| CW: blood, mention of injury, thoughts and talk of death
| characters: Rafael, Edward, Killian, fern
| @flowersarefreetherapy
Rafael
My tears were mixed with sweat. The blankets under me were soaked with my blood. Edward kept swearing behind me, but I could barely hear him over my screams and the ringing in my ears. Darkness kept creeping into my vision but Fern would force me to stay awake. She rushed around the room, bringing Edward everything he said he needed.
I laid on my side, feeling the strength leave my body as Edward works to stop the bleeding from my knee.
“Edward.” I gasp out, slapping his hand in attempt to grab it.
“What is it?” His breath comes in short bursts.
“Don’t.” I grit my teeth as pain flares through my body.
His hand still, and Fern stops what she’s doing.
“…don’t what?” Her voice shakes.
“Don’t fix it.” My hand twists into the pillow. “Just leave it.”
“I can’t do that.” He starts working again, and I can feel a needle piece my skin, pulling thread through.
“Edward please,” my voice breaks. “Let me bleed out.”
I hear the door open and close and I can sense that Fern left. For what, I do not know.
“No.” Edward’s voice shakes. “No, Rafael.”
“Edward!” I smacked his hand away and felt my skin tear. “Listen to me!”
He came around to my front, dropping to his knees on the side of the bed. Blood covered his forearms and hands. My blood. I struggle to push myself up. Concern creases the doctor’s brow.
“I am done fighting.” My voice is quiet as the tears begin to flow.
He shakes his head, “no. You can’t give up.”
“This has been happening for years!” I sobs. “I am done fighting for a horrible life!”
“How can you say that?” His voice breaks as he adjusted his glasses. “You have all of us…”
“But every time I close my eyes I can see and feel him.” I try to breathe but sobs racket my chest.
“I refuse to give up on you.” He stands, grabbing his bag with supplies, and moving back around me. “I will not give up on you, Rafael.”
“Edward, please—“
I’m cut off by the door swinging open and Killian rushes in. Blood drips down his hand but he brushes it off on his pants. Fern closes the door behind him. He rushed to my side and climbed onto the bed, pulling me close to him.
“What happened?” He brushed hair from my face, straining to see my wound. I clung onto his shirt, not wanting to have to face Edward.
“What happened to you?” Edward asked, glancing at his raw knuckles. My stomach dropped. I knew what he had done.
“Killian…?” I looked up at him.
He shook his head, wrapping his arms around me in a way that I couldn’t see fern and Edward. I felt Edward stitching the wound.
“Rafael,” Edward set his hand on my arm. “You are safe here. With us.”
I shake my head against killian’s chest, “you can’t promise that.”
“Yes, we can.” Killian pressed a kiss into the top of my head. “we care for you. Me, fern, Edward, the others.”
“What did you do?” I grabbed his hand, looking at his bloody knuckles.
“Now’s not the time.” He leaned over my head to tell Edward something. Then Edward and Fern talked for a moment before she left.
“What is it?” I pulled myself up but Killian stopped me, forcing me to lay back down.
“Stay lying down.” Edward said. “I cleaned the wound and stitched as much as I could closed. Now I’m going to wrap it, which will hurt.”
“It all hurts.” I buried my face into killian’s chest as the doctor started bandaging my knee.
“Stay awake, okay.” Killian gently shook my face as my eyes slowly closed.
After many antagonizing minutes, Edward said he was done. I couldn’t feel my leg, just pain. My body was exhausted. I was exhausted.
Killian made eye contact with Edward and he frowned. I knew what they were going to say, but I still dreaded the answer.
“Rafael…” the doctor came around and sat on the edge of the bed. “With your ankles, I could repair what was there.”
I couldn’t stop more tears from coming.
“It’s a miracle you could walk.” He took a deep breath. “But with this… there’s too much damage.”
Killian pulled me closer, brushing the tears from my face.
“You won’t be able to walk ever again.”