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birthday blues comin in like clockwork, sometimes i wonder if my brain even wants to enjoy it but i know i won’t any time soon.

i don’t think i’ve ever blown a candle

or any of the most basic things

i don’t think i’ve been given anything or done anything for me in mind

sometimes i wonder if its all in my head or i’m dismissing what people have done but if it wasn’t what i wanted am i right for feeling this way?

happy birthday to me nonetheless

a year closer to death and another year wasted

to another year of surviving

an entry from my diary. having a hard time bc today is my birthday.

As the Years Melt Away Like Honey

“if reid dies i quit” - penelope garcia

I will never not love his little ’:𝐼’

“ We’re looking for a white male, approximately mid to late 30s, between 5"6 to 6"2 ”

“ wheels up in 30 ”

“i want post-prison reid to choke me” well i want pre-prison reid to do close up magic for me while infodumping about his special interest we are not the same

You know in Criminal Minds when Garcia opens a file on an unsub and says something like “this reads like a ‘How to make an Unsub manual’”, or “aw, poor kid didn’t stand a chance”

You cannot tell me she wouldn’t say the exact same thing if she’d opened Reid’s file in that context.

Absent father, mentally ill mother, high intelligence, probably autistic, bullied at school, left unsupervised for a decent portion of his childhood, independent from a young age, consistently losing people he loves, several kidnappings, addiction issues

Literally every single part of Reid’s life seems designed to make him snap and do something drastic, he’s got the genetics, the trauma and gets a new stressor like every season

Frankly props to him for not just going rogue and killing someone, he could so get away with it too.

infodumping spencer you are. so special to me

like lemme sit that jae on my beom i would do anything for this man like literally put me in a room w him and magic will happen TRUSTTTTT need to test out some theories real bad you have no idea

goodbye sns hello man d. sabrina

BANG CHAN — EPIKASE

ugh my seat looks so fucking hot

Like you know nothing about me.

i rlly hope it gets easier soon bc i am fucking losing my mind

BANG CHAN ⋮ dominATE MEXICO CITY
— 250413 (© _howluvs_)

I tried to scroll past this. I really did

missing my siblings really badly. thinking about the sister i wish i could’ve been. i know my efforts aren’t seen but i hope everyone realizes the pain i’ve carried to burden enough. i know i’ve caused some of their pain. just a child raising children what more could i have know right? i mourn the universe where everything went right. i wish my suffering didn’t make other people suffer. i wish i was a better older sibling. i wish i was better. i wish upon a thousand stars my siblings be better, do better, are better. i wish they weren’t carrying baggage of unresolved anger and emotions they can’t seem to untangle. i wish i could untangle it with them, for them. i hate the circumstances they’re in, i hate that i’m enjoying the space without them. i’ve been apart of them for so long at this point it’s like a full college term. i’ve missed so much and protected so little. i wish i stood up for them more despite the consequences. i wish i wasn’t silenced. i wish i didn’t silence them in turn. i hope they think of me positively. i hope they know how much i do for them. how much i will continue to fight for them. it’s hard to fight in different timezones. it’s hard to fight when they don’t want to fight themselves. i wish the eldest wasn’t focusing anger on people but turning it into motivation. i wish the middle wasn’t shamed for their approach on life. i wish the youngest wasn’t anxious all the time. i wish they were born under better circumstances. i wish so much for them i pray their dreams come true more than mine. i hope they live better than i. be free my three. i love you so dearly even though i never express it. i’m sorry i’n emotionally unavailable. i’m sorry i was more focused on making a safe space than being the safe space. i wish i was more receptive to your needs. i wish i was comforting. i wish i was helpful. i wish for more. i wish.

“…and now, I give it to you.”

You’re strong 😏

Happy Virus (DK Solo) by SEVENTEEN on Apple Music

happy virus makes me want to give dk a hug and let him lay on my lap and give him a hug poor babyboy :(((

happy birthday to the goat hinata shoyo

BEYONCÉ
Cowboy Carter and the Rodeo Chitlin’ Circuit Tour, London
June 14, 2025

the big three: big brown eyes, an indescribable amount of horniness and a generalised anxiety disorder

mizuki my pookie bear

神様はじめました KAMISAMA HAJIMEMASHITA
01x13, “I’ve Started The Being a God Thing”