in august of last year, i took a nap and had a weird dream. i don’t remember much of it anymore but i do vividly remember this girl that appeared near the end. she had grey hair, golden eyes, light skin, a beautiful pale yellow dress and had the saddest most wettest expression on her face.
from what i can remember, i was at the altar from what i presume to be an arranged marriage (just the vibe) and she was standing off to the side, i think she was my maid of honour. the time came to kiss my future spouse (i dont remember gender) and instead of going for them i went for the girl. she looked so happy when i kissed her, and i felt happy too, it felt right.
i think she was my forbidden crush or lover or whatever, that’s probably why she looked so sad, sad i was marrying another, sad she couldn’t be with me. and then i kissed her. and she looked so happy, happy that i would publicly declare in front of hundreds i would choose her over my arranged spouse, that i didn’t care for any consequences that would come from this, because it didn’t matter as long as i could love her..
anyways she’s been living in my head since then along with my f/os and my ocs so i decided to give her form. meet tsubaki, my girlfriend in my dreams.
also bonus: i remember the situation making national news in the dream (somehow? maybe i was marrying a goverment official or sum idk) and checking my phone during the aftermath and everyone in my contacts was telling me i was so based for kissing her instead of my arranged spouse. which i was. i was so based for that