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Hello there! Long time no see.

Thank you for this message - it’s heartwarming to know that my fellow simmers have been thinking of me and my projects.

I wanted to take the opportunity to answer this message with a bit of an explanation of where things are for me and my future in this wonderful community.

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In July I gave birth to my third baby! He has been a dream. Having a single baby after my experience having twins as a first time parent has been such a healing experience and I’ve been really soaking it up and enjoying him and my beautiful family.

As a result I haven’t been simming much anymore, other than the occasional Sims 2 comfort play. My life has been so busy and full. I had a truly awful year in 2025, going through so many difficult personal things. But diamonds are made under pressure right? So I’m trying to make things better for myself in 2026. I am working on starting my own business, so I can be at home with my babies whilst living a life that lets me be creative. And I actually have the sims and this community to thank for giving me the drive and confidence that I can do this!

All that is to say that I don’t think I will be posting here anymore. It is a shame as I had prepared heaps of posts for this new legacy project, and I’m sad to see them go to waste - though nothing is a waste if you enjoyed the process 🙃 but my life is so consumed by motherhood, parenting and birth and this is where I want to focus my energies and attention for this season.

I’m writing all of this as I feed my sweet baby to sleep. I see so many fellow simmers in this community who I have grown up alongside and who have or are becoming parents too. I feel like we’ve all grown up and come so far! As a kid and a teenager my favourite way to play the sims was to make big, interesting, loving families with lots of babies and pets. Now I feel like I’m really living my sims fantasies. If you had told me 5 years ago that this would be my life I wouldn’t have ever believed it 🥹

Anyway, I don’t really like to do goodbyes because never say never! I’ll always love to play the sims. And I’ll be lurking around here still. But for now, I consider myself properly retired.

Have a Happy New Year everyone! 💘💘

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Decades Challenge Lookbook - Maternity

Hey - what’s up? I am super duper pregnant myself, so here is a lookbook of maternity fashion through the decades that I was inspired to create while I wait for this baby to arrive.

Maternity fashion over the last 100+ years oscilated between ‘don’t let them see you’re pregnant, gross’ to 'show off that bump, populate or perish!’.

The last look is inspired by how I currently look 🫠

I will reblog with all the relevant links over the next few days, so stay tuned!

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1890: Hair / Dress / Hat / Gloves
1900: Hair / Dress / Hat / Gloves
1910: Hair / Dress / Hat / Necklace / Shoes / Gloves
1920: Hair / Dress / Hat / Necklace / Shoes / Gloves
1930: Hair / Dress / Hat / Shoes / Gloves
1940: Hair / Dress / Hat / Shoes / Gloves
1950: Hair / Shirt / Skirt / Scarf / Shoes / Gloves
1960: Hair / Dress / Leggings / Shoes
1970: Hair / Outfit / Scarf
1980: Hair / Dress / Shoes
1990: Hair / Dress / Tee / Necklace / Shoes
2000: Hair / Tee / Jeans / Shoes
2010: Hair / Outfit (High School Years) / Shoes
2020: Hair / Cardigan / Pants / Shoes

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Decades Challenge Lookbook - Maternity

Hey - what’s up? I am super duper pregnant myself, so here is a lookbook of maternity fashion through the decades that I was inspired to create while I wait for this baby to arrive.

Maternity fashion over the last 100+ years oscilated between ‘don’t let them see you’re pregnant, gross’ to 'show off that bump, populate or perish!’.

The last look is inspired by how I currently look 🫠

I will reblog with all the relevant links over the next few days, so stay tuned!

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Brain dump:

  1. Sims TikTok seems to be where it’s at these days? Tumblr is dying? Debate.
  2. There are so many game glitches going on right now that I literally cannot progress my gameplay in order to progress story. Like height sliders, raining indoors, livestock stuck in family inventory etc. I open the game and close it after getting fed up.
  3. First post of new Legacy up tonight!

Whoa lol I totally lied about number 3 - big shout out to random respiratory illness for ruining that plan.

Anyway. I finish work at the end of this week for a whole year (!!!) of maternity leave. So I’ll get my act together and queue these 30-ish posts to start hitting your dash in July!

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Brain dump:

  1. Sims TikTok seems to be where it’s at these days? Tumblr is dying? Debate.
  2. There are so many game glitches going on right now that I literally cannot progress my gameplay in order to progress story. Like height sliders, raining indoors, livestock stuck in family inventory etc. I open the game and close it after getting fed up.
  3. First post of new Legacy up tonight!

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lil update

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I have 21 drafts saved and ready to go for my new decades challenge. It’s been a labour of love, but I’ve developed the story enough that now I need to release her into the world! A scary thought.

Since finishing the Langston Legacy I’ve felt a huge void in my life, a lack of purpose and isolation from this community I used to feel so apart of. It’s been harder than I thought it would be. I miss being part of simblr.

Life hasn’t been great lately, which is why it’s taken me a while to post here. I’ve felt pretty sad about a lot of things and didn’t want to emo-dump on tumblr like it’s 2013. But 2025 has been such a crappy year. I’m counting down the weeks until I can leave my shitty job and take a whole year of leave with my little family. Spend time at home, slow down, work on creative projects (sims included) and figure out what the heck I am doing with my life.

