going to sleep to the thought of daniel molloy abandoned by the love of his life thanks fanfic writers🙂‍↕️

[My notifications, mentions, likes, reblogs AND tagging system has been shit for years, so this update means nothing to me tbh.]

bro I’m so fucked

sometimes i think im suffering at my email job and need a new one but then i watch mlp and bake some muffins in the middle of the day and assume im just really mentally ill to think those thoughts

I’m way too needy these days… what the fuck.

😂😂😂 Y’all already know i’m dying to tell you. Any hint would be too much. They would come for my ass. Y’all would be like, “what happened to Reincarnated???” 😫😫😫 Tumblr blog, “not found.”

at the end of the day I’m still the same girl I was when I first joined Tumblr over 10 years ago. a virgin who can’t drive

being flirted with and idk what to do anymore. help

(to the tune of straight sex @ the gay pride parade)

I WANNA HAVE (pause) SEEEEXX

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sigh just a personal little rant

i’m so :/

i really miss weightlifting it was so good for me mentally and physically like especially with my injuries it was one form of workout i could still tolerate

but my back got too bad and i’m forbidden from heavy lifting now and its just not the same plus i have too many financial expenses and debt from vet bills and i cant allow myself the personal training anytime soon

cardio fucking sucks like its so BORING and feels awful

i cant get myself back into yoga though i really should i’ve just been really out of it lately physically and mentally

not taking my meds for a week probably didnt help

So i got a free trial of apple tv that i did not use and it ends in three days. While i’m trying to figure out what star trek show to watch next i have decided to watch severance. Do we think i can finish it all in 3 days

lbf’s lil cutie smile has me falling to my knees and punching the ground if you even care

i mispelled northanger abbey im gonna kms

im not a bad person for having gender dysphoria, im not inherently misogynistic for just having gender dysphoria that only comes from actions, im not less trans or conservative / reactionary for having intense gender dysphoria over my body and not wanting any feature or clothing I am expected to & already have <- comfort mantra of dubious veracity

Mine and my mothers PCP has really started to slowly but surely start minimizing how debilitating the conditions we are working with are and she has now officially straight up started gaslighting my mother and throwing her under the bus. The way she writes about it it is as if she does not understand that these are debilitating, chronic, painful and disabling conditions that are actively putting a tank on quality of life.

My mother has an official hEDS diagnosis, alpha-gal syndrome, Fibromyalgea, sleep apnea, strongly suspected MCAS, chronic 5+ rated pain, arthritis, carpal tunnel as well as a whole laundry list of other chronic and debilitating conditions that has culminated as she’s gotten older. I have chronic pain, orthostatic intolerance, hashimotos, and am pursuing POTS, hEDS & MCAS as very strong possibilities and am going to start asking about CFS again because honestly the shoe fits! And this doctor really just simply is not seeming to grasp that the symptoms for both me and my mother (my mother has it so much worse) are actively disabling in our day to day lives.

Im in my early/mid 20’s and incapable currently of picking up more than 40 pounds not due to a lack of muscle capacity, but because I lifted a box of apples on my ONE DAY A MONTH of volunteer work and threw my back out so bad I had to go to the emergency room and I still think that I herniated a disk. That was back on November 7th 2025, its March 13 2026 and my back is **still** injured and hurting

Idk it just really feels like she’s thinking it not an actual every day debilitating issue. I took someone out for an appointment yesterday and we grocery shopped for maybe an hour after. Thats all we did. Guess who’s sore and tired and sleepy and more weak-muscled than she should be now the day after? Just from driving and walking around a store WITH a mobility aid. My SI joint- while not super sore- is STILL tender despite my cane and without it, it gets so painful at times that I physically can’t put any weight on my leg.

I can’t stand and wash dishes without taking breaks. Neither of us have the ability to keep up with a sedentary job because we have both tried on multiple counts. I WANT to work and do stuff. I desperately want to be able to get up and do more with my life but I can’t if Im not able to take the time to rest and focus on making my conditions managable. But my mom is nearly 50 (yes she’s dealing with all this while still not even 50 🙃) and has pushed through on grit and a prayer so much for so long that its resulted in her pain being worse right now than it ever had to be. If Im having a bad time with this, she’s got it about 10x worse.

I dont understand how we can look at this doctor and tell her- this is debilitating. She’s given evidence. Yet doesn’t seem to grasp the severity.

She DOES grasp that theres something going on. She understands that its painful, uncomfortable, she understands the concept of chronic conditions and has seemed very open to new information before. She’s not the devil incarnate. She’s one of the best doctor’s we’ve gotten. We wouldn’t have made it to the points we are at at all without her listening enough to understand that we’re dealing with something painful that needs addressed. Im not completely dragging on her.

But also I dont understand how she can see everything she’s seeing, especially from my mother, and not grasp the severity. I dont see how she can say and suggest some of what she says and suggests. I can understand the thought process- if she were dealing with a different patient with less severe symptoms. But shes not dealing with another patient with less severe symptoms. Shes not dealing with someone who still has frequent good days with low/no pain. My mom is constantly in 5+ rated pain levels, every single day, she’s told her that. I can take the max dose of ibuprofen and tylenol together (800 & 1000 mgs) and not feel a DENT in my bad days, which are unpredictable, even though I personally thankfully CAN have very low pain days (I mean theres always something each day, but it comes and goes and CAN drop to 0. But that’s not every day nor ever guaranteed). Ive been so tired and exhausted and weak before I wondered not if, but WHEN my lungs were going to give out because I was just simply to tired to breath, and it hurt to breath because my lungs were so sore with fatigue.

I dont understand how someone can tell a doctor something like that and they still can’t grasp the severity.

me having to work overtime to compensate for the hours i left earlier yesterday: i have been here for 84 years i dont know what freedom looks like the smell of fresh air evades me

reading 2 books at once #hubris #gluttony #darkwoke

was really enjoying (and still did overall) this lady’s lecture on historiography and lesbianism and stuff until she said something about stalinism and that pissed me off.