another thing. i hate applying to jobs. because im not gonna get the job i want and like its for the best bc i should go for what’s more high paying but also im not gonna get the more high paying job either.
like i’m sorry im a hedonist at heart and that’s been detrimental to my mental health and a lot of other things but i do genuinely believe that getting a job i like that pays well should not be such a difficult ask. like why is it entitlement to be like hey i hope i get a job that feels fulfilling and also pays ok. it can be boring it can be hard it can be dull it can have problems the way anything in life does sure okay but i just dont wanna hate myself. but it seems like every job posting i see i will probably hate myself

















