Okay so what happened on Feb 6 on my campus what with these barcodes. What on earth did I miss on that day? One was about a person who rented out a 300 person venue to settle a petty argument with their friend and other is some dude exposing his friend for eating a green banana at an exact time and date for said person to yell at him. What happened? And why was all of this happening on Feb 6th.
and i am just lowkey angry at myself bc i could TELL last week was gonna be the last the vibes were just OFF and i knew i knew deep down but i just wish it wasn’t LOL i loved that aspect of being able to hang out w someone for a while whose presence i genuinely enjoyed + who dicked me down so well lmfao i’m gonna miss it a lot i really am
deeply saddened by the fact this is my first time not sunday goofin for a very long time. oh well! it be like that sometimes it’s for the best
The amount of ‘Happy Waitangi Day’ posts I’ve seen today is embarrassing.
Know your history, Aotearoa… fucking donkeys 🙄
Ellie says…..February 6th, 2020
Today is all about love!Photo by Samuel Silitonga on Pexels.com
For many of you dreams will turn into reality. And this may not only be related to “person to person” love, but love in general. Love for the humanity, for the planet, love towards every living thing. The day is important for hard work and overcoming obstacles in our personal lives, and for the benefit of the world.
Enj…
The truth is, I honestly think that no one will ever love me, I mean, who would wanna love me anyways? There is nothing special about me. Nothing to show off or be proud of. People always told me that no one will ever want to marry me because of the way I look. And I mean I only look worse now…. so why would anyone want to marry me? Why would anyone love me? When I don’t even love me.
Like I said, I have to stop living in my sadness, tumblr has always created a space where I can express the things the world would deem too much, unwanted, dramatic, ect. But there is a fine line between doing that, and then becoming to comfortable here. If I am to truly grow, than this too needs to be stopped, or at least paused.
My darling, if you’re reading this, please know that I have not lost any love for you. I know I’ve probably lost the privilege of calling you endearing names, but terms of endearment have completely dropped from my vocabulary, calling anyone anything that I’ve called you feels wrong. Anyways, again, I have lost no love for you. I have gained so much love for myself though, and at the end of the day, our cycles were becoming vicious, and only pained us both. So I put myself first, knowing that I may be endangering our magic and a connection I will never find again. Because I hated who I was becoming, the sacrifices of self that I made. That’s not your fault, I made those choices. However, Ididnt know how to put myself first, when you were all I cared about. That’s not healthy. For either of us. I meant every promise I made, which makes it even worse that I broke them. There’s no excuse, I know I hurt your heart and broke your trust. Please take care of yourself. You are the most amazing being, who deserves more than anything to feel good and take care of themselves. Be your own best friend. Let yourself feel your pain, it’s the only way to move past it. I hope you see this, I hope we are able to realign, some day, once I’ve rediscovered myself. I firmly believe that this was the right choice, though it was the most painful one of the table. Thank you for the lessons, I’m a better person for loving you.
I need to log off, I can’t keep refreshing to see if you’ve spoken into the void, that’s not moving forward. I love you, I am, from the bottom of my soul, sorry for everything I’ve put you through.
See you on the flip side tumblr 💜
I haven’t watched the Challenge in years because it got shit but now…woof they stepped it up! Mad Max edition