Anyway, that’s me! Keep your eyes peeled for the first posts of this new Legacy…

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Ahhh I’m sorry nonny but I don’t think I can! There are so many creators out there who are still creating, and for me to re-upload their work would go against their t&c’s.

I know it’s frustrating when content is no longer available, but there is so much new content that has come out in the years since I’ve been playing historically - I’m actually trying to focus on using newer-cc this time around, and if you have any specific WCIF I’m open to answering these requests!

Also… my mods folder is not nice 😅 it’s a hot damn mess that I haven’t organised for months and it is 20GB+! Nobody needs to see that chaos.

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Eeeeppp I’m so glad!! This lil project of mine has been brewing along for so, so long and to put even just a teaser of it out into the world was nerve wracking so I’m glad you are excited! I’m determined to make this a really good, sharp and punchy little Legacy that does justice to its inspiration 🦘

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Trying to name my Decades Challenge - a challenge in itself when this is the source material.

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Coming Soon...

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The Australian exchange rate sucks.

How are we all justifying the cost for the re-releases if we paid full-price for every content pack when they were originally released?

👉👈

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What’s up?

I thought I’d share an update on what I’ve been up to/where I’m at now that the Langston Legacy is over.

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Tbh I’ve felt a bit lost without the drive to forge forward with a Legacy! I miss just playing the game for the sake of playing. I haven’t bought Life and Death yet but have considered it just for a reason to play the damn game.

But to cope with the end of something so big, I’ve thrown myself into new projects - both sims and non-sims.

In dot point form, here is what I got going on:

  • I got a new PC! My partner surprised me with a proper gaming PC for Christmas and it is beautiful. Incredible speeds and quality, and I can’t believe how much my poor laptop was suffering by comparison - honestly it was off putting to play on because of the load times and lag.
  • Since getting new PC, I have finally started work on my long-planned project of an Australian decades challenge. I’ve built the world, all the lots, and created the population and main family. I might share some images soon because I’m super proud of how they’ve turned out. I’ve already got the prologue mapped out and have been working on shooting! But still tweaking how I want to story-tell this new Legacy and how I want the format of it to work between imagery and dialogue. Bit of a WIP still.
  • I’ve created my own custom ReShade preset just for my new Legacy. It was a labour of love but I really learnt a lot. I wanted something that really looks like the setting of my Legacy, southern rural Australia in all its barren, dusty, ochre glory.
  • In saying all that, if they re-release the Sims 1 or 2 as part of the 25yr anniversary I’ll be yeeting myself into the void to play those for a while and pretend I’m a kid again.
  • Outside of sims, I’m working on finding new outlets for creativity in my own personal life and seeing where that takes me. I’ve come to realise that creativity is necessary for my sanity, and I have so many ideas I want to work on but instead I’m stuck in the rat race of life working a full time job that I don’t like. I’m going into this year with the mentality that it’s time to be brave and take some big steps to live the life I want to live, one that allows me to be creative on a daily basis and spend more wholesome time with the people I love.
  • And to top it all off, I’m also baking another real life nooboo 🐣 just one this time, not two!

Anyway what was the point of this dump? Just to let you all know where I’m at, what you can expect from me, my desire to stay here in simblr and still be a part of this community.

If you’re new around here, please feel send me a message and I’ll check out your stuff - I feel very out of the loop these days with fellow simmers and a bit lost at sea, but I’m still very much a historical simmer at heart who loves the cosy vibes of creating historical drama with friends ❤️

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Thank you for reading the Langston Legacy

To all my dear followers and friends - it took me some time to post this final post for the Langston Legacy, because it is so hard to say goodbye to this group of sims that has been part of my life and many of yours for nearly 5 years.

But we made it. All the way to the modern day! This Decades Challenge is complete ⌛️

I hope you all enjoyed the final walk with Mac through the Langston family back to their origins. I really loved revisiting where they came from and seeing old faces. It felt like the fitting way to round this Legacy out.

This is the end for the Langstons. Above you will see all the characters we met over 12 decades - and I have the wonderful @goldoradove to thank for helping to create a 51 sim pose that was so unique to this particular family and all of its individuals. The thing I love most about this community is the people I have met through telling my sims story, and collaborating on this pose to say farewell has been truly heartwarming. I have endless, endless thank-yous, Rilla 💖✨

Ew I’m crying now as I write this, how dare sims make me feel this kind of emotion?! But seriously. Thank you everyone who has ever been invested in this sims story. 5000 followers later (excuse me 😳), and I want you all to know that every comment and like and message has been so meaningful. You are the reason I was able to keep this going for so long, pick it back up after long hiatuses, and finally finish it in my own slightly-protracted way as my life outside of simblr has changed. What started as a pandemic hobby in lockdown turned into a huge project that has sustained me creatively and I feel a bit lost now that it’s complete.

So… what’s next? Stay tuned and I’ll update in a few days on where I’m at with my future plans on simblr. But in the meantime, go discover and read and follow and support all your fellow historical simmers and above all, create your own characters and worlds of your choosing without shame or inhibition 💕🥹

And because you’re all so kind, here are some outtakes from the family photo in detail of all of your favourite Langstons.

