Sunday

Just reading through yesterday’s ramble I realised it could have been interpreted that I was intimate with my wife .

That wasn’t the case, but writing about it did make me incredibly horny so I did instigate sex with my wife last night.

Stephen has always encouraged me to show her my submissive side and also prioritise her in any sexual contact between us.

I will probably do a long post about my origin story at some point which will hopefully explain how I got here .

That’s not for now.

Last night after talking again with Stephen he was torn between allowing me to do my duties as a husband and ruining all his work into my edging this week.

I promised I would do my absolute best to stay without orgasm, this is not without president, my wife knows how much I enjoy eating her pussy and that I absolutely donot expect reciprocal intimacy.

Anyway I will spare the details of last night but I managed to satisfy my wife and stay orgasm free .

Sunday morning now, incredibly horny! I have been begging Stephen to meet me this week.

I really love the desperation that all the edging builds inside me, Stephen really loves how desperate I get, this is a huge componant of our relationship.

I edge for him, he encourages me to edge and be an online faggot to him and any and all men that get in touch so long as I never cum for them.

He expects full reports of any and all encounters, I am required to edge while telling him about my service.

This morning I spent 2 hours edging for him begging him to meet me this week.

I have got to 65 edges for the week.

He asked what I wanted more

To suck his cock and swallow his cum

For him to fuck and cum in my pussy

My own orgasm. (I obviously selfishly want my own orgasm more than anything, even his cock in my mouth , but I also know it will be a disappointment compared to how denial and obedience makes me feel.)

I have typed them in my order of preference, my begging has resulted in me committing to another week of edging and making sure I have availability to suck his cock this week.

I have given him my availability this week there is 4 windows of opportunity.

Hopefully at least one will match with him .

Saturday

Stephen got in touch and asked for my edge count for the week (54) he would prefer chastity but with me being married it’s the next best thing .

I am only allowed to cum while he watches just before I suck his cock . He likes to keep me in an extremely high state of arousal for all the time I am not with him .

He very much enjoys watching me ejaculate away all my pent up horny feelings just before I serve him .

It adds to my submission and I suck his cock with all the attention it deserves as the post orgasm feelings of remorse and regret kick in .

This as I say is slightly contradictory as I clearly love sucking his cock and being his faggot . But the emotions and feelings are still complex and complicated.

My submission feels so much more real and complete after masturbating away my arousal while he watches . Knowing I will be serving his needs as soon as I ejaculate .

The elephant in the room is my duties to my wife sexually and how this can interrupt Stephen’s plans for my orgasms.

The understanding we have is I should be the best possible husband to her needs and he has encouraged that I prioritise satisfying her orally .

She has very much appreciated this approach to our sex life as her satisfaction is my number one priority, she doesnt appear to mind that my penetratative sex perfomance has suffered in terms of lasting power .

With the constant edging required by Stephen and any other random contact I have during a given week my edge count is always high .

I make sure I give my wife 2-3 orgasms with my mouth before we fuck , I usually last no more than a couple of minutes inside her .

Stephen has been encouraging me to apologise to her and go back down on her .

The first few times she accepted my apologies and refusedy advances to go done on her again .

In the last few months . I have had the great privilege to suck my cum out of my wife and give her more orgams .

On a couple of occasions I got so hard I was able to fuck her again like a real man . It was wonderful.

Stephen is supportive and a Dominant I am lucky to have .

On the occasions I penetrate my wife he rewards me by fucking me .

Otherwise unless he is especially horny I am his cock sucker .

I have rambled enough for today .

Not sure if my musings make sense I suppose over time, gaps will be filled in and details elaborated on.

Not even sure Stephen would approve of this .

But I am actually getting a lot from typing and expressing things as they come to me .

Observation during my chaste and aroused posture.

Es ist interessant, wie ich, sobald ich merke, wie mein Körper zur Ruhe kommt und die Erregung nachlässt, nach einer Stelle suche, wo ich mit meinen Brustwarzen spielen kann. Die Erregung kehrt sofort zurück. Mein Penis beginnt zu kribbeln; ich ignoriere es, berühre ihn nicht, nur wenn es unbedingt nötig ist. Mein Blick wandert nun zwischen den Beinen, den Brüsten, den Hintern jeder Person hin und her. Was würde passieren, wenn mir jemand sagen würde, ich solle auf die Knie gehen, meinen Penis lutschen, meine Vagina lecken?

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Oh my gosh, I just saw this user on Fetlife named “web_whore”. Strange men use her sexually, take pictures and/or videos of their use of her, and have her upload the photos of it all to her Fetlife account for so many to see. I started down that path of sexually serving strangers, but they didn’t take pictures. :-/ I think that kind of humiliation might be even more humiliating for a male than it is for a female. I don’t know, she looked pretty humiliated. If they had taken photos I might’ve been stuck in an endless loop of sexual service.