I Miss You Bigtime, Dearest
I’ve always counted how long it would take me to break, to finally lose my wits and heave out my hidden longing for your presence.
For years I’ve wondered what would it be like to live by you once more, to build another forgotten routine with you by my flowing bourn.
It wasn’t so easy you know? concealing my buried misery was a chore I had to face each day. The choked up sobs and the quiver of my lips is a task that lies unfinished tonight as I lay.
The simplicity of my everyday is always gauged from your eyes, pondering if my actions are to your leaning. Held by an unbroken chain, refusing to save myself from your drowning memories.
For so long, I craved you.
Would it be hypocrisy if I say I’m fine?
That denying my yearning for your existence once more, then weep my unshed tears in the night is a habit carved into my being?
Surely, it is acceptable that I’ve hidden it for so long. That I’ve held onto my promise in your faded pinky.
Through my core, I just couldn’t deny.
Piercing through my bones is your fading promises and warmth that crawls in my skin.
But right now? Only one thing’s clear,
My Dearest, I Miss You Bigtime.