what if i just want to hold a big butch woman in my arms, what if i want to cross stitch silly things for her and make her homemade pickles and hug her and kiss her forehead and run my fingers through her hair and watch tv and go shopping and do laundry together wait please please please just give me a butch woman i would care for her so
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formulating a levelheaded reply after having a disproportionate emotional response is something that must be done. but for the sake of whom exactly
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I don’t know what happened? Is it spring? The days are longer and so much more daylight now. It feels good. And anxiety is not that bad these days.
When I went shopping today I could be out in the world without much hassle. I almost can’t believe it. It was quite a normal day. Whatever did happen? I don’t really dare to see it and think about what it can mean for me. Maybe I can work at a regular job again? Earn my own money again like I once did. I have my small home office job but I can’t live on that.
I just want things to go back to normal. I want NORMAL for pity sake.
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the way my shame is craaaaaaazy like cant even post my thoughts on my own blog without being like god no. who could be so twisted…..
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oft i type regular style on the brink of despair. i just messaged someone LMAO 😭with like tears welling up in my eyes from despair. because i’m #nonchalant ok i just added like 18 tags for no reason idgaf it’s tumblr and no one will see
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im usually of the opinion that i dont have issues dealing with loneliness but on the other hand i just broke down crying after getting home from a concert because of the sheer whiplash of being surrounded by so many amazing people dancing at the front of the crowd to right away going back to being alone in my bedroom with no one to talk to. i wish i was better at trying to talk to people when i go out.
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very occasionally i’ll remember “oh i can wear my glasses any time i want and not just when seeing a movie or whatever so i have clear vision any time” and then i’ll put them on, get freaked that reality is a slightly different shape than what i naturally experience, and then take them off
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All it is is the most normal thing ever
It’s just that things have gotten so bad that this thing that is supposed to be just be a normal is now a miraculous and unbelievable thing
Jesus Christ guys
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Huge breakthrough! I managed to make normal maps working. You can see the light on the goblet at the side the player is standing on. Next thing is the normal map for everything!
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Distance is a little like someone ripped out a large part of your soul and put it on a high shelf you can’t reach and it’s bleeding and it’s bleeding and it hurts and it’s bleeding
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no i promise i want your cock inside me really really bad im firm and everything see its just when you do fuck me it takes everything ive got and luck on top to try to forget youre not actually in my pussy but your dick really is so handsome . ill be a good girl and i wont get sad and you can feed me beer and amyls and put it in my mouth and ill just be normal and yours and i wont get sad again tonight cross my heart