I just feel like I have to write this after being silent for so long.
I am SO grateful to all the readers who liked my texts and left feedback. I’ve never been a professional writer, I’ve always written for the soul. Some of the work was good, some were not. It’s funny now to see that the ones I didn’t really like back then are the ones I like now. I guess sometimes I was too hard on myself. But my heart always ached when people wrote that they liked my work and wanted to continue some of it - for me, this is the highest praise! I’m serious.
Of course, there were a lot of mistakes, but since I’m not a native English speaker, I hope the readers have forgiven me for that 😅
But unfortunately, 2025 was a very difficult year for me emotionally and really knocked me down. I was overcome with such terrible fatigue and apathy after all the problems I’d experienced that I involuntarily abandoned writing for good. Alas, I don’t even write for myself anymore. Somewhere, a beautiful little notebook full of ideas and notes is sitting alone, gathering dust. It would be funny if it weren’t so sad. Adding to the sadness is the fact that I’ve cooled off from the Resident Evil fandom, and the release of Requiem didn’t really impress me, so to speak, until inspiration returned. While I was in a lull, I managed to visit my favorite, less-populated fandoms like Deus Ex and Heroes of Might and Magic—those two Roman empires of mine (and like the Roman Empire, they’re also left behind, heh), but even about them, I haven’t really written anything, although I’ve had thoughts, but I still can’t quite get out of my disgusting state.
But I won’t dwell on the sad stuff. In fact, this entire post is written as a token of gratitude to those who liked and commented on my posts – thank you, my dears! Even now, when I’ve retired from writing, I still sometimes reread the comments, and it warms my heart!
I hope one day I’ll get back on track and pick up a pen and a laptop to please my old and perhaps new readers. I want to, but I don’t have the resources yet.
I love you all, my dears, and thank you again for all the wonderful emotions you gave me!
P.S. This isn’t a farewell—it’s gratitude. All my work is still available, and I have no plans to delete it.
