#GrowingUp

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augustfairie
augustfairie

I tried to bed rot today due to a back injury and the fact that it’s 75 degrees and my room is cool.

I did feed myself and the dishes and laundry are done, but now I’m having a low grade sense of doom that I’ve made more work for myself tomorrow and am seriously considering taking a running leap into the heated rivalry fandom even though I have some very wary feelings about it

I’m need to hold onto this feeling the next time I decide to to try this because it’s almost seven at night, I’m uncomfortably wired and debating about speed running through three baskets worth of laundry and unloading a dishwasher to quell the adrenaline inside of me

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vwysteria
vwysteria

Dear Little Isay, I miss you

a reflective narrative essay


I can’t grasp how I used to hate seeing and showing pictures of my childhood, my whole life I’ve been told I looked like a baby dolphin from my big forehead and round face.


The guy I used to like once showed me pictures of when he was young, I’ve scrolled through his mom’s feed and saw them already but acted surprised, as if it were something new to my eyes.


I could still see the resemblance—his eyes, still as small, softly slanted and puffy. The same quiet, gentle stare he has now was already there.


In every good thing you might see in someone’s baby picture, I could see it in him. And somehow my mind goes complete tenderly maternal when I look at them. Even though people can grow cruel or go through difficult things, they were once someone’s baby—once held, once cared for.


These thoughts struck me as soon as I scrolled through his mom’s feed. I couldn’t believe that kid would grow into someone like him.


Although, thanks to him, I see my baby pictures differently now. Instead of the dolphin joke I never found funny but eventually chose to embrace, I see something else. She was just a kid—not a single proper thought in that big forehead. Just full of innocence, with no clue what life would bring her.


The curly, thin hair I once had is something I now long for, along with the innocence of those days—when I didn’t have to face anything. Just snacks, snuggles, milk, and the little “hagikgik” giggles I used to have.


Sometimes, I wish that I could freeze the picture and save it from the funny tricks of time.
-ABBA, Slipping through my fingers

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psyhorizonx
psyhorizonx

You spend the whole day chasing things that feel urgent.

Deadlines. Messages. Notifications.
The kind of busy that makes time disappear.

Then your phone lights up.

“Your family wants you home for dinner.”

It’s such a simple sentence.

But suddenly you remember things you forgot you missed.

The sound of plates being set in the kitchen.
Someone asking how your day went before you even sit down.
The familiar argument about who takes the last piece of bread.

Nothing extraordinary.

Just the quiet kind of love that waits for you without asking for proof of success.

The world outside is loud.
It wants you to prove yourself every single day.

But that table at home?

It doesn’t care how productive you were.
It doesn’t care if you’re still figuring things out.

It only cares that you showed up.

And sometimes, that’s enough.

You’re busy building a life, chasing dreams, and trying to prove something to the world. But then a simple message arrives: “Your family wants you home for dinner.”

Suddenly the noise slows down.

This short story explores the quiet comfort of family dinners, the nostalgia of home, and the reminder that no matter how far you go, there’s always a place where someone saved you a seat at the table.

If this made you pause for a second, reblog or share it with someone who should come home more often.

Because sometimes the most important invitation isn’t a big opportunity.
It’s just dinner.

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solelliecoffee
solelliecoffee

‘The Lights Along The Way’ — based on the song of IV of Spades ‘Ilaw sa Daan’ | Written By Solellie. ✍🏻💡

Do you ever wonder how you were made? Not scientifically, but in the human sense—in the context of life.

We are always told how children are made, how they are raised, and how they are brought into this world. But rarely do we ask how children learn to carve their own space within it.

We are always told how children are made, how they are raised, and how they are brought into this world. But rarely do we ask how children learn to carve their own space within it.

And sometimes, I wonder about something more specific.

How was the eldest daughter made?

I believe every child in a family holds a position—an experience; an identity shaped quietly over the years. But the eldest daughter often grows into something more than just a child.

She becomes the one who learns responsibility early.

The one who observes before she speaks.

The one who carries things that were never meant for a child to carry.

And as the eldest daughter, I often ask myself:

How was I created?

How Was I formed?

How did I become truly myself, beyond just how they raised me?

If I were to answer that question, I see myself as a light.

A light bulb.

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Always there yet rarely noticed.

Always present yet quietly expected to keep shining.

I was there—giving light to a tiring life, illuminating spaces where darkness tried to settle. Sometimes the light was appreciated. Sometimes it was simply expected.

But at the end of the day, when the room grew quiet and everyone had gone to rest, I was still the one left shining through the night.

Just like a light bulb on the ceiling of a silent room.

