Cherished Affliction - Chapter 41 - CherishMimi - Glee [Archive of Our Own]
UPDATE: Cherished Affliction - Chapter 41: Epilogue: Give To Me Your Leather, Take From Me My Lace
My Last Cherished Affliction Authors Note
Well, here we are my loves. The end of this journey.
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Before we go, I’d like to take this time to tell you all why I began writing this fic and thank you properly for hanging in there with me this long.
Though I had been reading and dabbling in writing for a while as a young inexperienced teen writer and in other fandoms, I never truly felt like my journey begun until I began writing this story 13 years ago for this fandom. At the time, there was so much discourse around Fifty Shades of Grey and what a horrible job the author had done depicting BDSM and all of its intricacies accurately and it made me curious.
I personally liked the concept of a tortured, detached, young billionaire that had a past and was using kink to numb that past, I was just incredibly unimpressed with the execution. So, I searched in the fandom for something that was similar to scratch the itch and only found two stories that satisfied me. One was ’These Strange Steps’ by thememoriesfire - a Faberry fic and ‘Consequences’ by hathfury - a Brittana fic. I noticed some similar themes in both works.
Both stories used Dominance and submission as an outlet for the characters and at times depicted bad kink etiquette as well as the use of kink as a shield from emotional attachment. Both showed a resolution and acknowledgement of why the etiquette was bad, and had a character that ultimately fell for their partner and had to navigate the dynamics of BDSM alongside their vanilla relationship in a healthy way. Consequences, in particular, was also the first fic I ever read that introduced me to futanari. In other fics, I noticed that the niche of futanari was primarily a vehicle to skate around a pregnancy storyline or feature penetrative sex outside of using a strap on. But I viewed it as a vital part of what could make a main character more complex. A plot device first, vessel for erotica second.
I decided that I wanted my ‘tortured, kinky, billionaire falls for regular girl’ trope but I wanted it realistic. I wanted depth and I wanted a backstory. I didn’t want Quinn to exist as some fantasy only - I wanted her to seem like a real human who had gone through things. I wanted her relationship with kink to be more than just steamy sex scenes. I wanted her body to be more than just a silly little niche. I wanted the reader to feel like they could believe that this particular part of herself had been hard to navigate and maybe led her to bad choices and emotional instability. I also wanted to flesh out what it looked like to see two people falling for one another from different societal classes and how the differences that came with that might impact a relationship. Most of all, despite it being an AU fic, I wanted the characters to still feel familiar. I wanted to connect them to the show as much as I could while still building my own world for them.
I understand that for some, it was not an enticing fic. I won’t forget the angry reviews from readers who didn’t like the concept of reading about a woman with a different sexual organ engaging in sex with another woman. Or the hate I got for some of the harder scenes depicting Quinn’s mistakes as a Domme or my writing in general. I know that there were some that reported the story multiple times, and that ultimately succeeding in getting it deleted from Archive of Our Own all together. But it didn’t matter.
I experienced my own tragedies, triumphs and life changes and I ultimately grew as a writer all while keeping these characters in my heart and never losing sight of what I envisioned for them. Because I refused to abandon this story, or all of the people that were reading it.
I knew in my heart that there was a loyalty that existed in each and every one of you and that is what ultimately kept me going. I could not have written a single word without your support and comments of encouragement. Your comments, messages, kudos and subscriptions reminded me that there was always someone out there waiting to read what would happen next and on my worst day - that fact gave me the strength to write. I’m sure there were many that gave up on the story, or got tired of waiting, but there were so many of you that stuck around. Some of you since the beginning, and for that I will forever be grateful.
I share every part of this accomplishment with all of you. My loves. So, I wanna say from the bottom of my heart - thank you.
Over five hundred thousand plus words and thirteen years later, I hope the conclusion to this story is everything you ever dreamed of from the very first chapter, as I said before. I hope you take something powerful and inspiring from it, and cherish it. I hope that you tell me all about it! About how it made you feel, about what it feels like to get to the end.
And I hope that you all continue to read and support love stories of all kinds.
I have so enjoyed our time together. This isn’t goodbye, I promise. I’ll see you soon!
I love you all!
-Mimi