character concept (may 2025)

just edited a video to be 10x better

whats more deadly? eclipsed titan or pulling the apparatus on embrion?

a brief rundown of the two situations if youre unsure what we’re talking about:

eclipsed 8-titan
- a S+ danger level hard moon with a snowy blizzard environment like 7-dine and 85-rend that makes it extremely hard to see and navigate. it hosts some of the most dangerous entities like jesters and nutcrackers, as well as dangerous entity combos like coil-heads with brackens. with eclipsed weather it not only makes the entire day dark but makes exterior and interior hostile entitles spawn early.

pulling the apparatus on 5-embrion
- a S danger level secret moon that is barren and empty, devoid of biological life. the main entrance of the facility is fairly easy to get to, straight shot, but the surface outside of the facility can be occupied with up to 30 old birds. pulling the apparatus on this planet (power core in the facility) wakes up all old birds at the same time, regardless what time of the day it is.

What’s up!

Shows finally over ❤️❤️, so back to a more normal posting schedule.

Synopsis: sleeping at the H house has been nice, I’ve been at school way too much, I spend way too much time with TD and has too deep of an understanding of me, I’m gonna miss my senior friends and fuck I’m going to be in Africa in less than a week idk if I’m ready.

Long version: regular H house things but then AH came home. He got his bed for almost all the days he was home but he’s leaving early in the morning like idk 2 hours from now or something. Wednesday was uneventful. Thursdays show I had like a 5 second fuck up that was very noticeable and I really beat myself up about it. TD told me that it’s not worth it, anxiety about things people aren’t gonna remember after tonight gains nothing. Anxiety is normal but beating yourself up for mistakes is not healthy and I really took it to heart. Thursday and Friday shows went well, classes were just trying to stay awake mostly. We had a debate in English where I spoke on standing up and speaking out and more people agreed with the don’t vote or have an opinion sit down and shut up ideology. Then me and MH finished our math project just in time and turned it all in! Today’s shows were sad. I’m really gonna miss my seniors. Obviously tears shed over PJ and KV, especially the latter. But I really thought I would cry about BV because I’ve known him my whole life and we are pretty close but it was actually LC that I shed tears over. I’m really gonna miss him. Me and TD had a long conversation about just life and whatever. Tbh I can’t tell if it’s like a I want to be you, or want to be your friend, or a I want to like maybe hold your hand but that’s it- like how I view a good relationship- with you. The final show I didn’t have any huge screw ups and I only cried kind of. Then we went to Dennys like we always do. I sat at a booth and it was me PJ KV MH at first BV and then LC. It was nice I need to actively engage in more convos with LC we just talk that much. Then I realized how soon I’m gonna be in Africa and I got kind of anxious but I’m spending the night at KV’s and decided that anxiety is tomorrow’s problem. It’s now like 3 in the morning and I’m going to bed.

Goodnight drink water get sleep!

3/8/26

“THEN I SUPPOSE I SHOULD GIVE YOU THE REAL THING!”

┆ ⌞ ███’S INTRO!⌝

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Before you proceed, please be aware that this blog WILL contain DARK CONTENT, and/or dark themes and context in my stories that may not be everyone’s cup of tea. Consider this as your warning for my blog before interacting,
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┆SOME THINGS YOU SHOULD ALREADY KNOW..

◉ I go by len! Though you’re able to use alternatives like ‘lenny’ as well (^з^)-☆

◉ I am a DARK, and NSFW blog. Its written all over me at this point, but alas.. here’s your █th reminder.

◉ ↑ I’m open to do any genres when it comes to dark content, exclusions are my NO’S in writing (and requests!).

┆MAIN COURSE!

◉ I’m willing to write for﹕jjk (jujutsu kaisen), hi3 (honkai impact), tshd (the summer hikaru died), tokyo ghoul, and link click!

◉ While I am known for writing dark content, don’t let this exclude you from requests! I’m willing to write anything in the ‘norm’ too! (fluff, angst, hurt/comfort. just NOT a slowburn pls..)

◉ I would say reqs are open at all times, though I would update my bio on whether it is or isn’t. In that case, please check it before requesting! :D

◉ In terms of dark content, I’m willing to write for..

╰┈➤ step-cest, corruption, non-con/dubcon, manipulation, yandere, kidnapping, misogyny, perv chara/reader, perversion (groping, panty-stealing, etc), cheating/NTR, teacher x student, you get the idea! Though, if you don’t know if I write a certain genre for dark content, feel free to drop an ask in my inbox! :D

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Again, feel free to ask if I write or don’t write for any other kinks/genres ♡

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▶▶ FORWARDING..

Sail away with me honey
I put my heart in your hands
Sail away with me honey
Now, now, now

Sail away with me
What will be will be
I wanna hold you now

David Gray - ‘Sail Away’

Everyone’s concerned with their own perception where hope and honesty can hold no reflection. you say you hear music, and I understand it without the hold of physical affection. Would you let me connect to realms you hold: heart and chest? To time that tells eternal rest without the pain of egos jest?

Hi!

Today was actually amazing. I was dizzy and didn’t easy lunch and almost passed out several times but it was ok. I got demoted from tech to backstage on Saturday and then promoted today to audio, I’m so excited! Literally made my life. The end of the MS play was ok. All ended well. Then TD let me leave strike to get ice cream.

Side tangent: He’s literally my favorite human bro, idk what I can say. I get accidentally obsessed with people, it was never as bad as it was with KV, like I literally don’t think I’ve ever hyper fixated on a person like that. Then there was TD, I am currently working out of a completely illegal power dynamic crush I had on him. Let’s ignore that…. Anyways. Tm I have a jazz and choir concert and TD also asked for my help with tech in between, how the fuck I’m gonna manage that. No idea.

