There hasn’t been a time in my life where being a Mama wasn’t a desire.
I had 3 mamas. My Mom who gave birth to me, my God Mother, and my brother’s God Mother. They were each so different but had the same capacity to love and nurture that it overflowed out of their being and left permanent imprints on all of us kids. The security I felt as a child with them is something I hold dear.
I’m 34. No kiddos of my own yet but I’ve been able to share my own capacity to love and nurture with countless children throughout my years as a Nanny. I’ll tell you one thing though, it’s not the same and from time to time I felt that twinge of emptiness from not being a Mama yet.
You might be reading this and thinking, “Um…well why would you want to be a Doula? Isn’t that just setting yourself up to be hurt?”
Yes haha that is definitely something I think about. Similarly to how hard it is to say goodbye to a family once a contract has completed. Becoming a Doula gives me a chance to act in a way I would want to be supported in if I was that Mama. Sharing the energies of compassion and championing them through a process their bodies were created to do.
Just like my Mamas.
Who knows, maybe this journey will show me how a Mama can mean more than just someone who gives birth to a child but also someone who loves children as their own. If only for a brief period of time.
