Quarrel
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I wrote this fic because I wanted to join in the trend/enrichment activity of shooting Warriors with arrows. XD
I believe the originator of this was @mirensiart ’s post here! I debated briefly between drawing something or writing something for this little game, but once I started writing it took me only three days to draft and edit the whole fic.
I’m also very, very pleased with the title. I got lucky with the English language, there.
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Prompt (Febuwhump 12): Used As Practice
A non-canonical part of the War Games AU.
Tags: War Games AU, Graphic Violence, Blood and Injury, War, Hurt No Comfort
War Games is a collaborative AU created by Team Tactics, based on the premise “What if Spirit was in the War of Ages… and what if that wasn’t a good thing?” It is a branching-timeline story that is currently being written into a longfic and multiple side stories. The main themes are the meaning of the “greater good,” the worth of pyrrhic victories, love as both a destructive and regenerative force, grief and recovery, and the ways people react to pressure. Remember: war does not forge good people.
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quarrel (n):
1. a square-headed bolt or arrow
2. a usually verbal conflict between antagonists; altercation
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Spirit stared down at the battlefield from the keep’s walls. The breeze up here was heady, scented as it was with bomb-fire and dirt, and it made him feel weirdly floaty as it ruffled his hair and tugged at his cap.
Below him, the Hyrulean troops boiled across the terrain like blue marbles scattered from a jar. His eyes tracked back and forth across the field, trying with all their might to keep everything in his awareness at the same time. Every few seconds, his gaze flicked up to the relay tower, watched its flashing lights for a moment, then returned to the field.
Anxiety clawed at the pit of his stomach, but he held his post, even when monster roars and bomb-flower fireworks climbed through the air directly below him.
Mabine, his aide, nudged him with her elbow, and he quickly looked where she pointed.
The relay flashed again, red this time. The operator had changed the light lens to the emergency color. Spirit’s scattered attention snapped to it, and he watched the message come in seemingly at a crawl—far, far too slowly for his pounding heart.
Before the message was half-sent, he felt a chill wash over him. Bombchu. A mobile, mouse-shaped explosive machine with enough power to knock down fortress walls. Aimed of course at their operational base here, in the south corner of the field, and they were barely holding this area in the first place—
His eyes wandered back over the field, wondering Quick, quick, how should I deal with this? How can I keep this location from falling completely?
How do I prevent disaster?
Beside him, Mabine held up her signal lantern, ready to send. “Orders, sir?” she said nervously.
Don’t call me ‘sir,’ he wanted to remind her, but right now he didn’t have time. He looked at the pieces he had on the board, and made his decision.
“Send Captain Link,” he said firmly. “Tell him: Bombchu, East Field Keep, destroy it immediately.”
“Which route, sir?” Mabine asked, starting to flash her lantern. “There’s two.”
“The east bridge.”
The aide hesitated, halfway through her missive. “That’s right into the sight of the enemy keep. Their archers will turn him into a porcupine.”
“I have faith in the Hero,” Spirit said past the dryness in his mouth. “Don’t you?”
Her face twisted, nose wrinkling. “Support?”
“He doesn’t need it.”
“Are you sure—”
“Stop wasting time and relay the order!”
She sent the signals. Spirit’s fingers gripped the stone battlements so tightly his hands cramped. The pain was welcome.
“Done,” Mabine said finally.
With an effort, Spirit straightened. “Okay, next…”
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In the midst of carnage, Captain Link’s battle focus was suddenly interrupted by Proxi’s bell-like chimes.
“New orders, Link!” she alerted him. “Top priority!”
Link destroyed another aeralfos while Proxi parsed the lantern message for him. “There’s a bombchu at the East Field Keep,” she said hurriedly while he caught his breath. “Let’s go deal with it!”
“On it,” Link promised. He flicked his scarf back over his shoulder, since it had been coming loose. Then he lit off across the battlefield, Proxi zipping along near his shoulder.
Link charged forward without pausing, knowing that bombchus had short fuses. Knowing that they had thick armor. Knowing that a single one could take down a keep’s walls and leave the floodgates open for monsters. They had to be taken down swiftly, and preferably—due to their explosive tendencies—far away from one’s own troops.
The grass under his feet was already trampled into mud. The low walls of the destroyed village served, now, only as cover for Hyrulean troops. The air was thick with the iron tang of blood and the sharp scent of lightning magic.
