crushes never have been healthy to my brain ever like if i’m going to obsess and crash out for a month straight over a kpop group wtf am i going to do with someone i see semi regularly in normal situations like obviously my mind is going to blow things out of proportion and self cannibalise itself in those dopamine hits over and over and over again. never in my life has a crush been not an obsession that burns into me for months with no actual real life change and part of me needs to accept that in order to have any sway on them irl is to keep showing up and to progressively become closer as oppose to this magical point at which everything actuates and boom! we are together and know everything about each other and it all works out. because funnily enough this is not how most things work in life