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Thank you for reading the Langston Legacy

To all my dear followers and friends - it took me some time to post this final post for the Langston Legacy, because it is so hard to say goodbye to this group of sims that has been part of my life and many of yours for nearly 5 years.

But we made it. All the way to the modern day! This Decades Challenge is complete ⌛️

I hope you all enjoyed the final walk with Mac through the Langston family back to their origins. I really loved revisiting where they came from and seeing old faces. It felt like the fitting way to round this Legacy out.

This is the end for the Langstons. Above you will see all the characters we met over 12 decades - and I have the wonderful @goldoradove to thank for helping to create a 51 sim pose that was so unique to this particular family and all of its individuals. The thing I love most about this community is the people I have met through telling my sims story, and collaborating on this pose to say farewell has been truly heartwarming. I have endless, endless thank-yous, Rilla 💖✨

Ew I’m crying now as I write this, how dare sims make me feel this kind of emotion?! But seriously. Thank you everyone who has ever been invested in this sims story. 5000 followers later (excuse me 😳), and I want you all to know that every comment and like and message has been so meaningful. You are the reason I was able to keep this going for so long, pick it back up after long hiatuses, and finally finish it in my own slightly-protracted way as my life outside of simblr has changed. What started as a pandemic hobby in lockdown turned into a huge project that has sustained me creatively and I feel a bit lost now that it’s complete.

So… what’s next? Stay tuned and I’ll update in a few days on where I’m at with my future plans on simblr. But in the meantime, go discover and read and follow and support all your fellow historical simmers and above all, create your own characters and worlds of your choosing without shame or inhibition 💕🥹

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Mac and Hugo had made their way to the seaside town of Brindleton Bay. It was the birthplace of Charles Langston II and the place where he married his wife Madeleine.

Mac felt like they had been lucky, to find yet another famous figure in their family tree whose lineage they could trace back one step further. But they were also very aware that they may be nearing the end. Unless another notable figure came up, it was going to be almost impossible for them to trace the family tree back further given how far they had already come. They couldn’t believe their luck so far that they had managed to trace back into the 1890s - and hoped that perhaps there was one more mystery left for them to uncover.

Mac and Hugo traipsed along the Brindleton dockland markets, pondering where they should start. Both agreed that a cemetery may hold some clues if they could find the name Langston.

They approached a man at a stall and asked him whereabouts the cemetery was.

‘We’re doing a family history project,’ explained Mac. ‘Looking for the name Langston. Apparently they lived here way back in the 1890s at least.’

‘Oh yeah,’ said the man. ‘The cemetery is up at the lighthouse. Langston you say? There’s an old farm called Langston Farm up the back of town, too. Maybe that’s what you’re looking for?’

Mac was ecstatic. Another stroke of luck! They headed off for the cemetery at the Lighthouse, where they found several old, crumbling headstones bearing the surname Langston.

There was a young boy aged eight - Oliver Langston, whose parents were Charles and Charlotte. And not too far from his headstone were those very people - Charles and Charlotte Langston, whose headstones noted that they were survived by their five children - Agnes, Charles, Juniper, Frank and Sybil.

This was it, Mac thought. Charles Langston II - here was his mother and father. He had siblings too. And they lived here in Brindleton Bay. The old farmhouse must have been their home, and Mac and Hugo eagerly made their way there.

Traipsing through the forest up an old dirt track, Mac didn’t know what they would find. A hopeful part of them hoped maybe there would be descendants still living there for them to meet.

But they knew realistically that it was wishful thinking. And when they came upon the old farmhouse, it was sad but unsurprising to them that it was old, decrepit and abandoned.

Mac felt a deep foreboding feeling that they had reached the end. There were no more leads to follow. They would never know what life was like here on this farm in 1890, or how its inhabitants came to be there.

‘I… don’t know what else we can do,’ they confessed to Hugo. ‘It feels like there are no more stones that can be turned over here. It’s an old abandoned farm. I thought maybe someone would still be here…’

‘Hey now,’ said Hugo softly. ‘This is ok. You have traced your family history into the 1890s. Mac, you’ve uncovered 12 generations of people who came before you - they lived such diverse lives. We got stuck so many times and we still got here. Maybe this is the end, but that’s not a bad thing. Think of everything you can share with your family when you go home.’

Mac felt sad, thinking about going home. They had so enjoyed spending this time with Hugo, having a companion to share this journey through history with, to motivate them to keep going even when they got stuck.

‘It’ll suck though to go home… and leave you,’ they confessed to Hugo.

‘I’ll miss you too,’ said Hugo, wrapping Mac in a big hug.

In the quiet moment under the sunset, in the forest next to the abandoned old building, something passed between the two of them. A mutual agreement that while this was the end of their search for their family history, this wasn’t the end for them. Their story was only just beginning.

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Mac had nearly given up in their quest to trace their family history. The trail had gone cold several times, but with a bit of digging they had managed to trace back 10 generations. Their expedition to Windenburg had unearthed so much more information, and they were determined to push back as far as possible before the trail ended once and for all.