It seemed strange to think of something like a building as sneaking up on him, but the rounded stone walls of the East Field Keep sprang out of the chaos suddenly and unexpectedly, appearing over the heads of bulblins and darknuts like a thundercloud forming on the horizon. The short bridge that led to the gates rolled out before Link like a royal carpet, and he turned his steps to it.
Proxi’s warning chime made Link skid to a halt, and it was only through that grace that he dodged the arrows that thunked into the ground in front of him.
“What the hell?” Link said, staring up at the walls lined with archers. “Did command really send me into this mess?”
Proxi zipped back and forth uncertainly, peering ahead at the open keep gates. “There’s definitely a bombchu in there,” she said unhappily. “Oh! Oh no, it’s starting to move!”
Link adjusted his shield on his arm and backed up, hoping he was out of immediate range. “Can I wait for it to come to me? Will I have enough time to destroy it?”
Proxi hesitated, and that was all the answer Link needed. He had to move forward. I have to trust that Spirit has a plan.
He dove forward, shield raised to protect his head and shoulders. Arrows smacked against the wood, feeling like pellets from a child’s slingshot as they tapped out a rhythm that would be deadly if Link wasn’t completely focused on defense. Every few strikes a bolt would lodge in the wood, forcing him to adjust his grip or angle to account for the change in weight.
Link growled in frustration. “I’m being used as target practice here!” he snapped. “Proxi, go ask Spirit what the hell he’s doing!”
“I can’t, Link, you need me here!” the fairy protested.
He cursed, but she was right. Without fairy magic, he doubted he would survive the next five minutes, let alone the day.
Then an arrow pierced his ankle, catching behind the greaves of his left boot. Pain bloomed in his leg, darting up to his hip quick as lightning. Blood welled immediately in his boot and dripped unpleasant warmth into his sock. In his shock and surprise, Link lowered his shield for half a second—
Half a second was too long. Another arrow slammed into his right shoulder, below the joint, in the meaty part of his upper arm. He felt it scrape against bone on its way in.
He hissed through his teeth, and his brain stalled when the second burst of pain made his vision go red. Instinct and training took over and certainly saved his life in that moment and he lashed out blindly, executing a weak but passable spin attack. He heard monsters shriek as they disintegrated under the Master Sword’s glow.
That arrow was in his shield arm, damnit. He had to raise the arm again, despite the way the arrow scratched inside him, the way the muscles tore around the sharp arrowhead. He had to keep moving and get to the bombchu.
Proxi chimed again, bringing his attention back to the present—and oh, good, the bombchu was coming to him. It had exited the keep now, trundling along on its little wheels, squeaking and squawking as it went.
He felt both relief and dread as the armored tank made its appearance. He was glad he didn’t have to chase the thing down. On the other hand, his time to destroy the machine before it caused irrevocable harm was dwindling. It was surrounded by an entourage of monsters who were guarding it. And it was still very much an explosive.
He took a step forward on his wounded ankle, but the arrows were still coming down. He lifted his shield to block more and they hammered him, they shattered and clipped against his shield. His shield became heavier and heavier as arrows stuck in its surface. His arm burned and screamed trying to hold it up.
Until—CRACK—a lucky shot, or simply one too many, and his shield broke in twain.
“Link!” shrieked Proxi, but there was nothing either of them could do. The little blue fairy darted over to huddle in his scarf, suddenly much more exposed than she had been a second ago.
Link cursed under his breath. Well, nothing for it but to try to get rid of the bombchu as fast as possible. He descended on his target with as much speed as he could muster—which wasn’t a great deal, due to his ankle, but he tried.
The next arrow to find its mark landed in his thigh muscle, making him stumble. He lunged on his good leg and got himself close enough to fall against the bombchu, his hands striking its metal surface, feeling all the rivets and rough edges, and scraping his fingertips bloody on the burrs in the metal. From this close, leaning against it, he felt the subtle whirr and click of mechanisms inside, and the heat radiating from it like a camp stove—mild now, but he knew that heat could become a terrible explosion.
Another arrow thudded into his hip on the opposite side. The new burst of pain was almost muted, swallowed up as it was by the flood of other pains and the adrenaline coursing through him.
Now that he had stopped moving, he was a much better target for the archers.
He had better start stabbing.
Normally, Link would take bombchus apart by simply hammering them until their welded carapaces broke. He didn’t think he could get away with that this time. Arrows pinged against the metal hull itself, sending splinters into the air, and he ducked down to keep the bombchu between himself and the archers.
