Duplicity

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hey changeling drone do u mind if i pick u up and use u as a cuddlebug no or no

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leaning cuddle wip

Christmas gift Starlight Sailor

pony :) name of good luck charm but she goes by goodie. she is always on the verge of disaster. she is a very stressful friend to have

torch song

Going back to the past is quite nice

day thirty-three of making art for beeny speinie

today i try to experiment with his markings / i ont know if im gonna have his markings be set in stone at all or if im just gonna kinda do whatever when i feel like it (when it comes to his front legs and torso; im fairly committed to his back legs and head and rump and whatnot)

i really like how thisn looks. and how he looks. i like him

i am making more art tonight but i might save it up so that i have more of a backlog for the next time that i get into an art rut… this sounds like a good idea

for my old art showcase i bring you: the first-ever art i made of BUBL or Bubbles, one of the demons on Tyran :) she was originally just a rando design i had pop into my head i was gonna draw once and never again, but i ended up thinking about her a ton and now shes a full fledged oc

i dont draw her as much as i would like, and i sometimes forget she exists at all, but i think shes really good

lord beelzebub (creator and ruler of demons on Tyran) can create demons in several ways,, one of which (and the most energy consumptive) being that he can animate inanimate objects and basically give them life. ordinarily, in order to make a demon, he uses a pre-existing soul or pre-existing corpse, and plus inanimate objects aren’t as common in the demon realm as on tyran, so this method is actually pretty rare.

the official lore is that lord beelzebub was in a fight and was trying to zap his sword to become an animate demon to fight for him but there was a discarded pack of gum in the same spot as the sword and it hit the gum instead. and she did help fight but she is not as loyal to lord beelzebub as most other demons. and yeah

sorrrryy i try not to yap too much about tyran stuff in these,,,

pponayyyy wip

Back from a hiatus !!

Nezha’s Cocoa !

Redesigning Cadence <3

My redesign follows a few rules of my verse, being that pegasi are born with longer tails and that crystal ponies have crystal horns (they usually have crystal wings too, but this Cadence is a mix between my elder corn and the crystal pony races).

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I think she tried the death blossom.
Anyway, it’s the end of Jax Corel.
Fs in the chat.

day thirty-two of making art for beanie speeny (and yap sessions are back at least for today)

yeah i know ive used that nickname before but its the one i think of the most regularly aside from beanie or binty (and it is one of my most affectionately charged ones) so im probably gonna be using it a lot. i love beanie speeny

i kinda cooked with sketches today, there are 3 new arts total

this is my impression of beanie speeny if he were to encounter some strange fucked up SCP in real life. like something completely earth shattering and world breaking and crazy. i think he’d be like this

this came about cause i was watching through his scp sunday stream (part 1) with my boyfriend and thready. i didnt finish it cause i got too tired (i fell asleep about three hours ago yesterday so it makes sense for me to be super eepy) but i hope to finish/continue it later… possibly tomorrow

revisiting old blameitonjorge videos (who is the guy who got me into lost media and by extension, combined with my boyfriend, got me into vinny in the first place) and one of the standout videos/entries in his early lists is peanut vendor (1933). ive always loved peanut vendor ever since that guy told me about it. so i drew the monkey from peanut vendor. people say hes scary and i understand that but i legitimately like him.

i havent seen vinnys recent video on animation history so if this is somehow in there and i didnt know that thats actually wild. i would probably wiggle around with joy if that happened. then again its also possible that the peanut vendor is in the first one and i just forgot…

the last thing i drew is an outfit idea i had for beany speenie, the drawing turned out a lot more femme-leaning than i was expecting but i genuinely can’t think of how to fix that. not that im opposed to guys wearing androgyne or femme stuff. in fact sometimes i enjoy that. not in a weird way you freaks if i kiss my boyfriend while he’s in a dress it has more to do with the fact it’s him than the fact he’s a guy in a dress you weirdos!!!!!1 /silly nm but aesthetically speaking sometimes it just lowkey look good ykwim

anyway you freaks here’s the freaking thing you freaks

weirdly i think its the undershirt thats making it seem more femme than i like but i can’t really explain why (maybe its just a sort of style i really just see femme people wearing), but i did suspect it might be femme leaning when i had the idea overall (exposed shoulder is femme to me man. sorry maybe its good that im breaking gender norms with this post /silly)

