lola

i feel like i am going insane.

why does everyone hate me once they know me? please i just want to be seen. i just want to be liked. please.

nothing like spending my break crying in my car. what is wrong with me? why can’t i do anything right?

why does everyone hate me. i really don’t understand. im trying my best. i’m doing everything they ask. and they still just hate me.

i don’t even feel like i exist right now

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

-versesofourhearts

when i care for you, it’s not temporary ,it lasts until the end

it hurts wanting to be heartless but knowing that’s not me

My voice in my head is broken too.

in my next life, may i never know the sound of my own voice explaining how i deserve to be loved.

You can fuck your whole life up loving the wrong person.

some days i’m not scared of dying, i’m more scared of living like this for another forty years

i live my life the way i eat ramen. you’re supposed to eat it quick, steal its warmth, and yet i slurp it slow, and sit in disappointment at the temperature when i finally start to enjoy

love is possible. but love is also cruel.

it hurts to breathe. it hurts to eat. it hurts to starve. it hurts to sleep. it hurts to stare at the walls. it hurts to shower. it hurts to physically feel the dirt on my skin. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts.

nobody says my name the way that you did

i hate everything about myself.

But what if….Everything sucked forever…

Ohhh my god everyone on this planet is out to get me and they hate me and they want me dead. Literally just say it.

…held the gun to my head today… maybe ill be strong enough to pull the tigger next time..

you’re reading the blog of the first person to ever make a mistake at work

please just let me end it all already…

happiness is just a dream

my stomach hurts because im hungry but if i eat my stomach will hurt because of the food

What would you do, if I wasn’t here anymore ¿ Would you care ? Or would you just act like you care to make yourself seem interesting ¿

- @djezsmin

I should’ve killed myself at 12 years old, honestly. Nothing got better.

Everything fucking sucks.

I’m over it & I’m done.

Self isolation has never helped me before and actually makes things worse on most occasions but maybe THIS time-

I’m just scum and that’s all I’ll ever be.

something that always gets broken and then when you think it’s bandaged back together it comes tumbling down again.