They were honing in on the name Langston now. It was the maiden name of Marigold and her sister Primrose. So perhaps it would tell them something about where they came from.

Fortunately their first search for a Langston produced a result, which led them back to Britechester once more to explore the University. Charles Ernest Langston II, a noted archaeologist and historical academic of the University, had an entire wing named after him in the archaeology department. Though internet searches had brought up fragments of his history, Mac had learned that this Mr Langston was a notable figure in academia in the 1900s. Perhaps, he was the next link in the chain.

Upon exploring the archaeology building, Mac was thrilled to find their first piece of information - a photograph. Hanging on the wall, as captioned below, was Charles Ernest Langston II, immortalised in black and white. A face they could put to the name.

Further searching on the library computers of Britechester brought up more nuggets of information. Mac and Hugo searched through images and old pages, finding a photograph of what appeared to be Mr Langston and his family - two sons, and one daughter who resembled the sisters Marigold and Primrose. Though it didn’t entirely make sense to Mac… weren’t there two daughters?

The births and marriages records confirmed further to them that Charles Ernest Langston II married Madeleine Jane Eldridge, whose family name had roots in Brindleton Bay. Mac was ecstatic - they knew where they would be going next.

‘It’s like a second wind!’ they exclaimed to Hugo as they walked through the town. 'The universe is giving me some kind of sign not to give up.’ They threw their arms around their new friend, excited to share these revelations with somebody else.

'Hopefully Brindleton Bay will shed something more on where old Mr Langston came from,’ said Hugo with a grin. 'Maybe this isn’t the end just yet.’

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Mac and Hugo sat out the front of a cafe in Windenburg, sipping their coffee. Their investigation into Schiller had come up short - they still didn’t know who Daisy was, or have any lead to another member of the family. They were both disheartened - it felt like they had come here for nothing.

‘It feels like the trail has gone cold,’ sighed Mac. 'I guess this is as far back as my family history goes.’

'You’re retracing your family history?’ Mac and Hugo looked up to find the cafe waitress standing next to their table.

'Yeah,’ said Mac. 'But I don’t think there’s anything more for me here in Windenburg.’

'Have you tried checking out the Harrington Museum?’ asked the waitress. 'It’s got heaps of local history, it’s this old mansion up the hill that used to be owned by the Harrington family who were these big rich aristocrats. They pretty much originated with Windenburg.’

Mac had no other leads, and so they and Hugo decided to check out the small history museum. Maybe it would unearth some niche local history relevant to their cause.

They arrived at Harrington Manor, a big beautiful old house that had been restored into a museum. The first foyers were filled with photographs of the historical Harrington family.

'Welcome to the Harrington Museum,’ said a woman. 'I’m the current caretaker and curator of the Museum and a direct descendant from the Harrington family. Feel free to ask me any questions!’

'Who were the Harringtons?’ asked Hugo.

'The Harringtons were a wealthy family who owned much of the land that is now modern day Windenburg. Back then they managed majority of the landholding in the Windenburg estate and built Windenburg into what it is today. The family had to sell off parts of the estate during the Great Depression, and eventually went bankrupt due to inept management. Even the surname eventually died out. Let me know if you have any more questions!’

Mac and Hugo began to peruse the pictures on the walls. There were handpainted portraits and old, faded photographs. Mac approached one set of photographs, and noted the captions beneath them.

The first photograph they noted was of a young couple. The caption below read:

Wedding of Patrick Thomas Harrington and Marigold Joy Langston, circa 1916

Langston. There was that surname again. How was it connected to it all?

On the left side were some photographs of groups of people. The first photograph showed the same married couple, Patrick and Marigold. The second photograph read:

Wedding of Walter Andrew Harrington and Sybil Helena Langston, circa 1919

Langston, again. But there was no information on who any of the other people in the images were.

Mac traipsed around the room, reading the captions eagerly, searching for more photos of the Harrington men who married Langston women. The next photograph they came across was of a young family in the 1920s. The capton below read:

Walter Harrington, Sybil Harrington, Walter Harrington II and Ruth Langston.

Mac couldn’t believe their eyes. There, in the photograph, was a girl named Ruth Langston. The same Ruth Langston whose gravestone they had found in the Henford cemetary with her husband Theodore. The daughter of Daisy. What was she doing in this photograph? How had she come to be here?

And yet, next to the photograph of Ruth was another family photo, this time of Patrick and Marigold again. The caption below read:

James Harrington, Marigold Harrington, Thomas Harrington with Primrose Weston and Daisy Weston.

Here it was. The golden nugget that Mac had been searching for. Daisy Weston, a young girl, immortalised in a faded photograph. She was somehow related to this Harrington family. Primrose was her mother.

But who was Marigold? Why was Ruth a Langston and not a Weston? Why was she with the Harrington family? Mac thought about it long and hard, and soaked in the faces from all the photographs. They thought about what it all must mean.

Leaving the museum with Hugo, feeling like they had at last had a breakthrough, Mac revealed their theories.

'What we know is that Ruth was the daughter of Daisy… and that Daisy was daughter of Primrose. I think Primrose and Marigold are sisters - Langston sisters. If you look at their faces, they seem so alike. So maybe they continued living together - there was no husband in those photos of Primrose’s, so she must’ve been a Great War widow.’