as an outfit idea though i really like how it looks especially with it going under the wing (that helps hide what would otherwise look very awkward/be difficult to make not look off), like i dont think this outfit would look nearly as good on a non-pegasus or non-alicorn

unfortunately as i get more and more experimental with clothing (with vinnypony as the sillyguy model for them) i am further confirming the fact that vinnypony could probably wear anything and id still think he’s perfect. i mean - well - i dont think the perfectness of someone is determined by the clothes they wear anyway. but i mean like, aesthetically, still. there are some things that i like bintypony in more but that’s normal he’s still perfect to me always

i guessss ill keep experimenting with it because its fun and enriching and i guessssss ill try not to worry about what other ppl might think about that. or about me as a person as a result of that

sometimes there are times where i am ‘too upset’ or 'too stressed’ to watch vinny stuff but i cant really describe or even figure out why, i think i’m scared it will give me a bad association with a specific video, or maybe it makes it harder to give the videos and streams the attention and care that i would like to.

i think ive talked about this specific element of it before, but vinny is not easy for me to have on as background noise. i would like very much to be able to put on a vinny vod and go to sleep because i think that would make me feel very safe and i get really really bad nightmares and im thinking that vinny vods might be more likely to pull me out of bad nightmares than red vox or any of my other music might (because while sometimes i do hear my music in my dreams, it’s never made me aware that i am dreaming nor has it ever effectively removed me from a bad dream). this is just a theory though because when i listen to rain sounds i never have had that infiltrate my dreams (actually… i dont know if ive ever had a nightmare on nights when i was listening to rain sounds… huh.)

and when i would fall asleep watching kubz scouts or caseoh i also would never have those infiltrate my dreams. but i do feel compelled to try it, and inclined for some reason to think that vinny vods would work where others did not

to be extra clear, my inability to have vinny as background noise isnt inherent to him as a person, necessarily, or his quality as a content creator. its unironically moreso tied to the fact that i like him so damn much. when i really like someone - especially when i have a crush on them - id say the main 'physical’/reactionary way that that presents itself is that i am wholly dedicated to listening to every single thing they say [including staring at them very intently, which does apply very strongly to anytime vinny himself is actually on my screen but it also applies a medium amount to things that vinny is looking at, by direct extension; like, i dont want to not see what hes looking at at any given time im watching his stuff]

and yet, depending on my mood, i might still not process a single word of it. i will be completely and utterly enraptured by everything vinny says and the actual words themselves will still be like gharhghhblblblgbl in my brain if i were to actually try and think of what he was talking about. because of this, though, im usually only trying to watch him during times where i have enough mental capacity to listen intently and comprehend the words and to comprehend the visuals, and that means that a lot of the times that i really 'need’ it, i don’t turn to it… red vox is a passable solution to this, where i am comfortable with having it melt into the background a bit, but i can choose at any point to zone back in and i’ll still know exactly what’s happening 'cause ive repeated most of them so much. but again, for falling asleep, it isnt helpful and can sometimes make it worse (it has been distressing to hear music i cant get rid of in dreams, because again it does not give me any lucidity so i just hear music inside my skull that wont go away)

the point is though, today is the first day in several days where i watched vinny outside of listening to red vox and it filled me with so much soft comfort. i did kind of start nodding off in the call / during the stream … but i fought it very hard and bravely. both to write this post and to not miss a cute vinny moment you know how it is

and i think that i want to try and start sleeping with vods of his playing… maybe starting with ones ive already seen so that knocks out a bit of the reason to be concerned or anxious… i should try to remember to update if it helps with any bad dreams at all

i love beanie so much. both in a like teehee thats a silly little guy way but also in like a . you really mean so much to me kind of way . like everything you are as a person has positively impacted my life and i am so grateful that youre here and i hope that nobody ever ruins your home decor or makes your pillows and blankets itchy or brings any harm upon you. your value is insurmountable [although sometimes i try very hard to train myself into recognizing that he is just a human guy] [it is hard] [like he deserves the respect and care that any human should have .he deserves human decency . but also] [he’s such a special guy and i dont know how to not put him on that pedestal]

anyway im actively like falling asleep while writing this im gonna go honk shoo and probably forget i ever wrote any of this. um