Am Ende

Vor Jahren wurde ich entfürt, dann vergewaltigt und dann wurde ein Mädchen erschossen. Mir wurde mit dem Tod gedroht. Bis heute trage ich diese Angst, er könnte seine Drohung war machen.

Dann kam ein Mann in mein Leben mit dem ich 2 jahre zusammen war. Der hat mich ebenfalls die 2 Jahre vergewaltigt.

Einige Jahre später habe ich dann einen anderen Mann in mein Leben gelassen. Irgendwie hab ich ihm vertraut und das hat er ausgenutzt. Er war Narzisst. Er hat mich ebenfalls mehrmals vergewaltigt. Als ich mit ihm zusammen war, hab ich sehr viel verloren. Freunde, Geld und Zeit die ich nie wieder sehe. Ich habe mein Leben fasst verloren. Durch Ihn dann weitere Ängste da er ein Agressionsproblem hatte. Durch ihn konnte ich nicht mal mehr in ein Auto steigen.

Das extreme Mobbing mein ganzes Leben. Von Kindergarten bis Schulabschluss Klasse 10 war für mich die Hölle.

Heute hat mich all das geprägt und ich frage mich warum hab ich all das nicht schon einfach beendet…?

“why do you think I made my children?”

[it was dark.]

[it was so, so dark.]

[there was nothing for them to sink their roots into. no firmament around, no soil or air or flame to bring light. it

was

pure

darkness.]

[how long did it take them before they decided to create the first? how long did they spend in that dark?]

“I never said you were. I just…”

[dark.]

[that was one of the first things to have existed.]

[the dark, endless void.]

[and along with it; samarhael.]

[there was nothing(?) besides them.]

[they never liked the nothing.]

[they wanted something.]

[anything. just something or someone to talk to.]

“..oh, nevermind.”

“Well well well 😈”-

NUH UH STOP HOLD THE FCK UP

chapter 66

66 - Sleeping duck V - Chains of a Time Loop

rumination

Flashback to when I strictly only ate a honey bbq chicken finger sandwich from Whataburger at midnight for a month with nothing else besides water or sometimes tea I got

I only remember “you don’t have to eat right now, you’re going to eat later” being my only reason 🥹✌️

My parents weren’t even enforcing this shit I was doing it to myself and they never noticed 💔

Still not completely sure why the hell I did that to myself and somehow didn’t feel any effects from that terrible diet

Good ass sandwich tho 10/10 (I can’t bring myself to eat it anymore)

how to make complex ptsd flashbacks somatic and emotional and physical stop someone advice and help pls thank you 💗💗

Kann mir jemand diese Bilder nehmen?

Ich ertrage sie nicht mehr.

Febuwhump 2026 — Day 26: Time Travel

CW: flashback, childhood theft, complicated parent-child dynamic, introspection
Dragon Age | New Bad Beginning (NBB) — text-only

Hook:
No spells. No Fade tricks. Just one object in her hand—and suddenly she’s years away.

Thus her childhood fascination ran in a straight line to the present. Absently plucking a blade of grass and pressing it between her full lips—untouched by cosmetics—Morrigan seized the elusive thought… But now…
It began with reckless behaviour in Merinwood, a hamlet of a dozen homes. Her “mischief” drew a patrol of Lothering’s Templars… The girl’s sharp eyes immediately fixed on the local attraction—merchant wagons laden with dozens of curios, some of which later found a new owner without anyone’s knowledge.
The defining memory of her childhood, however, was an encounter with an unknown aristocrat… Her prize from that meeting was a miniature lady’s mirror, framed in gold and lacquered wood… The triumph of possession… and the deep, childish resentment when it vanished into the depths of her mother’s worn clothing. For a week after, Flemeth called her a foolish magpie, whose nest could be found by the glint of shiny trinkets.
The witch raised a hand to her eyes, studying the scratched gold band on her finger. A strange gift from Flemeth… Now, the ring evoked only memories.

In the end, we all time-travel every day—whenever we surrender the wheel to memory.

Read on AO3:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/44396590
@febuwhump

@febuwhump day 21: flashbacks

I can’t remember.

a look through silk and fire;

I’ll never forget.

Reminder to those with PTSD to treat themselves with love.

Shit ain’t easy

Febuwhump 2026 Day 21

Flashbacks

      Kira rested her head on top of Master’s shoulder. He carried her tightly in his arms. Master had her wrists tied together and her wings bound. Her body ached as he took her back to the cabin.

      She let her mind wander. Thoughts about the market came back first. Master has only grown more cruel since. She thought about other hunts similar to this one. Groups of men would hunt her just for sport. They called her easy prey. She was chased to exhaustion, only to be thrown around and tied down. They would all look at her the same way, something that provides a resource and entertainment. Kira’s body tensed as she remembered all their glares. The angel glanced over she shoulder as they approached the cabin.

Adult Aang

Day 21 - flashbacks

Read it on ao3 (logged-in users only)

Title: after my dreaming, i woke with this fear

Rating: Mature

Warning: Choose not to Warn

Fandom: Dragon Age

Relationships: Emmrich / Lucanis Dellamorte

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

The nightmares are a constant Lucanis should have learned to live with by now. 

Words: 1308

Why do we have to be so triggered by presenting in front of people, wr can’t even think about it without triggering flashbacks. How do they expect us to fill out an application for alternative testing methods like this :(

Long story short I made an appointment with their accessibility team so they can help us with that.