'It makes sense,’ said Hugo encouragingly. 'Althought I still don’t understand why Ruth was a Langston, living with the Harrington family.’

'Ok ok… hear me out… what if, Ruth was born out of wedlock? And was hidden in secret with the Harringtons? These women were all Langstons, who married Harringtons… they must have used their maiden name to protect her.’

Hugo laughed. 'How salacious,’ they smiled. 'Talk about family drama.’

Mac smiled contentedly. 'Yeah it’s dramatic but… I dunno, I have a good feeling about this theory.’

As they walked on past the old country houses, Mac knew where their search needed to go next.

'Now we need to figure out who the Langstons were.’

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With Hugo’s help and encouragement, Mac started trying to search for the next clue to their family history. They laid out all of their work so far and pinpointed where to focus next - Daisy Schiller. Who was Daisy, and where had she come from?

Try as they may, their searches for a Daisy by the name of Schiller and Weston still didn’t produce any results. Until Hugo had a brainwave - to search more broadly for the name Schiller.

Mac was starting to lose hope, until Hugo’s searching finally unearthed something - their first lead.

‘It says here, that there was a bloke by the name of Schiller part of some gang in Windenburg back in the 1920s… the Gillespie Gang, there’s all this history of them, apparently they were some notorious criminals,’ they explained. Mac perked up.

'There’s no photographs though,’ said Hugo, disheatened.

'Let’s go to Windenburg, then!’ exclaimed Mac. 'This is all we have to go on, perhaps there’s more to it there? Some niche local history, some kind of walking tour of local history. We’ve got to try.’

And so the pair travelled to Windenburg. Upon arrival, they entered the beautiful old Windenburg library and went straight for the section on local history. Perusing the books on the shelves, they found a local history of crime that contained a golden nugget - a histoy of the Gillespie Gang.

Flicking through the pages, Mac couldn’t belive their eyes when they found a very old photograph depicting a group of young men. The photo was black and white and faded, but Mac stared at their young faces and the captions beneath nothing their names: Thomas Harrington, Jacob Schiller.

It still wasn’t much to go on. They had a surname connection, but everything was still purely speculative.

'Do you think Jacob Schiller was the husband of Daisy?’ they asked Hugo, as they left the library.

'I mean, it’s plausible isn’t it?’ said Hugo. 'They were alive in the same time, living in the same region.’

They had begun to walk through the old historical slums of Windenburg - shabby brick houses, long condemned and abandoned, some restored, many preserved for historical purposes. Mac looked around and thought about what it must have been like for Daisy - to be a mob wife, living in these sad old buildings. They felt sad for her - she was a mother, she had three children. She clearly didn’t live her life out here. What was her story? Would they ever know?

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Mac’s investigation into Theodore Brown was coming up short. They knew that the further back in history they went, the less likely they would find any digitally preserved records of their ancestry. And so far, their searching had failed.

In an act of desperation, they decided to visit the Henford cemetary - and finally, the pieces fell together.

They found the gravestones of Douglas Brown and his wife Joan - listing their descendents, Margot, Vincent and Lewis. Mac finally had their answer - Margot was the daughter of Douglas Brown!

And Douglas was the son of Theodore - for they then finally found what they had been searching for. Side by side were two individuals, Theodore and Ruth Brown (nee Langston), survived by their children Douglas and Eileen.

But then Mac noticed something more. Next to the gravestone of Ruth was another person - Daisy Adelaide Schiller (nee Weston). Mother of Ruth, Thelma and Mabel.

It was another clue to the past. Here was proof of another lineage - Daisy Weston, mother of Ruth. But if Daisy was the mother of Ruth, why did they not share a surname? Where did Langston come from?

Mac was stumped. There were too many surnames now, and what hope would they have of finding an individual who existed in the 1920s. It felt like the trail had finally run cold, and when their usual internet searches produced nothing on a Daisy Schiller, Weston or Langston, Mac felt defeated.

That evening they sat slumped in the local pub, beer in hand. They thought about going home. What were they doing here, on their own, searching up ghosts. Families were messy and complex - Mac knew that - and they couldn’t blame their ancestors for following non-traditional paths. But now they were stuck and couldn’t figure out how to go further.

‘Hey, you ok?’ asked a voice. Mac looked up and noticed it was Hugo from the farm. 'How’s the family history going?’

'Oh yeah…’ sighed Mac. 'It’s not anymore. Dead end. Might be time to go home… I just feel like I came so far, so it’s hard to accept.’

Hugo sat down with them and listened. 'That is a bummer,’ they admitted. 'But do you want some help maybe? An extra brain to work out the mess with? I love a bit of family history… you can come over some time and we can go through it together. Maybe we can figure out the next step. You came all this way - don’t give up just yet.’

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Now that they were in Henford, Mac needed to figure out where to search next. They could feel the trail going cold for the first time, unsure of where Margot and Alexandre had come from before their marriages - but they had noted Margot’s maiden name, ‘Brown’.

Perusing the war memorial situated in the center of town felt like the first clue. They couldn’t find anyone by the surname of Dreyfus - but for Brown, there were a few: Bernard, Cecil and Douglas.