Using the bombchu as cover worked for a moment to keep the arrows off him, but he couldn’t keep his head down low enough and still attack it, and he found himself scuttling around behind the thing like a crab. He would have laughed, if his heart hadn’t been hammering in his throat.
Another arrow hit him, this time in his side, between his lower ribs. And Link knew he was out of time.
He slid down against the bombchu’s side to sit on the ground, feeling his scarf and tunic catch on the rough metal. Sweat was beading on his forehead and under his collar, he was panting, and his heart was surging in his chest. But he steeled himself, Proxi’s warm glow beside his cheek lending him strength.
He gripped the arrow in his side and ripped it out harshly, trying to suppress a scream in the face of the zinging pain of the arrowhead tearing through him. With bloody hands, he did the same to the arrow in his hip, then the one in his thigh. Darkness climbed in from the corners of his vision, nausea swelled, his head pounded, but he held his grip on awareness with grim determination. The heat of the bombchu against his back kept him oh-so-aware of what was at stake if he passed out now.
His fumbling hands blindly sought his blue potion, and he downed it, more guided by muscle memory than conscious will. The darkness and pain receded. He felt the hole in his lung heal and he knew he wouldn’t bleed out.
Link stumbled up again, circling the bombchu, looking for openings.
He found a chink in the bombchu’s armor, a tiny seam that he could wedge his sword into and start prying. Yes, this would work much better than exposing himself to more bolts.
He used the Master Sword as a common prybar, and although he was sorry to treat her that way, it had to be done.
It was the work of a minute, at most, for him to split the bombchu’s carapace, like cracking a walnut open. He peeled the sheet metal off the top of the machine and exposed its inner workings, all gears and belts and gunpowder.
As soon as the insides were exposed to the air, the device began sparking, and Link lunged away. Agony erupted in his hip and leg as he tried to escape the inevitable explosion.
He didn’t get far at all before more arrows thudded into his back.
He didn’t even know how many hit him—it felt a little like someone had thrown a thick pillow at him, and a little like getting hit with a bucket of ice water, and a little bit like his lungs stopped working. He suddenly felt heavy, the way his shield had felt heavy before, and he could tell he was falling but he couldn’t see the ground—his eyes had gone blurry like he was underwater.
Link hit the ground and what little breath was left in him escaped him in a sigh. He tried to inhale but it felt like there were iron bands around his lungs, holding him immobilized, keeping him from drawing in any air. His ribs grew tighter and tighter and his back muscles started to wail at him, agony flickering through his chest. He felt like there were embers in his lungs.
He heard Proxi’s shrieking chimes like they were echoing inside a giant bell. The warmth of her magic dusted over him in a familiar fizzing heat, and he knew that it was only a temporary measure, but at least he had a few more minutes of life in him before the enemy reached him.
Behind him, the explosion he had been waiting for went off. A warm rush of wind ruffled his hair and the fletching on the arrows embedded in him, making them shift slightly and dig in. He was peppered with ashes and dirt as the world spun and faded to black.
I did it…
Spirit had better have a plan…
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Link was not surprised when he woke, groggy and aching, in a medical tent, but he wasn’t happy about it.
In fact, before he even came fully conscious, a simmering anger made itself known, smoldering in his heart and burning away the fog of pain. He pushed his way past the haze of pain-dulling medicines and the disorientation of magical healing to take stock of his body, and from there, his surroundings.
He was lying on his belly on a metal cot, and that already was odd enough to make his breath hitch in his dry throat. His torso, back, and shoulders were wrapped in thick bandages, stiff and tight, and he could tell his back was padded with extra material.
I must have bled a lot, then.
His face was smushed into a thin pillow, and as he stirred, and the pain reared its head fully—a beast ready to bite—he thought longingly of returning to that dark abyss of unconsciousness.
But he had probably slept long enough already, and he had duties to perform. So Link prised his eyes open and let his gaze roam around the dimly-lit tent until his vision cleared.
Wind was sitting vigil by his bedside, but it was an inattentive vigil; he didn’t even notice Link stirring, lost in his own thoughts. The teen looked… haunted.
Link wished he could do something for his little brother. Wind had been saying less and watching more as the war dragged on, and Link was worried about him.
“Hey,” Link croaked in greeting. He tasted blood in his mouth. He’d have to wash that out soon.
“Oh,” Wind replied, coming back to the present, “you’re awake.” He arranged his face into a look of relief, and Link frowned.
