The weight of healing
sometimes healing hurts more,
because it shows you clearly
who you were
when you hurt people who didn’t deserve it.
and you remember their faces,
the way their voices changed,
the way they started guarding themselves around you.
you remember the things you said,
the things you can’t take back.
and the guilt isn’t loud,
it’s quiet.
it follows you into better days.
because you know now.
and knowing is the weight.
not to punish you,
but to make sure
you never become that version of yourself again.
Petalibui
