why do i wake up at night?

i used to think it’s something ive learnt because of being constantly policed as a child. only got any privacy at night, novels with a torch under a blanket. then i thought maybe im just more efficient at night, found some scientific studies to confirm that. now i think that’s the only time i feel free.

the day is just obligations, bunch of stuff you must do because you cant do it later. attend classes, meet people, do “work”. but i only seem to wake up at night. after everyone has gone to sleep, i feel like i can have my way with my world and myself. that is when i feel the most in the moment, awake and in control. and that’s when i need to sleep since i do still need to attend to obligations.

what do u think.

ur entire perspective on life really can just change on a random sunday huh

It just needs the right music at the right time.

When nobody goes to the same area anymore, nature takes its toll and created a garden as their own.

Entire cool family definitely reeks

Coolkidd constantly smells ash and burnt hair

7n7 gets so focused on his work that he forgets to shower

And Noli. Well. Don’t get too close to her mouth. It smells like iron and venison.

Bruce in time loop Bruce in time loop Bruce in time loop

ever so often I’m on scuderia ferrari hp’s linkedin page and they put out a job opening which goes like F1 full stack web development. I could Do that, technically.

Oh, I dream a highway back to you, love

A winding ribbon with a band of gold

A silver vision convalesced my soul

I dream a highway back to you

Now give me some of what you’re having

I’ll take you as a viper into my head

A knife into my bed, arsenic when I’m fed

And I dream a highway back to you

Hang overhead from all directions

Radiation from the porcelain light

Blind and blistered by the morning white

I dream a highway back to you

Was gonna use this as just only a reblog, but then again, the arts I will mass post will just make it cluttering, and yeah, I haven’t posted those in a while just other medias.

Aesthetics changes from like Miami 80s/synthwave to now liminal space, and that includes the backrooms. All thanks to watching too many empty malls, schools, and weird abandoned places. Sometimes nature takes over and and the area may seem uncomfortable, but it’s comforting to me just to hang out and vibe.

ryland having a situationship while hes out in space, but he can’t really commit to anyone the way he did mark. but it was fun and worth a try, it just wasn’t meant to work out !

Kiss the cook, Marry the baker, Kill the Food Critic

thing about me is that when i make a single mistake my stupid brain supports the theory that i’m incapable of doing literally anything by pointing at past ones where the same thing inevitably happened

Putting myself first starts today. Im nervous but also so excited for the future. I just hate to hurt her

Is it bad to feel like ya could make a comic, but just don’t know how well others do it? I’m thinking about that because it’s so well done.

ALT

Sending Raymond because of how I feel right now.

Is there a set of kamidogu for every single timeline or were they spread across multiple? If that’s the case wouldn’t the Titans wonder where they went? But if they multiplied for every timeline, how would that work? This bothers me much more than it should

genuinely how do you guys cope with leaving highschool. i still cannot comprehend it. i’m gonna turn 18. i’m going to be in college. i’m not going to be a highschooler anymore? it still feels like my highschool experience JUST started and suddenly i’m not a schoolkid anymore? what?? this is insane?? i don’t even think i had the highschool experience. i lived some parts of it i guess? but it just feels so weird like…thats it? i need to leave now? i need to start this new chapter NOW?? it feels like i’m being forced to do it that being said i genuinely am very very excited to be starting college because i’m so excited to be studying something i’m genuinely interested in and am so excited to meet new people, make new friends but that being said when i JUST started liking my school experience it feels like its being ripped away from my hands its a weird sort of cognitive dissonance

I want to blow smoke into their mouth while I kiss them, I think.

masked men…….

drawing my 20s outfits finally, but i love when pearls have that yellowish hue to them instead of the purer white, i think it makes them look so much more beautiful and classy

can’t wait to post and explain the thoughts behind my design choices hehe :]