Finding out that I’ve got some blockages + hang ups about speaking + being heard. The only time I think I enunciate properly is when I’m shouting it feels like. Otherwise I mumble so badly. I’m trying to get myself to unlearn the quieting. To work out the strain on my throat + jaw.

Some day I’ll not feel so scared and it will not hurt so much.

They don’t teach you how to stop being meek when you’ve been emotionally beaten down to be small your entire childhood.

The safety from being unseen no longer serves me. I want to tell my past self to learn to shout more, speak up more, sing more, move more.

It’s safe now, despite what anyone else is saying around you. It’s safer to speak up to be seen. You cannot be helped or help others if you don’t exist!!!

Ariel had her voice taken in exchange for a fantasy!!! That was a message to NEVER GIVE UP YOUR VOICE FOR ANYONE. THAT IS YOUR POWER. You silly soft broken thing. Take it back!!!!

In time you will remember + feel what its like to be within yourself fully + be able to speak + be heard clearly.

Doing this to all of you

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I want to work on an art piece that involves a unicorn + silver bondage + have it be very limited color palette. I have an old set of concept sketches for a similar idea but involved a winged character.

Honestly now that I’m thinking about it, would love to do a set of prints involving mythical creatures that resonate with me, in bondage but with heavy themes of comfort through binding, pain, etc.

I can draw

I want to be a tiny pixie and be wiggling and struggling under the thumb of a giant that’s just trying to tease me… Keep my wings clipped or on a leash and just mess around with my body for your amusement 😖

STOP CENSORING YOURSELF ON THIS WEBSITE. FUCK SHIT SEX MURDER ALCOHOL DRUGS FAGGOT DYKE QUEER TRANS BITCH SLUT WHORE SEX SEX SEX SEX!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s frustrating at times trying to get people around to understand that my gender + presentation are not black + white. It is wobbly + wibbly + closer to jellyfish princess or elfquest than anything else.

not a woman + not a man + more than nothing!

I am glamour in the old fae way. I am a princeling with many eyes + soft flesh to rend apart + sharp teeth to return in kind.

I’m not masculine in the human way + I’m more animal than woman. I yearn for silence + solitude + company + devotion + so much more!

I will always shift one way or another.

To simply explain me as “a Trans man” hurts almost as much as calling me a girl.

Idk I’m hormonal + have been off T for a year + I’m sad I’m feeling stagnant + dying because the country wants people like me gone + it’s making me yearn for my next step in evolution so much more.

Affectionate headlocks make for a happy, safe, + loved little puppy creature.

I drew my sona as a pony in puppy gear. I may work on this again later.

Quién se fuma la chicha

La zorra bicha

shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this

Wait here

[grabs your shirt] listen. listen to me. the practical is holy. the everyday is sacred. the simple act of surviving is divine. do you get it? sanctity begins at home, in the hands that build and the lives we live and the deaths we die and the worms that eat our bodies. if making something by hand is not worthy of veneration then nothing is.

I’ve been advised I need to stay off hormones + just wait a bit longer to continue physically transitioning.

I’ve accepted that it’s safer this way. I’ll keep the second skin on a little longer. I’ll strain at the seams + smile as much as I feel it. I’ll be loud when I can.

My art will be my solace. My expression of identity. I will grieve how I can but hold steady with teeth bared + fists clenched at my sides. I will exist by spite.

They will take no more from me.

Vending at the Fallout Fan Celebration in Vegas this year.

My boyfriend + i joked i should cosplay vulpes inculta.

Last night while researching for the cosplay, something clicked in my brain. A few fan edits vaporized my brain + now I have a half baked AU where Vulpes is a mutated puppy boy.

Anyways, here’s the first sketches of Vulpes…with a bonus Joshua Graham.

I may be making some fallout inspired offerings soon 👀

And what if I whispered excitedly in the dark to no one but myself + the stars:

He wishes + prays to be caesars best lamb in wolfs clothing. Baring his fangs for misguided loyalty in hopes to forever have a place at his side. Abusing anyone weak enough to bend a knee as they deserve the punishment. While seeking out caesars angry lashings as a gift for reform, a chance to be better. As His chosen dog.

