#System

i love my friends and I understand how they try and be supportive of me constantly changing (cough cough) but they constantly fucking ask “can I still call you [deadname/old nickname]” and I’m like,,,, please don’t ? like fuck no don’t, but like pls :< or when they go “ oh can I still call you he/she” ( I know I have he in my bio, but I only go by he online/to my close friends/partners.) again, no I said I’m nonbinary </3

so please call me Jay/Dess and he/they ( if u know me irl n have my Tumblr I trust u w my soul so u can call me he :3 )

THANK YOU????? IM SCREAMING FINALLY I’M NOT ALONE THANK YOU ANON

God it’s so affirming to know that! There’s real science out there proving that there’s nuerological studied and proof that plurality is inherent to us. There’s no need to mysticize the state of being plural especially considering how it’s actually a super common thing.

but like, i guess people dont wanna hear that because they wanna exist in their little comfort bubble. I don’t know why people are weird about non Christian religions being more sacred and untouchable when all religions, including magicks, opens someone up to demonstrable harm.

After all, if you’re willing to believe in a lie, you’re more willing to be manipulated. It’s how we ended up this way.

Tw: mention of suicide and self harm

What do you mean the system has a friend who SAW IT WAS ME and proceeded to vent to me. Like I don’t fucking know you?? Also saying you are gonna commit suicide AND THEN MAKING A FUCKING TIKTOK BLAMING THE EX??

I’m on her fucking side. I don’t even know her side but I’m her side because what the fuck man. I don’t know how to help him but I am done with it. The others can deal with him, I am not. Fuck that. He always mentions cutting and shit like that too, God it’s so fucking awful. I’m glad she blocked his ass too.

Sharing some source memories as an Astro Novalite fictive

rodger is 47, almost 50. im not sure how he still has the energy to raise a 9 year old.

eggson was around 63 ? over 60, at east. him and rodger got on quite well when the easter toons would come to visit.

shrimpo is the shortest adult toon, but not by much. hes only around 2 inches shorter than dandy.

on the other hand, bobbete was the tallest toon. about a foot shorter than Sam i think. Sprout was the second tallest. Her twisted form however, was almost 7 foot i think? most toons were just under 4 foot tall.

dyle did like some “kids shows”, my little pony and fnaf and stuff. he didnt really talk about it though. more of a quiet fan.

most of the toons are older than 23, i think goob and finn were the youngest, other than toodels, who is a child.

existing as an alter, whose whole role is to tire the body out (physically or emotionally) , but now i cant do anything relay because the body is too tired.

this caffeine isn’t doing anything.

The term endogenic is inherently attached to the CDD community

It was created as a direct parallel to “traumagenic CDD”

If your argument about endos being valid is “they don’t claim to be a system” I’m going to assume you’re illiterate

hello anyone else age regress but not in the bluey coloring way but in the “we have to hide and clean before 5pm because that’s when mommy gets home” way so she doesn’t beat the shit outta u

Ngl kinda wish I could voice my frustration with magical thinking with plurality without being jumped on but like. until society learns to separate belief from truth y'all will never be ready for that conversation.

so until then we’ll just brood in our corner and grouchily tell people to fuck off until then.

- 🦑 & 🌐

We made some good progress today on the art comm we’re in the middle of (and are suuuuper behind on, the client has been incredibly patient).

We also managed to make food.

We weren’t able to stream because we had a seizure. But considering we also had a killer migraine all day to the point we actually took OTC meds for it, I’m quite proud of us. We did good.

Like, doing we try to remind ourself that our best is enough. But it’s easier when we’re able to do anything.
It’s harder on bad days where we can only lay in bed. But at least we lived. It wasn’t pretty, but we survived.

Update: hey there guys!

This is Mélodie, the host! As you can see, I am back! The week has been really rough and hard on all of us, but we finally have answers about things we wanted to know for a while, and the situation has come back to “normal”.

Explanations of what happened under the cut!

Thanks to everyone for your support, we love yall 🫶🌸

Basically, last Saturday, our (guy) best-friend made a really inappropriate joke about our body in a sexual way. In usual times, we probably would have laughed it off, but we have been going through very unstable times, and it impacted us more than we thought it would. Brain completely freaked out and put Nate in front, probably thinking smth like “hold on, if the fronting alter is a guy, nothing can happen!”…

Anyway, Nate worked it through all week to kind of “remove” the trigger and now I’m back, even though is still spend most of my time dissociating 💀 I’ll be fine lmao

Im new, but i wanted to share something

I made this last night, it was nice to vent through art, I know its not good but thank you for taking the time to read it anyway

Yup.. It’s like talking to toddlers sometimes, worse even

we now have 5 members that have names beginning with “c”. 5/17. 29%.

USE ANY OTHER LETTER THERE ARE 26!!!

