I honestly forgot that this was a Gillies episode. But when the doll started talking, I immediately thought, who else would take revenge on Murdoch in such a complicated and crazy way if not Gillies? and I was right, of course Lol

Lembro da última vez
em que te vi
com os olhos de esperança
e toda certeza que restou
foi a do futuro
que não vai acontecer.

Maxwell Santos

Troy (´｡• ‿ •｡`)

Se não existisse esperança
a ferida não iria cicatrizar
o dia seguinte não chegaria
e o coração não iria descansar.

Maxwell Santos

O fim revelou
a capacidade de entender
aquilo que os meus olhos
se negaram a aceitar
mas o recomeço me mostrou
que existe continuidade
naquilo que parecia sentença.

Maxwell Santos

went to akihabara on my first day in tokyo and this is the merch haul!! its mostly my babygirl 🤍

2 episodes later

want, will always drive you crazy. sometimes slowly at first, but always. seeking the soul outside of yourself. you can reset.

one of the many parts of my job that i find difficult to navigate is when people tell me that they want to die, or to leave them alone when they’re clearly suffering. not only because one does want to help people, but also (more so?) because i understand what they mean 100%, have felt the exact same way and probably will again. but my job is to try and help. and sometimes when my help isn’t wanted, my job is to contact the social services and see if they can help instead. even when that person wants to just live their life, or stop living it.

1938 D Buffalo Nickel MS 66 NGC Lot 2088 | eBay

Edits

I am filthy and unhappy and I really want to shower. Yes I have a shower chair, yes I have a railing, yes I have a handheld shower head, but I am weak all over. So the bar and the chair and the shower head doesn’t do anything to make me feel safer. I want something that I can hang from like a marionette. So I don’t have to rely on my body which is not reliable, or have someone fucking hold me up which sounds incredibly unpleasant in every way I can imagine.

lmao

it’s warm

I’m overheating

im gonna cry

Já tentei te ver
mas não te encontrei
no meu horizonte

e ali eu percebi
que a cura
estava acontecendo

e você desaparecendo.

Maxwell Santos

Paradoxes

Has anyone ever told you that your life with MS is filled with contradictions and paradoxes? That nothing seems to make sense, no matter how much you try to explain what’s happening and how hard you work to prevent bad events from taking over your life?

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Paradoxes

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À todo instante
eu estou me lapidando
e tentando me encontrar
às vezes eu me perco
mas não deixo de tentar.

Maxwell Santos