Anyways I’m making him a nasty armpit sniffing tboy also because what’s more gender affirming than becoming one of the guys where no women are allowed and getting out all that extra trauma fueled rage means tussling with everyone + getting sweaty.

CW: Piss mention

So now I’m sketching out a mini comic of sorts where Caesar has him chained with a dog bowl × one boot on his dog’s back, relieving himself so the damn thing can have a drink. A blessing + mark of ownership 🙌

sometimes the cool worldbuilding leads to great porn. sometimes the great porn leads to cool worldbuilding. this is known as the circle of life

Vending at the Fallout Fan Celebration in Vegas this year.

My boyfriend + i joked i should cosplay vulpes inculta.

Last night while researching for the cosplay, something clicked in my brain. A few fan edits vaporized my brain + now I have a half baked AU where Vulpes is a mutated puppy boy.

Anyways, here’s the first sketches of Vulpes…with a bonus Joshua Graham.

I may be making some fallout inspired offerings soon 👀

And what if I whispered excitedly in the dark to no one but myself + the stars:

He wishes + prays to be caesars best lamb in wolfs clothing. Baring his fangs for misguided loyalty in hopes to forever have a place at his side. Abusing anyone weak enough to bend a knee as they deserve the punishment. While seeking out caesars angry lashings as a gift for reform, a chance to be better. As His chosen dog.

Anyways I’m making him a nasty armpit sniffing tboy also because what’s more gender affirming than becoming one of the guys where no women are allowed and getting out all that extra trauma fueled rage means tussling with everyone + getting sweaty.

Vending at the Fallout Fan Celebration in Vegas this year.

My boyfriend + i joked i should cosplay vulpes inculta.

Last night while researching for the cosplay, something clicked in my brain. A few fan edits vaporized my brain + now I have a half baked AU where Vulpes is a mutated puppy boy.

Anyways, here’s the first sketches of Vulpes…with a bonus Joshua Graham.

I may be making some fallout inspired offerings soon 👀

Bringing up stuff I am uncomfortable with shouldn’t be this mentally difficult. I should be able to talk about aomething + move on. Why does my whole system need to analyze every detail to tell me why I did everything wrong. Why I shouldn’t have even opened my stupid mouth because it probably wasn’t even worth saying anything about.

Now I get to sit alone with the consequences + feel like shit because I made someone else uncomfortable and unhappy.

Like why am I the one crying even though I’ve been assured no one is mad at me. Even though I don’t think that’s true. I think I am evil. I think I am my mother. I will always be a critical evil awful person who won’t be happy with anything and am destined for sorrow of my own making.

Biting at the bars on my cage…

Something clicked in my head + I’ve started world building for a story I want played out in a game format. I’m trying so hard not to just infodump on anyone that would listen + also not online until I’ve gotten actually started.

SOOOOO funny when you’re having a strong emotion and your logical brain KNOWS you’re overreacting but you literally can’t do anything about it.

Nobody:

Jax at his evil self the second he got a chance:

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i think we should bring this back (with some amendments ofc) if we ever needed an “internet etiquette” for the younger generations, now is the moment to remind them. purity culture kills fandom

as well as the three laws of fandom:

Don’t Like, Don’t Read (DL;DR), Your Kink is not My Kink And That’s OK (YKINMKATO) and Ship and Let Ship

📣 Purity culture kills fandom! 📣

NO ONE LIVING hasn’t been squicked out by something. There’s over 7 billion of us, my delights and disgusts aren’t universal. So I move on. Don’t like the ship? Move on. Don’t like____? Move on.

I am not an exception. Neither are you. I don’t like it I move on and shut my gob about it because everyone everywhere is squicked out by something and they need to put the thing down and just…motor.

This but also:

Frames this entire post and hangs it over the fireplace.