The strange thing about being the one who gives light is that people rarely ask if the light itself is tired. They simply expect it to keep shining.

And sometimes, it does.

But sometimes the light grows lonely.

There were nights when my only companions were the empty room, the moon, and the stars—sharing the same quiet darkness with me.

Still, I remained.

Because just like a light bulb needs wires to work, I too needed something that kept me going. A heart connected by veins that carried love and care to the people around me.

So I gave what I could.

Hope.

Warmth.

Light.

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The kind of light that keeps people awake.

The kind that keeps things alive.

But I was rarely the one being lit.

I was the companion to everyone else’s darkness. Yet when it came to me, I was only the light bulb in the ceiling of an empty room.

So slowly, I learned something.

I learned how to raise myself.

How to bring my own light.

How to turn on when darkness appears.

Not because someone taught mebut because the night demanded it.

And there I remainedfixed in the ceiling of an empty room.

Still shining.

Still waiting.

Waiting for someone to offer me the same light I have spent my life giving to the world.

Or perhaps, one day, realizing that the light I have been searching for has always lived within me.

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christianornot
christianornot

“The One Thing That Hasn’t Changed Since the 1980s”

One thing in life has remained absolutely unchanged from the 1980s to today.
Not finding anything to watch on television. 📺
When I was growing up, our viewing choices were… limited. And by limited, I mean really limited.
In our house the lineup looked something like this:

Channel 3 – WAVE TV (NBC)
Channel 32 – WLKY (ABC)
Channel 11 – WHAS (CBS)

Somewhere along the way Channel 11 and Channel 32…

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augustfairie
augustfairie

Things I said out loud while cleaning the kitchen tonight, while healing from a pulled back muscle

  • Why is this sticky?
  • Why is this wet?
  • Why did you need to use every fucking measuring cup we own?
  • Two servings of pasta and you used the dam stock pot?!
  • I’m not putting that up there I’ll tear something
  • Is it physically impossible for you to drink all your coffee?
  • Will the oceans dry up if you empty your coffee mug and rinse it out?
  • Should I just Thumbtack someone to install the new garbage disposal?…Sure I’ll be out of money but I’ll stop physically crying out of frustration….
  • ….sigh… they’re going to eat tomorrow and I’m going to have to do this all over again aren’t I?

Aka— Weaponized Incompetence— Parental Editon

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augustfairie
augustfairie

Realizing you have to feed yourself everyday at least twice a day is like that split second before Doofenshmirtz realizes that the out of context platypus in his lair is actually Agent P

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wearingtwogownsblog
wearingtwogownsblog

Glowing Up

It is WHO you know, more than WHAT you know

Psalm 118:5-6 (English Standard Version)

Out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free. The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?

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dualisticunity
dualisticunity

If You’re Starting to Feel Less Certain About Who You Are, Read This - Dualistic Unity

If you’re starting to feel less certain about who you are—and more aware of the voice in your head—you’re not broken. You may be noticing something most people rush past.

https://dualisticunity.com/if-youre-starting-to-feel-less-certain-about-who-you-are-read-this/

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dualisticunity
dualisticunity

If You’re Starting to Feel Less Certain About Who You Are, Read This - Dualistic Unity

If you’re starting to feel less certain about who you are—and more aware of the voice in your head—you’re not broken. You may be noticing something most people rush past.

https://dualisticunity.com/if-youre-starting-to-feel-less-certain-about-who-you-are-read-this/

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dualisticunity
dualisticunity

If You’re Starting to Feel Less Certain About Who You Are, Read This - Dualistic Unity

If you’re starting to feel less certain about who you are—and more aware of the voice in your head—you’re not broken. You may be noticing something most people rush past.
https://dualisticunity.com/if-youre-starting-to-feel-less-certain-about-who-you-are-read-this/

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lynette84
lynette84

Coming back <3

I just regained access to this account and my goodness it’s been over 10 years. I can’t wait to start sharing my writing :)

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etherealsunshinee
etherealsunshinee

growing up is so funny. u feel young yet so old. all of ur childhood friends have changed yet they’re still same. u feel mature yet still so childish. its such a strange & unexplainable feeling. u feel like u know ur old friends who uve lost touch with, but, when u suddenly bump into them u then realise how much uve all grown into ur own individual people with responsibilities.

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some-worries
some-worries

Was This The Love?

When I was 19, I had a conversation with my best friend about what we wanted in our future.

“I just want to find love. Love is the most important thing to me.” I said, assuming it was the obvious and the only choice.

“Yeah, but there are other things. Don’t you want other things too?” she said to me. She looked concerned.