“That sucked.”
A spark of humor ignited in Wind’s eyes—quickly doused, but Link would take it as a victory. The teen moved from his stool to sit on the edge of the folding cot, brushing his hands against the bandages on Link’s torso.
“Does it hurt?” he asked. “I can fetch Lana…”
Link sighed, his face still smushed against the pillow. “Yes, it hurts, but it’s okay. How did the battle go?”
Wind was silent for a long moment, and Link’s heart sank into his stomach. Nightmare scenarios flashed in his mind, imagination illuminating every possible horror—
“…We lost.”
Link felt like he had been plunged into Lake Hylia. “What?” he breathed.
He had been counting on his sacrifice, on the destruction of the enemy weapon, to be enough to turn the tide. He had been counting on his allies to be able to handle the rest of the battle without him. He had been counting on Spirit to have a plan.
Wind continued, oblivious to the way Link’s thoughts were spinning. “Impa and I got you out, but we had to retreat soon after. We’re about four miles south of the battlefield.”
Link tried to kick his sluggish brain into gear and process this. The pain of his wounds flared and ebbed in waves, making it difficult to think, speak, breathe—
“I need to talk to the Tactician,” he said through gritted teeth.
Wind bit his lip. “Sorry, you can’t,” he told the Captain. “Zelda said he’s not allowed in the medical tents right now.”
“Why not?”
“Um… well he did give the orders…” Wind looked like he had a great many thoughts on the subject and was locking them all behind his teeth. “She’s not happy with you being injured… or with the retreat…”
Link groaned and buried his face in his pillow. He wanted to go back to sleep. He was in pain, he could barely move, and he was going to have to go back to it all soon. And he didn’t even know why.
Did Spirit make a mistake? Or did I fail?
Finally Link gave in. “Send for Lana,” he said. I’ll pull Hero rank just this once. “I’ll ask for her healing. I need to see Spirit.”
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Spirit was holed up in the study in the village mayor’s house, which had been commandeered for the army’s use. When Link found him, he was curled up in an armchair by the window. Papers covered the coffee table in front of him, a book of diagrams lay open on his lap, but he was staring out the window instead of looking at any of it. He was chewing idly on the red handkerchief around his neck—a habit Link had noticed he engaged in when he needed comfort.
Link was still moving stiffly, so he wasn’t exactly quiet when he entered the bookshelf-lined room. And yet, Spirit didn’t seem to notice him.
Link knocked on the wood paneling to get the teen’s attention.
Spirit’s expression lifted slightly when he saw who it was. “You’re up sooner than I expected,” he said, and those words immediately put Link on edge.
Does he not realize how that sounds?
“You… expected?” Link pushed the door closed with a foot. “Just how much did you expect?”
Spirit bit his lip and looked away. He stayed silent. Link squashed the urge to go over and shake the teenager.
He walked a little closer, limping slightly on his still-healing leg. “Spirit, why did you send me in there?”
Spirit had the grace to look back, and seemed to see Link for the first time that day. His face went even paler, and he jumped out of the chair. “Sit, sit,” he urged. “You shouldn’t be standing…”
Link wanted to protest, but his injuries were aching, and the phantom pains that accompanied too-fast magical healing were sparkling along his nerves in a distracting way. So he took the offered chair, and if he let out a small, pained whine as he lowered himself down, Spirit was kind enough not to draw attention to it.
But Link wasn’t going to let the Tactician off the hook. “Surely there was another way.”
Spirit bit his lip again, and he looked so similar to Wind that Link almost barked a laugh. There would have been no humor in it, though.
“If I sent troops in,” Spirit said slowly, “they would be slaughtered, and might not even be able to take out the bombchu in time. But a Hero could make it through. A Hero could survive.”
“I almost didn’t.”
“But you did.” Spirit turned away, hiding his expression by pretending to examine the curtains. “I knew you would. But I’m sorry if you were scared.”
“I wasn’t scared,” Link replied softly. Even though I was.
Spirit didn’t seem ready to look at him. Link wished he would, if only so the anger and hurt that was building in his heart would have somewhere to go.
He needed to know if Spirit regretted it. He needed to know if Spirit was sorry.
“Why didn’t you send Wind or Mask?” he demanded instead. It came out more harshly than he intended.
“Do you wish I had?” Spirit responded immediately, as though he had expected the question. As though he had been waiting for it.
“Of course not.”
