My GF (20F) is going back to living a lifestyle that makes me (26M) uncomfortable AND breaks my boundary
I met my girlfriend a year ago. When i met her, she was very much a dealbreaker. She partied, raved, smoked weed, cigarettes, vaped, gets drunk on purpose with her friends (and has even once admitted to driving home drunk). She would go to raves and get high and smell horrible when she got home. I do not like raves and that bothers me.
I fell in love with her personality, her heart, her beauty. I met her in a store at the mall and i swear before i even knew ANYTHING about her i felt like she was the one. I felt something so strong that i had never felt before. I believe my love overshadowed the fact that her lifestyle choices were not gonna line up with me. However we got together, and just a few weeks in i ALREADY started feeling like it was a bad idea because she was constantly vaping around me and in my own bed room, always needing to go out for a cigarette, insisting i get us alcohol to drink together, etc, and man, that’s just NOT me. I can’t stand all that stuff. She went out every other night to go get High in a parking lot with friends and get drunk to the point of barely being able to walk. Seeing that BROKE my heart. It hurts me to see someone i care so much about doing that to themselves.
So before things got TOO serious, i told her “Listen, i thought i could handle your lifestyle choices because of my love for you, but im realizing its starting to bother me. It hurts me to see you that way.” I did NOT want to continue a relationship with someone that simply breaks my boundary that (i thought) i could handle. I didn’t wanna get attached to her after a year and then find out she DOES want to live that way. Just get it OVERWITH now and don’t waste my time, you know?
And she immediately told me that she would stop. I didn’t even ask. I did not pressure. She told me that she wants a future with me and she wants to be healthy for us, and she immediately threw her vape away and started seeking methods to help get her through it. She honestly is such a sweet girl, I in no way told her she NEEDED to do this, more like just expressed how i felt on the matter, and she chose to stop for us, AND for herself.
She stopped drinking too, and she stopped hanging out with her bad influence friends and only started hanging around GOOD friends.
Wow, this girl is really bettering herself. It made me so happy she was willing to stop all of this for herself, AND for the relationship.
Overtime i started to get this GUT feeling like she was unhappy and missing out in life because i was afraid I CHANGED her. Throughout the relationship i would ask her “Are you sure you’re done with that life?” “Are you positive you never wanna smoke again?” “Do you really not like raves anymore?”
And i’m not kidding, for more than HALF the relationship, when brought up, she would deny and deny. Endlessly. She was VERY insistent and told me i was wrong for thinking that, because that’s in her past, and i shouldn’t worry about her past because she is DONE with that life, knew it was BAD for her, and is really happy with me now and wants a happy healthy future together.
WELL A FEW DAYS AGO, after a whole year with her, i finally got her to confess that she misses her old (bad influence) friends, misses the raves, misses the smoking, misses the drinking, and that she needs it to be happy.
I’m so hurt. I did NOT want to be with her for a year JUST TO BE TOLD that she IS breaking my boundary and she needs it to be happy. But man, i’m truly broken. I was expecting a COMPLETELY different life with this girl, this is NOT what i signed up for. I want to be mad at her but i can’t. I wish she told me sooner, i can’t stand even the IDEA of her getting drunk in a parking lot or at a rave and smoking.
JFC you’re exhausting. I hope you grow up and become better.
First you meet a woman you’re incompatible with.
Then you get into a relationship with her, heavily judging her, and literally hating her entire life and personality.
Then when she gives up everything enjoyable in her life for you (including friends!!! you are so unreasonably judgemental of!!! because they get consensually drunk!!! like many other human people!!! because it’s a perfectly fine thing to do!!!), you spend months and months and months bullying and harassing and pestering her over it, basically FORCING her to say she misses those things.
Then you come here to whine and cry and act like a victim like you didn’t fucking drag this woman down and do this to yourself.
JFC if something is a deal breaker for you, then don’t date a woman who meets every single so-called deal breaker and try to force her to fit in the tiny little box you’ve constructed - you just fucking don’t date her in the first place, christ