I need my shoulders rubbed and told I’m pretty. Ugh. So tired of fucking hurting. Actually no, well yes on the tired, I hurt so bad I am angry.
Which does fucking zero for tension! And morning sex didn’t last long enough to do me any good. Downside to being good in bed, sometimes I am too good and left with nothing but cum in me. Which I don’t mind normally but I needed turned to mush. It’d fix me.
Or at least keep my body from breaking itself.
That’s how I’m going to break up with my boyfriend. You’re not my boyfriend; you’re disloyal.
As a child of divorce 🚫🧑🧑🧒, you might think a polycule is a fun cool idea! Two partners for the price of one! (?)👩❤️💋👨👩❤️💋👩 Grow your family unit without having kids! 🚫🍼Share the chore load! 🧽 🧦 It’s fun for the whole family! 🥳
You would be W R O N G 🙅🏼💔✋
because 🤔
you may be on the road to 🛣️
Divorce 💔🚫 2.0 🤯
I just finished playing yakuza 6… that letter was too much for my heart, my poor Daigo 😞 hugging the photo I’ve got framed of him on my shelf extra tight tonight
im sorry dont read
[[MORE]]it just gets harder each day i dont think i can do fhis anymord
i have no idea how to go about hangyons birthday fic and i forgot to think about it..! also unsurprisingly didnt have much time today so nothing for white day either…
i need to go back to writing because how is there nothing new in the frmmxreader tag besides what i last wrote…!?
I feel exactly zero drive to watch Eurovision this year (and possibly from now on and I’m honestly still processing this) but I guess it doesn’t mean I’ll stop talking about it entirely on this blog, maybe it’s time to turn this into a full time Eurovision 1991 shitpost blog like the gods intended it to be
for my own notes, in case I forget, parking here:
identity formation, internal vs external, extrinsic value vs intrinsic value??? consistency of identity across platforms/fandoms – otoh, could be first fandom ever, but why pick one fandom to identify with so solidly? I don’t remember this happening in old fandom.
extrinsic vs intrinsic: are you loved because others love you, or do you have value as a self? because you were born?
internal vs external: where do you get your validation? who are you in the dark? how much of your life have you spent running away from the need to form a self that is your own touchstone? how many people/institutions have been telling you to get your validation from them instead of making your own?
motivation is different when you have intrinsic value + a strong internalized sense of self. then you can keep exploring who you are and know that you will be fine no matter what happens. but if you derive your value more from who you are in community than who you are as a human being, your motivations change. is this where people-pleasing behaviours can come from? how many of us had “fawn” hammered into us because our worth stemmed largely from who we were to others?
for all its focus on individuality, is the US actually quite a collectivist, conformist nation? do we socialise our children to understand that they are worthwhile as the roles they play more so than the people they really are? especially when who they really are raises uncomfortable questions? are we afraid of selfhood?
i exist in a limbo where people know so much about me
but yet no one actually knows me
i wish so badly that i could let people know me
but it’s the scariest thing i’ve ever encountered
so i will continue to remain in this limbo
known yet completely unknown
also does robby expect dennis to run that fucking hospital?
pmo… he has a team of reliable residents and al-hashimi (even if ai loving…)
no let’s traumatise the new kid on the block, like he is bound to make a mistake at some point will robby also scream at him then …
just played against a jetpack cat who killed me and the other dps at the start of our ults like naw fix that fucking character wtf
“it takes 21 days of consistency to form a habit” um WRONG i have no problems with being consistent for a month and then one day i get bored and just Never do the Thing again. i’m inconsistently consistent and proud
Is waking up feeling suicidal and then getting random bursts of feeling super awesome and determined a symptom of anything?? Or is it just because I’m wearing one of my favorite hoodies today?
