fold

As is

Deserves pleasure.

The love of your life does NOT have a notes app instagram post made about them

Panicking When Shifting

One of the reoccurring themes I’ve noticed in my shifting journey is this constant fear.

Not of failure, but of a loss of control. Coming to terms with the fact that our reality is infinite, as are our possibilities, was quite simple. It made logical sense, and it did not impact my way of living. It wasn’t until attempting the void method that I realized a loss of control was genuinely a terrifying concept to me.

And while I am fully aware it is me in control, and that my subconscious wouldn’t harm my awareness, it’s still an intimidating concept to me.

Like when you’re at the pool, and your coach tells you to jump.

“Don’t worry”

“I’ll catch you.”

“Just jump!”

And even though you know the truth is that you will not drown, your coach will not let you down, and you are completely, totally safe-

You’re still scared.

And until you take the jump, you won’t stop being scared.

So here I am, just before the plunge. Here goes nothing 🤞🫣