Oil, Chemical & Atomic with old French Franc - cg photography
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IL Y A 665 ANS | Création du « franc à cheval » ou « franc d’or » ➽ http://bit.ly/Creation-Franc
Le 5 décembre 1360, le premier franc de l’histoire monétaire française voit le jour. Cette pièce d’or valant une livre tournois est frappée pendant la guerre de Cent Ans, au moment de la libération du roi Jean le Bon, qui avait été capturé par les Anglais en 1356 à la bataille de Poitiers
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Meet Franc
Perpetually distracted, and only has two states: Moving and Not. If they’re moving, they’re looking for things, exploring, tapping their foot, pacing, thinking aloud. If Not, they’re usually asleep or least dozing. Very easy to go from one state to the other, but impossible to find a middle ground.
Lots of their personality and actions is dictated by the fact that they just don’t like to use their eyes all that much. Not because they need glasses, but because too much light is annoying or even painful, and is also usually accompanied by Heat, which is also annoying and painful. They tend to overlook things, misread things and have to go over it again, or are just blind to actual physical objects in their location. Quantum rocks had to be pointed out to them, or else they never would have noticed that they were moving around.
Instead, they tend to prefer to explore their world through a combination of hearing and touch, along with whatever happens to be going on inside their head at any given time.
They’re not actually much of a musician themselves, but always listening to something or other, usually directly from the other Travelers. Their suit has even been altered in order to add nice headphones to the helmet. If they’re not listening to music, they’re thinking about it, constantly putting everything they’re doing to a mental soundtrack. The music in the game is diegetic to them, especially the End Times, (though it only started showing up after a few loops when they started to pick up on subtle cues that things were about to come to an end. Interestingly, they started making that mental connection before they even realized that the thing causing the end of the loop was the sun going supernova.)
Otherwise, things don’t often feel real to them unless they’ve grabbed it in some way. Objects, rocks, people, scrolls, they like to be close and personal with whatever they’re inspecting. They discovered quantum entanglement by accident this way, turning off their lights to feel and hear the Cave Shard on Ember Twin. They also very nearly prematurely ended their adventure by pulling the Advanced Warp Core out of the project in order to get a better look at it, and only their internal warning bells (‘didn’t the text back there say something about this?’ manifesting as the Final Voyage sountrack) got them to remember to put it back in time.
Best friends with Hal, Franc took on the role of explorer and Breaker Of Stuff when they started trying to translate the Nomai language. Franc has a hard time thinking and speaking at the same time, which means they are either quiet or simply talking in a nonstop train of thought. Hal thankfully takes up a lot of the burden of talking through ideas and holding that mental space between them, which is why they click together so well and managed to put together a whole translator tool.
Time Buddies with Gabbro, very much the kind of friends to sit and cuddle and say nothing together for long periods of time, though Gabbro is also very good at listening when Franc has something to say. Glad that they’re in the loop together, because they might have burned themselves out otherwise.
Not 'dating’ anyone, but they are physically intimate with both Hal and Gabbro, more often with Gabbro. As a hugger and a cuddler, they prefer to be squished in some way when going to sleep, whether that’s with another Hearthian laying half-over them or simply a large and heavy blanket.
They’re still stuck in the loop, and are currently determined to find another way out, for them and everyone they care about. Most of my headcanons and ideas about them will be set after they’ve filled out the entire ship log, but before going to look for the Eye.
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5 décembre 1360 : création du « franc à cheval » ou « franc d’or » ➽ http://bit.ly/Creation-Franc
Premier franc de l’histoire monétaire française, le « franc à cheval » est créé. Cette pièce d’or valant une livre tournois est frappée pendant la guerre de Cent Ans, au moment de la libération du roi Jean le Bon, qui avait été capturé par les Anglais en 1356 à la bataille de Poitiers
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hello everyone. life has been crazy so i have been absent on here. i have discovered a lot about myself and my past relationships since I last posted on here. I talked to my therapist about my previous relationships that I hadn’t previously spoken to her about, and she helped me to realize that I didn’t miss my ex and my dreams were not coming from a place of attraction they were coming from a place of trauma. It’s funny because this whole time I thought I was hopelessly lost without my ex. obviously, that’s a bit of an exaggeration, but you know what I mean. It turns out my body was just finally ready to process the trauma that my ex left me with years ago. my therapist was very surprised that she hadn’t heard about this ex based on the amount of suppressed emotions she saw about him. I’m saying all this to tell you if you start having dreams about somebody in your past, don’t leave it alone and let it fester. Talk to somebody because they might help you figure out what place the dreams are coming from
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French Franc currency stamps on a 2024 letter from France, used at face value as Euro stamps. Almost all French stamps issued since 1849 are still considered valid.
