Ooooo I’m in a manic/productive procrastination mode
I need to edit my resume and start applying for new jobs.
Instead I’ve called a mechanic to schedule an appointment for next week, scrubbed my dining table, vacuumed the dining and kitchen, scrubbed the stove, the sink, the counters, sprayed ant killer all over, and now I’m cooking meal prep for the week.
Did these things need done? Yes
Should i be doing them now? No
I’ve taken a nice break since quitting my job the last week of January. Now it’s time to find a new one.
— Магнусе, — видихнув Алек і замовк, не в змозі закінчити. Сподівався, що чаклун, як завжди, розгадає питання до того, як мисливцю доведеться промовляти.
— Що, Алеку? — видихнув Магнус і глянув якось гостро.
— Чому ти спитав, чи я тебе кохаю? Чому спитав, чи ми разом? _____
Алек вирішує зробити Магнусу пропозицію. Усе йде не за планом
Words: 1833, Chapters: 1/1, Language: Українська
Fandoms: The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Categories: M/M
Characters: Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood
Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood
Additional Tags: Miscommunication, Marriage Proposal, Confusion, Complicated Relationships, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Happy Ending
Alec and Magnus are finally back home, safe, healthy and together. Magnus enjoys a sunrise after the darkness of Edom, and his mind. Alec enjoys seeing the love of his life having his spark back.
Aka quite a bit of fluff with some talk of mental health.
Words: 1339, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Categories: M/M
Characters: Alec Lightwood, Magnus Bane
Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood
Additional Tags: Missing Scene, Love, Drama, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Recovery, Healing, Hope, References to Depression, Nightmares, Short & Sweet
**Summary** Evan Buckley, once a bright and heroic firefighter of Station 118, returns to his job after winning a bitter lawsuit—only to discover that victory cost him everything. Shunned by his former family, reassigned to a hostile night crew, he endures months of escalating cruelty, humiliation, and repeated sexual assault at the hands of three probies. Broken, isolated, and invisible even to those who once loved him, Buck spirals into self-harm and despair until he dies alone in his bunk—bloodied, drugged, and abandoned.
But death is not the end. Reborn in a parallel Shadow World with golden wings, sheep-like horns, a heart-shaped tail, and the power to become unseen, Evan—now something ancient and new
Words: 54923, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), Shadowhunters (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Gang Rape, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Angst with a Happy Ending, Alternate Universe, Sexual Abuse, Implied/Referenced Abuse, Not Human, Alternate Universe - Not Human, Hurt/Comfort, Pet, Hurt Evan “Buck” Buckley, Hurt Alec Lightwood, Superpowers, Tail Sex, Bottom Evan “Buck” Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley use his tail on Alec Lightwood and fuck him, Loud Sex, Angst, pet bird, Assault, Work place harassment, Post-Lawsuit (9-1-1 TV), Evan “Buck” Buckley’s Lawsuit Against the City of LA
“And he had plenty of those in his closet now, but the shirts had designer labels, the coats and jackets were Burberry and Hugo Boss and Dolce & Gabbana. Like the clothes in Sebastian’s closet. Like the expensive clothing Valentine had always worn.”
— Магнусе, — видихнув Алек і замовк, не в змозі закінчити. Сподівався, що чаклун, як завжди, розгадає питання до того, як мисливцю доведеться промовляти.
— Що, Алеку? — видихнув Магнус і глянув якось гостро.
— Чому ти спитав, чи я тебе кохаю? Чому спитав, чи ми разом?
_____
Алек вирішує зробити Магнусу пропозицію. Усе йде не за планом
Words: 1833, Chapters: 1/1, Language: Українська
Fandoms: The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Categories: M/M
Characters: Magnus Bane, Alec Lightwood
Relationships: Magnus Bane/Alec Lightwood
Additional Tags: Miscommunication, Marriage Proposal, Confusion, Complicated Relationships, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Happy Ending
**Summary** Evan Buckley, once a bright and heroic firefighter of Station 118, returns to his job after winning a bitter lawsuit—only to discover that victory cost him everything. Shunned by his former family, reassigned to a hostile night crew, he endures months of escalating cruelty, humiliation, and repeated sexual assault at the hands of three probies. Broken, isolated, and invisible even to those who once loved him, Buck spirals into self-harm and despair until he dies alone in his bunk—bloodied, drugged, and abandoned.
But death is not the end. Reborn in a parallel Shadow World with golden wings, sheep-like horns, a heart-shaped tail, and the power to become unseen, Evan—now something ancient and new
Words: 54923, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), Shadowhunters (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Gang Rape, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Angst with a Happy Ending, Alternate Universe, Sexual Abuse, Implied/Referenced Abuse, Not Human, Alternate Universe - Not Human, Hurt/Comfort, Pet, Hurt Evan “Buck” Buckley, Hurt Alec Lightwood, Superpowers, Tail Sex, Bottom Evan “Buck” Buckley, Evan “Buck” Buckley use his tail on Alec Lightwood and fuck him, Loud Sex, Angst, pet bird, Assault, Work place harassment, Post-Lawsuit (9-1-1 TV), Evan “Buck” Buckley’s Lawsuit Against the City of LA
i NEED to see a dentist about the cracks in my teeth oh my god i just ate a chip . and a shard of it when straight down into the crack of one of my teeth and hit the nerves and it HURTSS
it’s been like 2 weeks of Agony for hours after every fucking time i eat and the only suggestion my pcp had was pepto bismal which at least has stopped me from shitting myself but still!!! wtf is happening. this is just like the last time I felt okay with ed stuff– when I was out of treatment for ~1 year I had an issue with random puking after meals and i never got an answer about it despite extensive testing. I just happened to get lucky and it randomly vanished as suddenly as it came. it’s like ohhhh you really thought you’d be okay?? PSYCH
I know this is definitely tmi but I should genuinely never drink coffee again. I had a coffee at 3pm and started shitting at 6 and didn’t stop til like 9.30. I passed out on the way to the toilet at one point. My vision blackened at the edges like a shitty iMovie after effect. My heart was hammering so hard from standing and walking like 5 metres. And yet I have none of the normal effects of coffee drinking. I’m not hyper. I don’t have any more energy than usual. I’m not even any more tired than usual 7 and a half hours after drinking it. I am however, worried I may die.
i have something i want to rant about but it’s . pretty tmi so. don’t click if ur under 18
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i started a new antidepressant a few weeks ago called viibryd. i’m also taking wellbutrin which has been great so far, with not many side effects. it just wasn’t working as well on its own.
anyway, all that to say, the slim amount of research i did before starting it said it doesn’t have many sexual side effects. which is important to me. but as it turns out, that research is being questioned in some circles because more people are reporting sexual dysfunction while taking it.
like. my sex drive is still VERY much intact. i’m basically horny 24/7. but i can’t fucking cum dude 😩 i usually end up tiring myself out way before. it suuuucks!
the worst part is, viibryd is actually helping. i actually have interest in doing things now. i’m playing tons more guitar and actually doing well in my computer science class. i’m laughing more now. i feel better. so it’s like. do i want to be happy or do i want the ability to achieve orgasm? can’t choose both btw.
