I had a dream of Curtis a few days ago, my first boyfriend in 2012. We barely lasted a year dating but I was really really hung up on him for years. It’s been like what, several years since I had a dream about him? I haven’t thought about him in awhile so it was so weird to see him again in my dreams. We were dating in my dream like old times. So freaken weird.
Anyways, weird coincidence but I’ve been selling things off from my place and will be dropping off my dresser to a seller this Thursday. To remind myself, I wrote on my Apple calendar that this Thursday to “drop off dresser” and guess what I saw? I have written something similar on my calendar and it showed up the date when I reminded myself to “Drop-off Valentine’s gift to Curtis” February 12th, 2012. That was the last time Curtis and I would be together and he was on vacation and things went south with us shortly after.
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I sometimes wonder that if I didn’t stupidly slept over Stephen’s house. Long story short, Stephen was a parasite that used the “let’s be friends” tactic to keep me around and I stupidly stayed over his house because we were studying late not knowing how dumb that was and how much it would harm my relationship with Curtis and that was pretty much the reason why Curtis and I broke up. That was 100% my fault and even though nothing happened with Stephen and I, it was a dumb move on my part and I hurt Curtis. I was 20 years old and very fucken stupid. I could go on about this thing but that was the fast and short summary for the new readers of mine.
Honestly, my old readers would know that I held on to Curtis for years. I think if you read back to my old tumblr entries, I was so hung up on him. It was the fact that Curtis told me when we broke up that he thought I was the girl he was going to marry and that he thought I was it. And I held on to that for years. Thinking back, Curtis and I tried to get back together several times and even tried to stay friends but it got all muddled because we kept sleeping with each other. I also wanted to try again in our relationship and he didn’t so that really messed with me. I don’t know why I’m talking about it again, it doesn’t matter anymore. It’s in the past now and I’ve moved on. I would appreciate him not entering my dreams though. It honestly opened so many old memories and some not so good ones.
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