3/14😪
My gawd…I fked up. But this is just a dent in my life and something that’s not forever. I know i have control over my life and don’t have to deal with this crap anymore.
So long story short, I moved to Seattle to start fresh away from ex husband. I was gunning on getting full custody of kiddos but lost because ex husband family had a lawyer, I did not 😭 (i know now ex did it for “revenge” from me leaving him and if his parents didn’t pay thousands for his lawyer, he would have just given me full custody…). Lived with grandparents, got back into school, full time job, had plans to move to Texas, got my body back and had money to send to my kiddos, would visit them or bring them to Seattle and we would go on adventures♡♡♡
I was dumb enough to go on a dating website, meet now boyfriend (soon to be ex), he did a bait and switch on me. Was drawn in because he was everything I wanted in a boyfriend and he showed it. Long story short, now pregnant, no job, still in school (almost done♡), realized boyfriend is a red pill perverted fat gamer incel who loves trump…wtf? When I first met him, he told me he wasn’t really (can’t stand politics), got therapy (ex gf told me he doesn’t believe in therapy🙄wow), and a whole bunch of crap. He made it very obvious, he sees my kiddos as an obstacle, ex husband as a threat, family as liberals and don’t want my family near his daughter??? Um what? No, i am out. Mind you, he’s never met my family and refuses to, if I bother to talk about my family, he cuts me off…it’s all about control.
Anyways. Im planning on moving to Texas! To be continued lol with my life but now preggers… I currently stay with soon to be ex but having my gma pick my ass up on Tuesday. Im packing a few items but not all, so he doesn’t realize I’m leaving for good. Literally the only reason I would stay on top of the bullshit🙄:
Shared rent or financial support. (I don’t pay anything but after I get degree and career I want to contribute)
Convenience of the current living arrangement.
Avoiding the effort of starting over somewhere new.
Keeping things peaceful until the baby arrives.
Giving yourself time to build a longer-term exit plan.
Reasons to leave:
I don’t love him.
I don’t trust him.
He already said he won’t help with diapers, feeding, or baths.
That means I’d basically be solo parenting anyway.🙄🤣
The relationship feels more stressful than supportive.
There’s nothing tying me there financially or legally right now.
It’s easier to relocate before the baby is born than after. (THIS)
I’d have more control over my living environment.
I could build a calmer home for myself and the baby. (THIS)
I can get a cat if I want without someone complaining about it. (He literally said no…wth? Yea bye)
Starting fresh now is easier than leaving with a newborn later. (Would not be able to leave the state)
Peace is better than staying in a relationship that already feels over.
Need i say more?