Top left: 1939, top right: 1965,
lower left: 1962, lower right: 1952
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i visited janet (my therapist) the other day, and i opened up a little more about my history with men. it was nice to hear her opinion especially when i haven’t been completely sure of my own opinion. you see, i have always had a baby face. even when i was 23 one of my coworkers thought i was 16. after high school i developed a preference for men that were older than me. by the time i was 18 i had decided i didn’t want to date anyone under 23. when i was younger i assumed this was why i frequently saw older men. i dated two men who were older and casually talked to more men who were older. i considered the first two mentioned to be like a boyfriend, even though we didn’t ever officially receive that title. both had moments that i now look back on and question.
miguel was a coworker of mine who was older than me. we saw each other in secret. at the time i didn’t want to tell our coworkers because i knew two of my friends found him attractive, and i was worried they’d be mad at me. i assumed he didn’t want to tell because his sisters also worked with us. in all actuality he probably had slightly more of a reason to hide me. you see, when i finally did tell my two female coworkers that i was friends with (they were older than me) they apologized to me. i was so confused. the way they looked at me with judgement and shame was very surprising for me. i thought they’d be excited and talk to me about it like girls usually do. instead they looked at me in a very different way. i thought back then that they were just jealous of me. i knew they had found miguel handsome and so i figured they were jealous that he had chosen me. i was angry. i realize now that they were not jealous. they pitied me. they knew i was being used. they knew he was taking advantage of my ignorance. i thought he had feelings for me. i didn’t understand his motivations or why he actually was interested in me. i even visited one of my friends the other day at my old job and miguel was there. i was enjoying speaking to my friend and my old coworkers. when i left my friend told me that miguel was talking to one of the newer workers there about my body. he was excitedly speaking to someone about my body and it was in a complimentary way, but still. the fact that i truly thought this man loved me at some point is delusional. someone who loves you would never be comfortable speaking sexually about your body with complete strangers.
franc was a man i met on tinder. he had already graduated from college. he was also older than me. i thought he was so handsome. my mom knew about him and i don’t think she knew what to do. she wasn’t sure about if he had trustworthy motives. she knew if she tried to keep me away from him it would only make me want him more. i would go to my job and leave my phone there while frank picked me up and took me to his house. i left my phone because my parents constantly tracked my location. when frank dropped me back off at work i would get changed into my work uniform and do some work off the clock to make my dad think i had worked the whole time when he came to pick me up. i was madly in love with franc. i truly thought he was it for me. there are a few issues with this- franc snuck me around his house where he was staying with his parents while he was trying to get a job in his career field. i assumed it was because we were casual, but as time went on it seemed a little different. he never called me his girlfriend but he knew i was exclusive to him. even though, unknowingly to me at the time, he was seeing girls on occasion. he didn’t see many girls while he was with me, but he did see a couple. while i was quickly falling for this guy he always would make me out to be so innocent. it was like a big deal to him. he loved talking about how innocent i was and how cute i was. at the time i figured it was just his way of complimenting me. looking back, i realize he was with me because i looked younger than i was and the innocence just played into his fantasies. he loved being with someone who looked underage and preferred it because at least he wasn’t breaking laws by being with me. it is like he got his cake and ate it too. the reason franc and i separated was because he got a job teaching english in a country overseas. he told me that he was in love with me and he was sorry and that he knew he never called me his girlfriend, but he needed me to know he looked at me as his. when he first arrived overseas he would get wasted and call me and tell me he wanted me to come live with him. the crazy thing is i truly would have. he told me he wished i would’ve gotten pregnant before he left so i would have to travel with him. i though that was so romantic at the time. entrapment, anyone? the flags are always so clear in hindsight. he constantly would ask me if he was as bad as my exes. and it was very important to him that he was a better person than them. guilty conscience, anyone? after being over there for a while he began to act weird. one day he admitted to me that he was dating one of his students. that was already questionable since he was an authority figure to her. to make matters worse, she was sixteen. she was more than ten years his junior. i told him this was wrong. i told him he was messed up. he told me the age of consent over there was sixteen. i told him just because something is legal doesn’t make it morally okay. we still talked on and off, but it never recovered after that. i don’t know what ever happened to the girl. i hope she is ok.
the reason i bring all of this up is because recently i began having very upsetting dreams about franc. i tried reaching out to him but he didn’t have the same number. the guy is like a ghost. ever since before i met him he would constantly delete his socials and change his number. he told me this was all to avoid some crazy girl who helped him in college. he was worried he would lose his degree so he always tried to lose her. looking back, i wonder if that’s truly what happened to her. i wonder if there wasn’t a different reason. maybe she was a victim. after not being able to contact frank i contacted janet, my therapist. she saw me in office and i cried my eyes out. at first she thought i was just still in love with him, but as i told my story she saw something i hadn’t seen. i had been groomed. i never considered it grooming. i was completely unaware that you could be groomed as an adult. being 18/19 i was legally an adult so i figured everything was inherently okay. i didn’t realize he liked me because i looked sixteen. i didn’t put the pieces together to see that him calling me innocent was a flag. when i told janet about the sixteen year old student she asked if franc was a pedophile. she didn’t ask this as a joke. she was completely serious. i was in shock. that word. i had never associated him with that word. that was what made her realize he was using and grooming me. i was so lost. i was speechless. it was so difficult to resolve the person i thought i loved with the person he was truly.
now that i am almost the same age as these men i look back and see what happened clearly. i was naive. i was lost. i thought i was the one in control. i couldn’t have been more wrong. i am grateful i am aware now. it hurts my soul to have to understand that the love i was feeling for these men was never the same as the lust they had for me, but i am glad that i have ms. janet to help me see how things were in reality. i am happy to no longer be fooled by my delusions