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7 de Paus. Art by Rafael Trabasso, from Tarô de Yala: The Latin American Tarot Deck.
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12 March 2026 || Kiaree Turns Seven
Our sweet big baby is seven today, that means we are parents for seven years too. God has been so good! ♥️ we love you sooo much, our Kiaree Gabrielle!
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Today i was thinking “maybe heeseung will comeback in like 3 months” but then i realized i wouldn’t be able to handle that so he basically needs to comeback in like 2 weeks max or else idk what the hell i’ll do the word “OT6” triggers tf outta me i cant get used to the stage looking empty and i can’t witness more songs getting re-recorded for their tour.I don’t even think of the possibility of him not returning like hell no wdym.
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this is just my personal rant/coping mechanism about how enhypen has helped me. there’s no compulsion on reading this as this does not contain any news. just saw another writer do this and thought it would help me overcome the grief too. triggers such as mentions of illnesses, death and anxiety.
[[MORE]]i’m writing this in my journal on the 10th of march 10:15p.m. according to my timezone.
“i did expect my first journal entry to be dedicated to enhypen but i never expected it to be like this— after hearing about heeseung’s uncanny departure. i’m not here to talk about that. this entry is just for writing down on paper how the boys have impacted my life. this is my journey with enhypen.
i wasn’t there during iland, but i was there for the debut. i was returning from a trip when the notification of their debut stage popped up on my screen and i watched for fun, not knowing how much they’d mean to me in the future. i did not pay attention after that till 2 months later when i came across their ‘flicker’ stage of iland. i was immediately hooked. i noticed much later that those were the same boys i saw debuting live.
at that time, i was an army and soon became an engene. those boys helped me through a lot in my life. i left the army fandom (i started becoming a toxic fan) and became a full-time enha lover. they were a breath of fresh air for me. in 2021, my family went through a lot. starting with my whole family getting the covid and having to be in quarantine. it was my birthday week and the first birthday i spent with my family on videochat. then a few months later, my father was diagnosed with an illness (i’m not going to elaborate on that), but he was admitted to the hospital for operation and my mother had me stay at my grandparents’ house (and by that i was there for eight months).
during that time, i could barely go out (due to the covid), was alone most of the time. i was 12, mind you, and only had my friends to talk to but just about the usual school stuff. my mother was busy with my father’s recovery and even though i was close to my grandfather (was because he passed away the next year, i’ll come to that) and not too much with my grandmother, i never could talk to them about this stuff. they’d not understand. i got severely anxious, felt like i could not even talk to my friends openly about how i felt. i was never diagnosed (never told my parents till date) but i did understand what i was feeling.
during that covid period when i felt my anxiety at its peak, enhypen pulled me out of that grief (if i can call it that). their songs and en-o'clock episodes made me smile after a long time. later that year, i was affected with a deadly disease and soon after i recovered, my mother had an operation. overall, 2021 was the worst year of my life and enha gave me hope to live and not give up on my life (does this sound dramatic for a 12-year-old?)
as i said, my grandfather died the next year. it was sudden and it shocked us to the core. one moment he was at our house with prasad from puri and the next moment we get the call of his passing. you will probably wonder how enha helped me during that time. i’ll just say they released shout out a few days later. i think it’s enough explanation.
enhypen has always given me the courage to believe in myself and work hard for what i want. they are my comfort place, their voices make me calm down, their cries make me teary and their laughs make me thank god for keeping me alive. they are the little joys i have in my life and i’ll always be thankful to heeseung, jay, jake, sunghoon, sunoo, jungwon and ni-ki for being a part of my life.
i’ve met amazing people through them. i’ve learned a lot about music from them. i’ve grown a lot from the 12-year-old kid with anxiety and i’m grateful to them.
well, i’ll end my rant here for now. i know the boys cannot hear me, but i’ll always love them and support them, never giving up on the people who made me love myself.”
p.s. i couldn’t write more because i started crying again. i’m proudly a crybaby and cry at every small thing so this was too much. i want to thank my seven again for everything they’ve meant to me. they were there when i was 12 and was going through a tough time. they were there when i was 13, 14, 15, 16 when highschool gave me a headache. enha made me find my twin (metaphorical) who understands me so well and consoled me the most these days. and enha is here now when i just turned 17 and soon will be going to college. enhypen will always be a part of me. i’ll never stop supporting them and doing my best in bringing hee back. that’s all i have to say now.
if anybody did read till all the way thank you. i really didn’t write this for anyone to read, just have some place to vent out outside my journal. take care of yourselves. drink water, eat well, get enough sleep. enhypen needs our support and for that we need to be healthy first. i hope we get the result we want. thank you.
— ela
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Belift should lift their ass and leave if they wanna corner ACE LEE HEESEUNG to choose between group activities and solo career pursuit and pressurise to leave.