Burying themselves in miliary records online, Mac came across the service records for each of the young men listed on the statue. Bernard and Brown - both killed in battle in 1942. Could either of them have been Margot’s father, killed when she was young, leaving her a fatherless child?

Then there was Douglas Brown - respected military officer, with marriage records to Joan Eastman. Could this have been Margot’s father? Mac felt like they could never know which of the three brothers it was. It was frustrating to have come this far.

The best they could find, however, was a listed address for the deceased boys Bernard and Cecil. A farm, situated in the township of Henford. Mac decided to pursue the address. It was the only clue they had. Maybe they could find out more about where these young men came from.

Mac walked up the long driveway to the beautiful old farmhouse sitting atop the hill. It had clearly been lovingly taken care of for many years by someone. They knocked on the door nervously, hoping that the owner would be amicable.

The man who opened the door was an elderly but friendly farmer, who invited Mac inside almost immediately when they told him of their quest to discover their family history. The inside of the farmhouse was tastefully curated and had been clearly well-preserved.

'This is my kid,’ said the farmer, as they walked into the house. Mac was greeted by a person of similar age to them. 'They’re home for the holidays to help their old man.’

'Hi, I’m Hugo,’ they smiled. Mac smiled back. 'So, are you both part of the Brown family?’ they asked.

'Oh no…’ said Hugo. 'Our family name is Stratford. I don’t actually think we know anyone by Brown at all.’

'Actually…’ interjected Hugo’s father. 'Perhaps there could be some history worth considering.’ He went to a drawer and pulled out a pile of old papers. 'This farm has been in my family for many generations now. But the last time it was sold was in 1946. Maybe these deeds for sale will have what you’re finding?’

Mac looked at the dusty yellow papers, reading through the fine handwriting, and gleaned some hope for what they were looking for. There, in the transaction sale for the land, was the name of the previous owner: Theodore Brown.

It was something. A name to go on for next - this Theodore Brown, owner of the farm, father of three sons, only one of whom survived. Their next clue!

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Mac had investigated all that they could about Leonard Dreyfus and his siblings - but now, they wanted to know about the parents. Margot and Alexandre Dreyfus - who were they? Where did they come from?

A search at the local library unearthed the family’s immigration records, showing that the Dreyfus’s had travelled to the United States from England in 1954. Mac realised that their search was going to take them abroad if they wanted to keep going.

And so Mac landed in Britechester, the noted birthplace of Leonard Dreyfus. It felt serendipitous to land here of all places, being the place their mother Jasmine had lived before they were born. A place they had often thought of visiting one day, but had never found the right reason. And even though they weren’t here to try and find their Dad, they were still here to seek out their own history and identity.

But Mac felt the trail going cold all of a sudden. Sure they knew that the Dreyfus’s had once lived here, but where?

A search at the local library brought up the English birth and marriage records. When Mac searched for Margot and Alexandre Dreyfus, they found a small newspaper announcement reading:

Alexandre Eli Dreyfus married Margot Ruth Brown in Henford-on-Badgely, June 1950

After a long train ride, Mac arrived in Henford-on-Badgely the very next day. It was as sweet, quaint countryside down, with history and charm. The houses were old, many of them still standing from many years prior - English cottages, townhouses, post-war builds. As they walked into town and noted the architecture, Mac wondered where it was that Margot and Alexandre had lived - what it had been like to grow up in an era of war.

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Thanks to the internet, and the prolific careers of Leonard Dreyfus and his siblings, Mac was able to dive even deeper into their family history. It turned out Leonard was part of a successful brood, and soon enough Mac was reading about his famous elder brother Desmond - the first man on the moon - and his younger sister Violet, the hollywood starlet. It was simply amazing - how had so many notable people come from the one family?

The enduring Lenny and the Rollers community of fans had mapped out the entirety of Leonard’s family and background, and wikipedia provided Mac with all of their names. Leonard was born in England to parents Alexander and Margot, but grew up in the suburbs of Del Sol Valley in a neighbourhood that was now highly gentrified and revered. And the internet sleuths had pinpointed the exact home.

Mac found themselves out the front of an indimidating retro-modern home, hoping that this in fact was the house that Leonard Dreyfus and his siblings had grown up in. Steeling themselves for the awkward conversation with its new inhabitants, Mac walked up to the front door and knocked.

When they had explained their expedition to uncover their relations to the homes famous pre-occupants, the new owners were more than happy to invite Mac inside. The house was incredibly chic, tastefully refurbished in the intervening years, and its occupants a successfuly power couple.

Walking outside, Mac noticed the rose bush in the yard, perfectly maintained and manicured. They pulled out the photograph they had printed out of the Dreyfus family and held it up, noticing the similarities. This was it - this was the house that they had grown up in. Mac was chuffed that their investigation had brought them here - that they had been right at every step so far.

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Mac made their way to Del Sol Valley. Their deep google searches had brought up Eleanor Dreyfus as a child popstar in The Dreyfus Family band with her sister, mother and father. But the real golden nugget they had found was about Leonard Dreyfus - frontman of Lenny and the Rollers.

