#talking

for once being a mobile app only user (& turning auto update off) has served me well

Having a special interest on identity flag making is kind of funny, like got bored; made a new gender.

Random writing because I have shit else to do..

I hate randomly out of bumfuck no where suddenly feeling much more blank, I like being the energetic one— now here I am just doing nothing. I can’t come up with anything funny to goof off about and my lovely co fronters aren’t being anything particularly awesome.

Anyways I also hate getting suddenly attached to ppl when they decide to pull away. I was doing perfectly fine then they decided to push away and now I suddenly need them again?? Hell they probably aren’t even pushing away they are probably legitimately busy! Then again I know who they hang around. 🫩

Oh and I have thoughts for a person and it’s like wow how do I even manage that one!! I know it’s just a fixation and I don’t know if that hurts more or not knowing it. I never actually can stand that stuff, I fuck that shit up way too often to actually stand it. I can’t stand liking people because of it, either I get fixated on them or I don’t recognize them literally hating me.

Then when I break up with people I feel like an asshole if they react badly too it. I stayed with some guy TWO AND A HALF YEARS LONGER because of it!! TWO AND A HALF YEARS, and I was with them three almost four!!

“You don’t care about anyone but yourself!!” I care about everyone BUT MY FUCKING SELF HALF OF THE TIME. I sit there and help people for hours, I have spent hours helping people but when I need help suddenly I’m dirt! I hate people. I sat in a relationship for two and a half years unhappy because I didn’t want to hurt the other person. I sat there getting triggered by someone venting but still comforted them the whole time.

What do you mean I spent years of my life with a guy who was going around calling me abusive and shit behind my back? What do you mean I still miss him. I fucking miss it! I miss the fucking way I felt when I was with them. I miss when they’d realize they fucked up and they’d dote on me, I miss when they’d get pissed off with me!

God I miss when multiple of my ex’s and almost all of them were toxic. I miss them because I felt loved in that shit! I miss when I had a legitimate reason to be upset. I even miss when my old friends would leave me when they got tired of me defending my exs and my exs comforting me after the fact.

I just needed the thought out of my mind, probably the best to ignore this or wtv.

if youre sick of tumblr and a deltarune fan you should join the forum boards at deltaruneboards.net

i am so scared to see the new update

I haven’t posted at all today who even am i.

not a fan of the new reblog system i wont leave but if u want to see my art and ramblings more and better then find me on bsky

everything i post here i post to bsky + more its just better for me tbh

Going to lose my shit if I can’t sleep in a couple hours, I have shit to do tomorrow I can not keep up barely sleeping I need my eight hours and get bitchy when I don’t orrrr I get too giggly that people worry

Wouldn’t care so much if I wasn’t meeting new people tomorrow but I am going in public and want to be completely there this time 😔

At least it was a natural disaster that almost took me out and not a bus.

whole lot of self sabotage and self destruction in my life since childhood i’m lowkey chill tho

this tumblr update is sooooo evil and confusing i think i’m gonna pause posting art for a little bit

this ugly as fuck update

Hello!! Thanks for reaching out! It’s nice to meet you!! :)))

almost 6am.i want to draw a gar fish

i don’t WANT to go on bluesky this shit STINKS

ive long thought it would be a good idea to make the last person in a reblog chain get a note when someone reblogs it from that point (if the person in question wants the notifications) but I don’t think splitting it up into its own post with its own note count is the way to go

characters made via the relations of a preexististing character < characters made via a preexisting environment / system

Either my package is in a time rift or everything is completely unreliable at telling me what the hell is happening to it

Sooo with that new update

Having a reblog focused blog is not good at all, not everyone is going to go for the Original Poster to add tags there!

I do encourage y'all to do that, we’re having a hard time around here.

One of the greatest things about Dark (2017) is that I have never felt like “ugh I wish I could experience this again for the first time.” It is amazing on a first watch but a second, third, or fourth watch are even better. It is a show that was designed to be enjoyed again and again (wieder und wieder)