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esex and a swiftplay will put me to sleep. 😴

i told my dad whenever i was a kid that i am a shark because sharks swim alone and everyone else at school were dolphins because dolphins like to travel in groups

@aspertameisntthesameasrealsugar @iamamene WHERE ARE YOU GIRL

baker acted

2014 pale grunge

i need to watch the hannah montana movie

let the confusion be fun

valentines day is not real. it cannot hurt me.

Living in the wrong timezone to notice when the hellsite is down - just like old times 🥹

glitter is a substance that makes you cunt

twitter is boy tumblr.

tumblr is girl twitter.

gaming journal - life is strange ( ep. 1 )

i finished the first chapter of life is strange. this is my thoughts and feelings so far.

i really like max as a character so far. i think she’s complex in the right ways. i have a lot of very differing opinions to most people often because i like to look for the complexities in things, but i would be able to understand if people didn’t like max thus far.

i think that the story did a good job of playing through tutorial steps while incorporating story elements and progression. i hate whenever tutorials feel like tutorials. i do think it’s written both too slow and too fast at times. i am only on chapter one which i understand is used to establish the setting and story, so i’m not reading too much into the problems i have with the story (yet). i will give it a chance before i make final judgement.

so far, i think chloe is cliché in a lot of ways which feels cringe. but i also think that maybe i’m just playing this too late, and she was actually a character originating the cliché instead of perpetuating it. i do think she’s in love with rachel amber. ( this was my predicament while playing that i asked @dumpsterdilf about )

i’m excited to play more. i’m also excited to buy more games after this because i really do like story games, and i don’t know why i never took the time to explore them before. having an internet addiction as a child and staying concerned with my online presence ruined so much of my life. more of that talked about and explored on my main blog ( @iamamene ), this place is supposed to be light hearted.

thanks to the people who read or follow along with this. i’m really just blogging as my own personal diary in a way. but i do appreciate anyone who even takes the time to read what i write, even if you don’t choose to grace me with interaction.

gaming journal - prologue

i have never played a lot of single player story games, but i have always really wanted to. with me realizing recently how terrible my internet addiction is, i have been wanting to stay away from the online games that perpetuate my own bad behaviors. part of this has been finding new ways to enjoy gaming, which included (for me) finally actually playing the list of games i want to play.

i have decided to log all of my thoughts about these games in journal style entries here. they won’t be regular updates or anything (unless i get hooked on a game), but they will be my personal dissections of these games based on how i decide to play them. i’m going to start with games i haven’t played before, but i also want to replay things like danganronpa and fnaf eventually.

here’s a list of the games i want to play :

- life is strange ( playing currently )

- danganronpa ultra despair girls ( playing currently )

- life is strange 2

- silent hill

- silent hill 2

- silent hill f

- the last of us part i

- the last of us part ii

- you and me and her

- fatal frame : mask of the lunar eclipse

- fatal frame : maiden of black water

- little nightmares

- little nightmares 2

- detroit become human

- lollipop chainsaw

and if you have any suggestions of more games you think i’d like based on this list, please let me know.

thanks for stopping by. first post coming out soon after this one. all of these posts and any posts related to gaming will be under #gamingjournal

my main blog is my place for the carefully crafted pieces of my mind that i want to share. this hell hole is for me to shit post freely.

“doesn’t that defeat the purpose of being performative”

neither blog is any more or less truly me. i just separate the facets of my personality. neither of them are performative for me.

so in love with him (him being the singular love of my life that hates me now) that i just block any men who interact with me. i don’t even want to interact with them. god i only want him. hes so beautiful. i love him. #yearning.

i treat fortnite more like the sims than i do anything else. i spend so much on cosmetics. i will sometimes spend time decompressing by listening to music and making fortnite loadouts. i make sure they’re all aesthetically pleasing and pick out emotes for each skin (most of the time).

i love fortnite!

but i get sad because it reminds me of my ex. he’s so good at fortnite. and he’s so hot. i love him so much.

username - 02/07/2026

roblox avatar - 02/07/2026

i wanted to make a roblox avatar mostly based on me. she has blonde hair and pink glasses like i do. i consistently wear colorful star pimple patches on my face. i wear sweats and off the shoulder tops often. the wired earbuds are a stolen feature from the love of my life (my ex). the necklace is a reference to him too. the fairy wings are just to be pretty. i like this avatar tbh. i want to find a head accessory eventually.

pfp - 02/07/2026