Mac entered the record store on the mainstrip of Del Sol, and headed to the retro rock section at the back. Front and centre were records made by Leonard Dreyfus, both as part of Lenny and the Rollers and as a solo artist. They looked at the records and could hardly believe it - of course they had heard of Lenny and the Rollers. But they had never thought that Leonard Dreyfus was their great-great-great-grandfather!

The internet was a wealth of information on Leonard and his family. Mac read all about the rise and fall of his musical career, his marriage to actress Valerie Shepherd, their twin daughters Daphne and Eleanor who had toured as part of the Dreyfus Family Band. The scandals and the drama that had plagued their lives. No wonder Eleanor had decided to run away to become a hippy.

Their investigation took them to the hills of Del Sol, where an online map to the stars had guided them to find the historical and revered mansions of the rich and famous. Following their map they arrived in front of a mid century marvel - the apparent home of Leonard Dreyfus and his family, still here after all the decades.

Mac stood in front of the house and popped in their earbuds to play a Lenny and the Rollers song to fully immerse themselves in the moment. Here they stood in the exact same place as their famous ancestors.

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Taking their grandmother to visit her childhood home was one of the most memorable experiences of Mac’s young life. They felt such a deep connection to their grandmother and their own origin; seeing where their grandmother had grown up had just excited them further to know more about where they had come from.

Back at the retirement home, Heather showed Mac some more of her preserved family photos. She pulled out a very old photo full of people Mac didn’t recognised.

‘This was my father,’ explained Heather. 'And this is him with his siblings and parents. I never met my grandparents on my paternal side… they died before I was born, but I know their names were Eleanor and Gary. And that was aunt Clover - she was very impressive. Uncle Indigo, he passed away young too, it was terribly sad for my Dad. And Aunt Summer, her kids were my cousins and so much fun.’

'Where did they grow up, San Sequoia?,’ asked Mac.

'Oh no… see, my Dad grew up in a hippy commune in Sulani, would you believe it. I think that’s why he was always such a straight guy - like he was trying to pretend that wasn’t his life. There aren’t many photos from his childhood, but the ones I do have speak for themselves.’

Mac was fascinated by this bizarre hippy family that they had supposedly descended from. With their grandmothers photos in hand, they decided to take a trip down to Sulani, to retrace their hippy roots.

But when they arrived in Sulani, it was no longer a hippy commune. The township was filled with modern beachfront condos, a haven for retirees and the successful. When Mac showed up at the place their grandmother had told them about, there was no longer a bungalow but a great big glass house. It was like all history had been demolished and replaced.

Mac was disappointed, but they weren’t deterred. Visiting the Sulani cultural centre, they hoped to find some kind of history on the origins of the Sulani community. And they weren’t disappointed - there was a whole section dedicate to the origins of Sulani in the 1960s and 1970s, and the activism of its community during a time of political conflict and rebellion.

And there on the wall, was a picture of the house that Mac had seen in their grandmothers photo. It was a blue beach shack, and the plaque underneath read:

Original Sulani beach bungalow, built by Gary Lenowski c. 1970

Mac was chuffed to see that the Lenowski branch was being kept alive in history here in Sulani. Even though they could never know, they liked to think that their great-great-grandparents were cultural revolutionaries.

Mac sat on the beach and reminisced on what they had found. River, Clover, Indigo and Summer, the children of hippy revolutionaries. Gary Lenowski, who had built their home. And Eleanor… what was her maiden name? Where had she come from.

Mac pulled out their phone and googled the names of their great-great grandparents, and found themselves reading about The Dreyfus Family band…

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Mac was satisfied with their mother’s account of her own childhood and where she had come from; but it had only opened up more doors that Mac wanted to explore. They had heard from their mother and her siblings - but they wanted to know more. And who better to tell them than their grandmothers.

Mac tried to visit their grandma’s every few months. The years had taken a lot from them in old age, and the triplets had sequestered them back home from Tartosa to keep them close by and safe as old age began to take its toll on every facet of their lives. Heather and Jenny lived in a retirement home, albeit one that had every luxury of a resort. Whenever Mac visited, they were always busy with some activity or social engagement.

This time though, Heather was excited to see her grandchild to tell them stories of her own life. She broke out her old family photo album, the one she had held onto her whole life, with the precious few photographs she had to show where she herself had come from.

‘My mother and father were married, and they had me and my brother. You’d see these photos and think we were the perfect family, but I learnt from a young age that things aren’t always what they might seem from the outside - my Mom was unhappy, and my Dad was a workaholic. After my parents divorced, Dad married again and moved away, your classic mid life crisis. But even so, as a young girl I missed him so dearly.’

'I guess that’s the benefit of never having known my Dad,’ mused Mac. 'I can’t miss someone I never met.’

Heather smiled at her grandchild. 'Such an insightful one, aren’t you? You can’t miss what you never had… except your own memories. I did always want to see that big house we grew up in one last time before my time is up.’

Mac had a great idea. 'Why don’t we go there, granny? Just for a look?’

And so Mac took their elderly grandmother on a road trip to San Sequoia, to the address of the home she had grown up in as a child in the 80s. Except when they arrived, the house didn’t look the same.

'Well, I guess it’s to be expected,’ sighed Heather. 'All old things get remade into something new.’