Wait, sorry for the tangant back to after the show, a bunch of the theater kids, LC, BV, MH, AS, AP, etc. made the terrible decision to let MR drive LC’s car. MR- no hate ok, just facts, is an actually dumb like actually stupid freshman. I feared for everyone’s life in that car. We got ice cream. It was fine. I think I was unknowingly flirting with this senior MR, I don’t like him. He also is known for trying to fuck girls like immediately so… ew. Then I went home. I kind of hate being a teenager. Like make smart decisions already.

I went to rehearsal today and it was just great. Like I needed it. I missed KV. I needed a little time to just be in her presence. Oh. Reminds me, why I was writing this post, ignore the rest of my rambling.

Me and KV were having a conversation like a month ago, about her catching herself wanting to go back to feeling the way she felt (loving them) about a person she had a situationship with last year. When me and PL started taking again that’s how I felt. I was like oh, I really loved this person, but I’m not gonna ruin it so I’m gonna pretend that I don’t. Like no matter if we went to anything more than friends ever again, i will always love them and that’s hard. I just don’t think they understand that no matter what we are, we’re, or ever will be, I will love and care about them. They as much as they might want to, are never getting rid of me. (Envision never ever getting rid of me from waitress) PL is one of the only people that I felt like ever got me, like the true me, and it’s hard to pretend that away, I’m just going to do anything I can not to lose them again. Not In a cringe gay way… um let’s pretend I didn’t say that.

I hope that I never did anything to hint to them that I don’t still see them walk into a room and go- how did I fumble that. Anyways….

I’m staying at the H house atleast two days a week if I didn’t say that already, it’s saving my soul.

I don’t think that I missed anything but umm. To the only person who reads this if you have questions let me know, (your first thought is gonna be: that’s not how I thought that would go.. that’s my guess)

Wlw or wlnb yearning Monday I guess

Drink your water get some sleep, love you all!!

2/23/26

Oh, hello there.

Today. Was weird. Started off REALLY REALLY SHITTY, then got better.

My grandma is in the hospital. Broke a ton of bones. Had to help take her there, get her signed in and what not.

Had to help take my sister home, she cried and asked me not to leave her. I had to leave. I felt really terrible about it. I love her more than life itself.

Went to school, fourth period sucked but the rest were fine. I did tell TD that my weekend was bad, he inquired more. (That’s on him, he should know better by now) I told him about my weekend and my grandma and just my life generally. I think he regretted asking. He said he would pray for me, idk how I feel about that.

(No judgement ok) I made a comment about how forearms and hands with sleeves rolled up (generally) is hot. TD happened to fit that description, it was hot. What can I say. It was kind of embarrassing. But, it is weird bc I don’t find it as attractive on feminine presenting people. Idk 🤷‍♀️.

On an unrelated note apparently im assisting w the middle school production next week. So yeah. Unexpected tech week I guess but an opportunity to learn and grow non the less.

After school KV, MH, PJ, and I went to Starbucks, I needed that I miss seeing all of them everyday. I’m really missing SB I want her to come home. I need more of her in my life.

Then they went to rehearsal and I hung out with TD but, the piano got tuned so he played it for a while, I included a short voice memo so you could hear a bit, idk what he’s playing tho. I just hung w him from like 4-6. Then I ate dinner (I accidentally ate meat 🙋‍♀️🔫) .

Then we went to go get ice cream, convo there was nice, convo while we were there was good. It was LC, BC and his little sister AV, MH and her little brother LH, KV, and I, just chatting. Then KV drove me home and we just got to talk, we sat in my driveway and talked a while. I just needed human interaction esp with someone I really care about and feel like cares about me.

I didn’t do any homework and now I’m going to bed. Goodnight. Love u all.

2/9/26

what if they ate spicy peppers

The piece of what remains,

pierces me still.

As it solemnly calls

it’s longing writhe of will.

Yearning to graze in a sort

that still pulls the blood.

Like puddles bluntly taunting the sod;

Hope displaced in the mud.

cap your measures, hold your tongue

treasure hidden just beyond perception:

can you see the reflection?

can you engulf what you burden?

Resilient choice you’ve made: suffering by the iron,

my dearest cowardly lion.

Will you escape the hold you have chosen?

Please do not make me small for honoring it all. Would an unrequited love always be knocking?

ask meme

you woulg ask that, wouldnt you 🫵

i cannot say i have the same masked brainrot as you </3 i have a fear of like. mass assimilation where being assimilated turns you into an infection vector? e.g. im afraid of zombies where if they bite you, you turn into a zombie also, but i’m not inherently afraid of zombies as in a revived corpse. masked fall under that umbrella. shoutout to my singular ao3 fic that was me going “MASKED SCARE ME” and writing a character experiencing that fear

im not so scared of them now though becauss they can be hit w a shovel and they die easystyle. even though theyre an instakill if they get you, theyre among the easier entities to kill. also if you have someone with you, you can guarantee a safe kill via letting one person get grabbed repeatedly while you smack the masked every time it tries to grab. silly strat is silly

🎭 <- for you. an offering

ask meme

we will be wed in the spring

okay but genuinely. it is still so funny to me that weeds + fox got added -> weedkiller got added bc the weeds were busted and could spawn at the ship -> weedkiller could be used to heal the cruiser + give it bonus boosts -> zeekers removed the weeds + fox -> weedkiller is solely used now to make the cruiser fly. peak game dev yall. i dont think anyone besides high guoda players use the cruiser seriously

Laughing Clowns: Peter Doyle, Ed Kuepper and Louise Elliott. London, c. 1982, photographer unknown. (x)

inspired by an event that happened yesterday on embrion