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40 pounds since October
Not normal.
But if there somehow isnt anything wrong w me…. then gooddd
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o canto da boca de navira curvou devagar, um sorriso enviesado que não chegava a ser gentil — mas era o mais próximo disso que ela costumava permitir. o bar vibrava ao redor com vozes e vidro tilintando, luzes baixas refletindo no âmbar do drink que ela girava entre os dedos. ainda sentia o eco recente do gesto dele — a mão firme afastando um inconveniente, a intervenção limpa, sem alarde. cavalheirismo humano tinha algo quase antiquado. quase… encantador. ela repetiu a frase dele em pensamento, saboreando-a como quem testa o gosto de algo novo. virou o rosto na direção do universitário (!!), os olhos claros demorando-se um segundo a mais do que o necessário, avaliando-o com uma atenção rara. ❛ eu detesto dívidas. ❜ murmurou, a voz baixa o suficiente para ser só dele, deslizando macia apesar do conteúdo. ❛ elas criam expectativas, e expectativas costumam terminar em decepção. ❜ inclinou-se levemente sobre o balcão, aproximando a distância por pura escolha, não necessidade. o perfume dela misturava-se ao cheiro de álcool e madeira antiga, e havia algo estranhamente confortável naquela proximidade. ❛ mas talvez eu esteja disposta a abrir uma exceção. o que exatamente você acha que eu te devo, herbert? ❜ o polegar dela traçou a borda do copo em um gesto distraído, paciente. não era só curiosidade; era um convite. uma porta entreaberta para que ele entrasse — e decidisse o que faria com o espaço que ela, tão raramente, concedia.



[ID: Homestuck narration reading:
You’re not sure why you did that, really.
There’ll probably turn out to be a reason. There’s a reason for everything. Understanding this lets you be reckless.
Whoever you are.
End ID]
Choose 4 things within 4 feet of you and write for 4 minutes. One sentence each.
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On one side of my chair is a box of documents to be shredded, while on the other is a box of papers to be filed. 📦🗃️
The clock that my husband deemed “too busy” lies on the coffee table waiting to be returned. ⏰
Old episodes of The Rockford Files are more entertaining than Super Bowl LX. 🔍🏈
The…

I chose this as my elixir because over the course of the time I was working on my last elixir, I discovered that I was getting frustrated with it. So I was setting aside time to disconnect, and managing my time better by not getting sucked into mindless distractions. I started writing in a journal for my elixirs, which is something I had not done before. I also worked some more on this blog. I was getting more done because I was not letting myself get lost in distractions and I was doing better at not getting lost in time. But besides this, mostly, my goal was to set time aside to get back to painting. I had not worked on it since before the holidays.

In my previous attempts at painting, I had gotten through the tutorials but discovered I didn’t have all the right size brushes and certain tools, which was making some of my first attempts more difficult. I went to the store and bought more of the proper tools so I could follow along more accurately. I also followed a video that practiced brush strokes only, instead of doing a full painting.
After this, I re-did the first tutorial video and came out with wildly different results than the first time. So now I was ready for the second video. But as I got halfway through it, I was having trouble seeing the sunset colors blend. And the paint was drying fast and I started to get frustrated. So I made a decision to stop for now and come back to it later and try again with better lighting. Because I want to paint for enjoyment, so when I started to feel frustrated with it, I knew it was time to stop. Even though I set time aside for it and for a moment felt like I was quitting, I did not want to stay frustrated trying to power through it.
This week I picked it up with better lighting but the angle of the light caused the paint to reflect. So this time was just as hard and I got frustrated again and stopped but decided to wait for it to dry and go back over the mistakes. All in all, my previous elixir was a success. Even though I did not complete a painting, it was still time I set aside un-distracted to work on and was also really important to discover that I don’t want to be frustrated while doing it, and it’s okay to stop and pick it up later.
And it also led me to this elixir. When I was thinking about what to write, I knew I wanted it to be about the frustration I was feeling. And as I was holding the pen and paper I heard it so clearly in my mind, the words “you don’t have to get it right the first time!” Like it was clear as a bell. So my wording was around this idea.
The elixir is in my window now and I had not thought of what I wrote for it when I sat down to paint today. I remembered that I said I give myself permission but was not thinking of the rest of it when I sat down to paint today. I tried to fix my previous mistake but the paint was not covering over it. So I took a new board and decided to start from the beginning. And I was hitting more blocks because the paint was not blending and I was again getting frustrated. So I stopped and found some blending tutorials, like I did with the brush strokes tutorial.
Big smile! The cover for Archie’s ‘Sonic The Hedgehog’ comic #150, June 2005.
Drawn by Patrick Spaziante.
Lifting something that you can’t see with telekinesis is hard.
It’s not like feeling around in the dark for something you want to grab; you can’t feel your surroundings, or even what you’re holding.
Right now, that doesn’t matter. You have no choice but to try.
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The end!
I saw Zero being inside Fifteen’s cabin on TPOT 20 and HAD to draw something about it!!