Tw nsfw and just general tw

I’m so tired of people acting like DID is fun and cute and just friends in your heads.

One of our littles tried to seduce our spouse yesterday. That isnt fun. Thats terrifying. Because why did she do that? What happened to her?

I’m so greatful our spouse is an amazing person and told her that that wasnt okay and people who care about her wont ask her to do that. But its just…heartbreaking

I’m scared

Асковая пижамная туса💅

Ask question : «Draw your character in duck pajamas and bunny slippers🐰»

«Pajamas WITH DUCKS, not duck-pajamas!»

«Better?»

I dont know what endos are and at this point im too scared to ask

thanks! its really nice being back in the city again since we were living in the countryside for a long long time

I kinda wanna Douglas MacArthur post. But I don’t wanna at the same time.

Anyways

Stickman silhouette of him

Amid the deaths of Simply Plural and Octocon, I’m seeing a lot of people making their own platforms! That’s awesome!

However, I am rather concerned about the amount of *single* or small-group developers coming forward about this. I fear that this might just be the exact issue both previous apps had that may have contributed to their downfall. You can work alone all you’d like, that’s not my issue, but… it may be far easier to get a group of people you can trust to collaborate on such projects in the long term. You can all contribute to potential costs, you have a backup plan and people to lend the app towards should anything go wrong that hinders development. I understand there’s a lot of costs that may go into collecting a full team, even if they’re considered volunteers. I understand they’d have to be trusted with potentially sensitive information of many, many users should things become successful. But please, if you can avoid it, if you can gather up multiple people you genuinely trust with the future of your upcoming platforms… it may help you with the risk of burnout. A lot of these new developers are going into things with their own mental health and life-related issues, I don’t want to run the risk of jumping ship off of SP or Octo onto a platform that could die out just as fast if not faster. We need stable options if we’re going to get through this.

I’ve watched SP develop since September 2021. I’ve alpha tested for them through their official APKs, I’d say I’m a relatively seasoned bug-catcher for the app. I wasn’t as close with Octocon, I probably won’t be as close with another place in the future. I don’t want the same disasters to strike anybody else.

Thanks for reading my real two cents on this topic. I’m still completely new to Tumblr.

our system as lps!! id love to see other ppl do this as well… please tag me if you do ^_^

Max (Great Dane #817) | Saturn (Bat #1680) | Moxie (Shark #3560) | Axis (Caterpiller #1581) | Mary (Lamb #549) | Eirwen (Rabbit #737) | Poppy (German Shepherd G7 #432) | Joey (Skunk #961)

overexplained reasons under the cut for funsies

Max (Great Dane #817): it was difficult to choose between this pet and seal #2284!! we associate max with both seals and dogs very much. the great dane has actually been our lps mascot for a while now and we werent sure if it represented us collectively or just max as the host. for now, well say that the great dane works best because of the mix of brown with the blue eyes and the star shine!

Saturn (Bat #1680): we associate saturn with bats and crows, flying creatures associated with the night. the moons and stars on the wings is what really makes connects it to this design here! we are collectively an astronomy nerd, and saturn is our headmate that relentlessly seeks knowledge

Moxie (Shark #3560): moxie is an introject of vox from hazbin hotel, so we associate him w sharks. it also fits his personality, trying to be the biggest and strongest in the system… this pet fit the most because of the colors but also the visible gills

Axis (Caterpiller #1581): was heavily debating between this one and fox g7 #293, which is a beautiful design with some small spiral patterns. we associate axis w both foxes and centipedes, but mostly centipedes for their many legs and unnerving nature. axis is an introject of michael from the magnus archives and has associates with infinity, and the caterpiller pets are the closest we can get to centipedes/millipedes… also the colors are AMAZING, the shade of pink is perfect but all of the spots and patterns reflect it so well

Mary (Lamb #549): mary is our core, so we were debating choosing a pet that was a childhood favorite, but we went with a lamb because we really associate them with sheep the most and this one was the best. the purple is very fitting

Eirwen (Rabbit #737): eirwen is an introject of ethan winters from resident evil, who is undead. we associate eirwen with rabbits and deer, which are typical roadkill, but also prey animals that we personally associate with resiliance and survival instincts. we liked the soft, natural colors of this rabbit and the flower patterns as a nod to plants.. which in eirwens case is mold but we dont have to talk about that

Poppy (German Shepherd #7-432): poppy identifies as a werewolf and we felt that the pet had to be some sort of dog. this one ended up being perfect due to the natural colors and heart shine, a nod to her affection for lovecore

Joey (Skunk #961): joey is an introject of joker / john doe from batman telltale! something about skunks and badgers are kind of punk to us so we associate joey with them. we like the eyeshadow on this pet, not necessarily clown makeup but still cool :) the purple w green colors is nice