Spirit nodded, hesitated. Still hadn’t looked away from the window. “I needed them to pull you out of there.” He lowered his head, eyes far away. “Wind, Mask, Impa—they would risk everything to keep you safe. They do it every day. I couldn’t guarantee they would do the same for anyone else.”
Link tried to swallow past the sudden lump in his throat. He tried to envision the scene—the Hero, downed and dying, fallen well within an enemy-controlled area, and far from aid. Anyone who had gone on that rescue mission would have faced the same arrow storm that he had.
He made a note to give Wind a big hug when he saw him again.
When he had his voice under control again, he said, “I heard we lost.”
“Yes.”
The anger flared, finding tinder. Link grit his teeth. “Then it was all pointless. You sent me into a hail of arrows, and for what?”
Spirit finally turned halfway to face him. He looked… scared, eyes wide and face pale. “Is that what you think? Is that what they’re saying?”
Link stared back. Gears churned in his head until they clicked. “We were already losing, weren’t we?”
Spirit turned his back fully to the window and slid down until he was sitting on the floor. He put his head in his hands. At that moment, he looked very tired, very small, and very young.
“We couldn’t lose the South Field base, we needed to maintain our retreat path. I needed that bombchu gone. We would have lost so many troops if that keep had fallen early.”
It should have made Link feel better, hearing that. Knowing that he had been chosen as a sacrifice for the benefit of many. After all, he was a Hero, and that was the role of a Hero. He should be used to it. He should be proud.
But instead the hurt in his chest flowered into its true form—betrayal. He felt betrayed.
He breathed in slowly, wincing a little as his ribs twinged. Another reminder of what Spirit had put him through.
Spirit looked so pathetic right now, sitting on the floor with his fingers twisted in his shaggy hair, and for some reason that made Link even angrier.
I’m not in the right state of mind to be having this conversation right now, he decided. With an effort, he pushed himself up out of the chair and started to make his slow way towards the door.
“I should go back to camp,” he said as he weaved his way around the coffee table. “Do you want to come with me?”
Spirit hummed noncommittally. “I’m not supposed to leave this house,” he said. “Impa is… worried. A lot of people are unhappy with me right now.”
Link paused with his hand on the doorknob. “Bad enough that you’re in protective confinement?” he asked in disbelief.
“It’s just a precaution,” Spirit said. “It would probably be fine.”
The tone of his voice indicated that it would not be fine.
“Because we lost one battle?” Link pressed.
“I gave the orders that nearly killed the Hero. That was a bad mistake on my part. I nearly destroyed the hope of Hyrule.” Spirit said it like he was reciting a letter.
Link felt the hurt stirring in his chest again, and before he could stop himself, he asked the question that was burning on his tongue.
“Do you regret it? Are you sorry?”
It looked like it took a great effort for Spirit to face him. The teen stood slowly, and seemed to be gathering his words. Link waited impatiently.
“I am sorry that you got hurt,” Spirit said when he was upright. He spoke clearly and precisely, each word carefully measured. “I’m sorry that you’re in pain. But I don’t regret it. I made the right call.”
And hearing that—all Link’s hurt blazed up into flames, a pyre for his sympathy.
“You used me like a tool,” he said tightly. “And you don’t even have the courage to apologize properly. No wonder Impa wants you to stay hidden. There are people out there who have lost friends, comrades, even family… and you wouldn’t be able to look them in the eye and offer honest condolences.”
“You don’t care about our pain,” he continued, yanking the door open without looking. He needed to get out of here. “You don’t care about the hurt that we suffer from your little games. Because that’s what we are to you, aren’t we? Game pieces, pawns on your playing board. I wonder if you ever had the guts to face the reality.”
Before Spirit could respond, Link stormed out. He shut the door gently—no point in making a scene, and he knew how rumors could fly—and he leaned against it, taking a few deep breaths to calm his racing heart.
I should go back to the medical tents for more painkillers, he thought dully. Everything ached, and he knew it was affecting his temper. But he was also too tired and sad to care.
There was a shuffling sound from the room he had left behind, as though Spirit had sat down on the ground again. And then…
Crying.
Link felt the blood drain from his face. He hadn’t meant to…
But the hurt in his chest curled with the smallest amount of satisfaction. And he found he couldn’t regret what he had said.
Link was ashamed. He couldn’t face Spirit again right now. So he quietly pushed away from the door and walked away, his ankle throbbing with every limping step, and left Spirit to his guilt.
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