“Sure, but I want love the most. Nothing else is going to matter without it.”

I felt kind of dumb after I said this. For years I would remember this exchange and think I had sold myself short in some way. I worried that I was silly or that the answer made me simpleminded. It didn’t really matter because the answer was true. 

I had never been in love, and it was all I wanted. FFS I had barely even dated. At this point I wasn’t even sure I was supposed to like the person that was interested in me. I considered that maybe my fate was to be worn down by the persistent suitor that annoyed the crap out of me because that had been the direction I was headed in.

Then I met the person who changed everything. Like a light switch I was flipped on. I felt EVERYTHING. It was overwhelming. And now my eye rolls were replaced with PDA and taking food to him on his lunch break at work. My best friend laughed “Oh my god, what happened to you?”

I was finally in love. And I said those words too soon. They hung over us for a year. How could I hand all this love over to someone and just accept there was no guarantee of anything, not even love returned? This was much harder than I thought it would be. And even though I came in an adorable package, laughed at his jokes, and adored him, it wasn’t enough. He told me he wasn’t in love with me and didn’t think he would ever be.

“If you ever change your mind, no matter what my life looks like, please come back and tell me. I don’t care if I am with someone else. Promise?” I said. Then I twisted my ankle in my tall platform shoes and fell to the ground on the sidewalk outside of the iHop further humiliating myself.

I did love again, and when I did, it was bigger. I knew it in my gut right away but doubted myself over and over. I missed all my chances to say it, and the timing was always off. He told me I had shown him what it meant to be vulnerable with people. How special it made those connections. And just when I was finally experiencing a reciprocal love, it was ripped from me.

“Why don’t you believe me? He was the love of my life! I will never love anyone like that again. We were really in love.” I sobbed to my mom as I lay in my childhood bedroom as a 31-year-old woman.

“I do believe you. And I feel terrible for you.” she said gently while stroking my hair, “I know this is hard, but he chose to stay with his family, and if you really love him, you need to let him go to do that.” When I looked into her eyes I knew I wasn’t being dismissed. I was understood. I exhaled with relief and then inhaled a deep dark truth. No matter how real our love was, it was over. The grief washed over me again and I sob-rocked myself to sleep.

Was this the love I had wanted for so long? It fucking sucked.

“This keeps coming up. I worry I can never give you what you need. I’m never going to be able to do those romantic things.”, he said in visible pain, “Sometimes I wish he would come back. I know he could give you those things you need. I just want you to be happy. I never want to see you hurt.” He started to cry and look off in the distance.

I took in everything he said. This man I loved deeply wanted me to be happy, even if it meant he would lose me. What was more romantic than that?

I’ve always wanted love. The kind that is loud, that wants to tell the world I am theirs, that jumps on a couch on TV telling the world about me, that runs through the airport to stop me from getting on that plane, the kind that can’t live without me.

This love was different than what I dreamt of. It was home-cooked meals, it was 3 hour long deep conversations, it was undivided attention when I needed support, it was willing to let me go if I would be happier with someone else.

But no, because this is my love. And if it was over tomorrow, the love would remain.

It doesn’t feel like I thought it would. It’s much deeper. It’s wrapped in more sorrow than I ever imagined. But just like I imagined, it’s worth everything.

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augustfairie
augustfairie

It’s been twenty minutes since my mother has told me that her cancer is back: how it’s a different type-how it’s spread-how chemo is starting tomorrow- throwing around words like stage four, biopsy, and aggressive

Internet tell me— is is possible to dissociate and feel all the stages of grief at the same time, the same breath, the fiber of your being?

Because right now I’m mechanically getting ready to eat lunch, maybe do some laundry and am on the verge—-tears, screaming at the void, a mixture of both?

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presencenews
presencenews

Before Bayside: Revisiting the Heart of “Good Morning, Miss Bliss”

Growing Up with “Saved by the Bell”

“Saved by the Bell” was a huge part of my childhood and adolescence. When I was in the sixth grade, I couldn’t wait to get home after school to watch reruns of a show that was about “school.”

However, there was another show I liked just as much — the actual precursor to “Saved by the Bell.” Before the viewing public witnessed Zack Morris’ shenanigans at…


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augustfairie
augustfairie

Do you ever just need a full legal day to come to terms with how much you spent on groceries for the month?

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augustfairie
augustfairie

Outloud in my empty house—which one of you chaotic bitches let the kitchen get like this after three days?!

The group representative in my head—Babe this could have been an email…

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h20-erti
h20-erti
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thebaileysepicadventure
thebaileysepicadventure

4 years and a million memories ❤️