Mac didn’t want their grandmother to be sad; but as they went to turn around, a family came out of the house - a Mom, a Dad and so many children.

'Sorry to have bothered,’ said Mac. 'It’s just, my granny here grew up in this house as a girl, and she wanted to see it one more time.’

The family were excited to hear Heather’s story, and invited them into the house. It was a beautiful, sunlit home with all the marks of being well lived in by a young family. It was nothing at all like it had been in Heather’s childhood - and yet, she smiled as she looked around the space, remembering that her childhood had existed right here too in a different time.

'Are you okay, granny?’ asked Mac. They didn’t want her to be feeling sad, like her childhood had been destroyed.

Heather smiled and hugged her grandchild. 'Not at all my dear. Another family lives here and is making their memories now. Think of the beaitiful layers and layers of happy childhoods that exist here. I am glad that this home is still loved.’

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Mac and Jasmine drove back to Copperdale, to visit the family home that Jasmine had grown up in. Of course now, it was the family home to her brother Quincy. After retiring, their Moms had decided to move to Tartosa to enjoy the sun and sand, but Quincy had stayed living there, growing his own family with Kylie over the decades. They now had not only Riley, but their twin sons Tommy and Billy, and were still together despite their tumultous beginnings.

The house Jasmine had once grown up in was now full of another family’s photos, and yet it still felt like home despite its updated interior. When Jasmine had called to let them know they would be visiting, the siblings and cousins had all gathered. Ginger was there with her own daughter, Lola, and hearing about Mac’s expedition to uncover their family history had brought with her the family photographs that she had been taking care of and curating over many years.

The family all congregated over the box of old film photographs, and reminisced together. A family photo of the teenaged triplets with their mothers was the first thing Mac pulled from the box, and they all laughed at their goofy hairstyles and clothes, reminiscent of 90s stereotypes.

‘Here’s one of all of you,’ Mac said, passing a photo to Ginger and Quincy, who smiled together at the sight of themselves as children.

'This one is cute, Mom’, they said as they handed Jasmine a photograph of herself and her triplet siblings as toddlers, colourful and messy-faced.

'It feels like a whole other lifetime ago,’ smiled Jasmine. 'We lived in this house our whole lives, and went through so many different stages and phases together.’

Mac jumped up to show their cousins the photos of their parents, and the triplets held one another with love as they reminisced. All in all, they had had a wonderful childhood here. They were all so different, their lives having taken diverse paths - and yet, they had still stayed close despite it all. Their Moms had done such a good job.

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Mackenzie Lane Prescott was a keen student. Ever since they were young, they had loved to learn. School had been a breeze, for a natural overachiever with a plucky attitude. Sure it had been a challenge socially, with a few bumps along the way, but Mac always knew that they were a unique individual with a raging sense of self-assuredness.

And so they found themself, in their post-high school years, a student at Foxbury Institute studing Psychology. But in their final year, with one elective left to fill, Mac decided to go out on a limb and take a sociology class for fun. The subject was called ‘Families and Relationships’, and it was all about understanding how a persons family shaped their life and opportunities. After their first class, the professor tasked each of them with going home and finding out about where they came from and how their history had shaped their opportunities.

Mac had some idea of where they came from. They knew their father was some aristocrat from England, but they had no interest in knowing anymore about him. That decision they had made long ago. Besides, having a bourgeoise paternal background hadn’t done anything to shape the life they were living now, considering they never knew them.

But their mothers side was what fascinated Mac. They were close with all of the family, and saw them regularly. But what was it about the Prescott-Jones family that had made Mac who they were? At dinner that night, Mac decided to explore the topic.

'Mom, where do we come from’, they asked. 'And I don’t like mean just Copperdale. Where did our whole family come from?’

'Well,’ said Jasmine. 'I’m not really sure how to start because I only know as much as you.’

She handed Mac a picture - a family photograph that had hung around their home for years. 'This is you and me,’ said Jasmine. 'You’re about 4 years old. We’ve lived in San Myshuno since you were born. Before then, I lived in Britechester - you know, where I met your father - for many years, before I left and came back home to raise you. We’ve always had a nice life, just you and I.’

They sat down on the couch and Jasmine passed Mac the childhood photo of them with their grandmothers. 'That’s my Moms, your grandmothers. Your grandma Heather was a chef who wrote books and tv shows, and she made a fair bit of money - I won’t lie, it helped pay for me and you to go to college, to afford a good life for us both. Does that answer your question?’

Mac thought deeply. Of course, they already knew a lot of this. It wasn’t new information. But they wanted to go deeper - what came before?

'I think I’d like to go back to Copperdale, and learn more.’

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On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me…

The end of the Langston Legacy 🪦

The final acts of the Langston Legacy launching daily from 1st December.

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Hi! Sort of, I guess. I have been working on the end segment of the Langston Legacy, and it has taken longer than I thought it would due to some complex narrative re-working, but also life circumstances like organising my kids birthday party, and all of us being sick. I had planned to have every last post ready and queued by (today…) but I might have to push it back further and call it the Langston Advent Calendar finale.

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To all my followers in the USA - I am so, so sorry.