#boyhood

I miss when my dad loved me and my little sister wasn’t mean to me

it sucks when you’re talking to someone online and mention not wanting to be online forever and the person is like so then you’re leaving?? and it gets all awkward

like yeah mate you’re cool asf but let’s be real.

I yearn to not be single omg I want that one person in my class sooo bad

just discovered what frotting means, who wants to do it with me :p

a bitch on the beach

So I thought a bit in the shower

And I think I’m still way too dependent on Sir. I won’t be able to think properly or make proper choices as long as I didn’t talk things out with him and I don’t think we’ll ever talk again sadly

All I can do is move on but now I need to figure out how

What am I doing with my life

I like this picture of me a normal amount

My mom reminded me of how ugly I am tumblr will hear a lot about this

Im seeing him this weekend im literally growling

boyhood is going to the beach and digging a gigantic fucking hole

i like to think of myself as an old dog who’s supposed to be dead but somehow isn’t in more of a financial burden way and less is an miracle way

I have to dress normal today bc I’m being dragged to church #real world issues 😞😞

ROMANIA !!

ok why did my best friend (who knows me by my dead name and isn’t aware im a guy) said I look like I have a older brother and she said he would have my name. As my name I mean Davi, not my dead name. She doesn’t know my actual name. What fucking sorcery is this bruh😭

i was his freedom, he wanted to be free so bad and almost had it but in the end, he was restrained by so many circumstances while im losing my own freedom because my brain and heart kills me over the loss of our friendship. I miss a relationship with a boyfriend that never really begun, we were never more than friends and yet i still felt like he couldve been the guy i married

started praying for forgiveness because i love him so badly but everything around us.. religion, parents, politics, friends.. nothing will allow us to be together… why couldn’t i have been straight. knowing i cant have him makes me feel so greedy but also makes my chest hurt like hell. why cant we be happy together. why must we part ways. i just want him back in my life

its been a month. literally only a month. and yet i still miss him as if hed been gone for years. i love him so deeply why must he leave why cant i stay with him forever i just want so badly to be with him and only him. i need to move on so badly but the love i have for him is so strong that even the thought of not loving him anymore makes my heart feel like its going to burst…